AN: A word to the wise. Aka. Warning. Basically, there are a lot of references to masturbation in this. Don't like, don't read; simple as. It's implied one-sided HichigoxIchigo. (Hollow!Ichigo, Shirosaki, Hichigo, Ogichi, whatever you like to call him. King refers to Ichigo, if you don't really get their relationship). This has taken me a good many months to complete. I have no idea why. It just… did. So the writing style somewhat changes as you go along, but I'm sure it isn't very noticeable. Anyway, on with the story. R&R, as always.
.HALLELUJAH.
Well I've heard there was a sacred chord
Everything you think – I hear it.
I hear every. Single. Word. Imagine that, huh? Imagine your deepest darkest secrets. Heck, you don't even have to say what you imagine – I hear it. I hear it as clear as you hear it, as clear as day. As clear as night. It's always night here. A maddened, blackened backdrop to your musings.
David played and it pleased the Lord
You think you're crazy when you hear our voices. But I never think you're crazy. Maybe sometimes I feel crazy, 'cause I can hear your voice, hear your musings, hear you praying whenever you think you're gonna die. You can hear me, you can hear me screeching.
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
I'm a last resort. But I could help you. I could help you in so many ways. If you'd just submit to me, King, then I could make your whole world move in ecstasy. I'll show you, I'll show you the seven greatest wonders.
Well it goes like this...the fourth, the fifth
Just sit back, relax, take it easy. Let me touch you, let me feel you so that you can feel what it feels like to feel , I can make it so good for you, King.
The minor fall
Submit to me, let me feel your body first hand. I want to run your own fingers over your own skin. Teasing brushes over your neck, your chest, brown stubs growing hard against your own touch, your abs feeling so masculine, so mine, so yours. I wanna feel the gliding downwards strokes of your fingers against your skin. Let those fingers turn more inwards so that your nails scratch down, down, your stomach, that delicious inward slope where the cord of safety was cut from you and you started to live for the first time. Trickle downwards, downwards.
And the major lift,
I can make it feel so good for you, King. And you can imagine, you can imagine all of this! You can imagine my body, cold and bleached and white. My hands pressed on your wrists (like who the hell doesn't keep handcuffs in their room at all times? would have been so much easier…), pinned down above your head to keep you held down. And 'cause my hands are so busy stopping you from resisting, I'll just have to use my mouth. Teeth scrape against your neck. That column of sweat and pulse, bared for me to bite you. Make you my own. Make you submit.
The baffled King composing Hallelujah
Imagine it. Go on. Just imagine it. Oh sorry, I forget – YOU HEAR MY WORDS. YOU HEAR MY VOICE IN YOUR HEAD, MAKING YOU CRAZY, CRAZY, CRAZY, CRAZY, CRAZY. Imaaaaaagine that, Kiiiiiii~iiing~! Imagine that picture of you below me, screaming for me, screaming for me to take you! You wanna feel me in the most intimate way possible. You want me inside you. You don't want me in your mind. You want my tongue against your head. You want me to make you feel, feeeeeeel. Don't worry, King, you're not crazy! I AM, I AM. Crazy, crazy, crazy…
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Well, your faith was strong but you needed proof
I can see every single dirty fantasy, King. Tut, tut, tut! Shouldn't you be the moral one? Shouldn't you be the one sticking to one girl and making her your bride? Protecting her with your life? You're not doing a very good job of that, are you? Well, look at it! You've let TWO of them nearly die! Rukia-chan, Orihime-chan! They were kidnapped and you couldn't do NOTHING. She was seconds away from DEATH. DEATH, DEATH, DEATH, DEATH, DEATH, DEATH, DEATH! ISN'T IT SUCH AN ORGASMIC WORD, KING?! DOESN'T IT MAKE YOU HARD?! Oh, GOD, it just makes me wanna...
You saw her bathing low on the roof
Well, you know how I'd finish that sentence. You've seen it. You've THOUGHT IT YOURSELF, you sick bastard! You've seen her and you've wanted her and you've dreamt about touching her and you pretend that those brushes of skin aren't intentional. Rukia, Orihime… Gawwwwwd, just pick one, King! Pick her, pick her, pick him, pick him, pick him, pick him, pick me… I never… Never got told… I just wanted… Just one… One person…
Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you.
