Welcome to the first official chapter of My Thoughts. My Voice was basically Kai talking to that voice but here, it will be diary entries. The ninja are dealing with the grief in their own way and the writer will either be pushed further up or further down thanks to past events.

Thanks for reading and hope you enjoy this

Dear Diary

A lot has happened today, mostly bad unfortunately. Sensei barely talks to any of us so we decided to take training into our own hands. No body has gone into the sick bay in a while, Zane took the body out yesterday and we're planning on having a proper funeral. I helped clean out his room, it felt unreal to think that he'll be gone forever, but hopefully he's happy.

But anyway, back to training, things were going well for an hour until Jay just stopped. Out of nowhere, he just dropped his sword and walked out. I was confused but I guess I can understand that he doesn't want to do anything. But Zane didn't, he wanted everyone together to help each other, he tried stopping Jay. It ended in an argument that I had to end, Jay short-circuited Zane and we had to drag him back in to get fixed up. He's better now though.

I think that I need to get my hair cut, it's constantly I'm my face nowadays.

I cut myself really deep this evening, it wouldn't stop bleeding and I started freaking out. The shower just made it burn even more, I almost got caught. But Jay was so much in his own bubble that he didn't notice the med kit and the blood. I can't decided if it's a good thing that he didn't catch me or bad because he didn't notice. Being invisible's a bitch, I'm finding myself getting angry just because they don't take this opportunity to see how bad someone in the team can get when left alone.

But who am I to talk, I'm the one who wanted to hide it.

I haven't eaten since the incident, I feel like I've lost my appetite forever, Jay won't even look at me, Zane wants to help and... everyone on the Bounty is just zombies. I wore short sleeves today, but I had bandages, I wonder if the noticed. I guess not.

Until next time Diary

A/N: well that lays the foundation for this fic, the POV shall be revealed when someone guesses it correctly. Or when I get tired of keeping it hidden. Here's your hint; It can be one of three people, either Nya, Cole or Lloyd. Who do you think it is?

A lot of what happens (as it was in the last fic) will be based in things that I experienced so hopefully my life isn't too boring for this. Have a nice Monday :) and please don't forget to leave a review even if you're just saying hey