She's beautiful, King. They both are. I…
I can't…
And she tied you to her kitchen chair
I feel so trapped. So… helpless. It's always night, it's always raining here! I'M STUCK IN HERE WITH A PIECE OF FUCKING METAL FOR COMPANY! OH GOD, LET ME FEEL!!!
She broke your throne
King, you're my King, my King… Please. I'll submit to you just once. Just this once, just this century. I'll submit, I promise. Just let me feel, please, just once. Just once make me feel…
She cut your hair
Dignity. Dignity, I just want dignity. No dignity for crazy men.
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
CRAZY, CRAZY, CRAZY, YOU'RE GOING CRAAAAZYYYYY! Feel your mind slip away, feel your fingers fumble as you try to hold on to your sanity. You lost it, you lost it so long ago! People aren't MEANT to have people in their mind! DON'T BLOCK ME OUT. You've already blocked out the sun. People need the Sun to live… Why am I alive? I'm real, I'm real…
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Well baby I've been here before
Your teardrops are the raindrops in our world. Her teardrops are crystal to you – they must never fall. What about me?! Am I allowed to fall?! I don't wanna, don't wanna! You can't make me! I'll just imagine a floor below me. The same floor every time. That way I'll stay safe, stay here, stay with you, forever and ever (just like a promise?) – you'll never get rid of me. Ever, ever, ever.
I've seen this room, and I've walked this floor
The floor that carpets your mind – it's made of wooden panels. But wood rots and wood is cold against bare feet. It slowly rots away until even the termites don't want it. Craaaaaaazzzyyyyyyyyyyyy…… Wood keeps your feet cold, King. And then your feet turn to ivory; but isn't ivory expensive? Just chop it off, make a bundle, make a fortune – fit for a King? You'll never get rid of me. Don't even try. I 'm not gonna fall.
You know, I used to live alone before I knew you.
I wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna feel.
I wanna be alone. I don't need company. I just need thoughts of you where I can think without you seeing me. I just need my hand and a blindfold so I'll keep my eyes closed. So no one sees me. So no one sees my raindrops, my crystals. Why is it so okay when I fall? STOP, STOP! I'M… I'll be okay... Big Hollows Don't Cry.
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Everywhere I go! Everywhere! IT'S YOU. IT'S YOU. WHY AREN'T YOU CRAAAAAZZYYYYYY YET?!
Love is not a victory march
No rest for the wicked, no glory for the sinners, no salvation for those that need saving! No kisses, no crystals, no raindrops, no teardrops. There's nothing here, NOTHING… Nothing but you and me and a piece of fucking metal. Don't you see, King? Don't you see that there's me and you and we're all we need… I can… I can make you feel…
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
It's always raining here, King. Smile once in a while, would ya?
I just wanted…
Your…
I just wanted you to…
Smile…
I'm choking.
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Well there was a time when you let me know
I'm… You don't get it, King. I'm here and I'm here and I'm here and I'm CHOKING forgodssake I'm choking! Nnrghhhhh! Forgodssake…
What's really going on below
You ever think about Hell? It's a bit like thinking about your dick, really. A little ugly, a little shameful to admit that you're thinking about it. Weird to say you're scared, 'cause Shinigami ain't never scared, ain't never scared of Hell. I ain't never scared of Hell, King. Ain't never been scared, 'cept for…
But now you never show that to me, do you?
Maybe when… Maybe when I think… of…
Then I'm scared. I'm so scared I can't breathe and I can't move and I can't think and I can't function and I can't be but that's okay 'cause I never was, was I? I never was. I've never been. Never breathed before, not on my own, and it makes me feel helpless and then I get scared.
And remember when I moved in you
You see this. You've seen this.
And you'll have to talk to the world like there isn't a crazy man in your head. Like there aren't two guys in your head who talk to you and say 'do this, do that!' like we're your… Your consciences.
The holy dove was moving too
But… Don't listen to me, King… Don't… I…
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
But we're still… We're still part of you. I'm still part of you; I am you so why is it such a crime to let me guide your hands?! I just want to feel you, King, it ain't no crime! It ain't no crime, King, to touch yerself! Let me… I'll make it good, make it better. And you can pretend it's… Pretend it's her or her or him or him or him or him or me. Whatever you want, King. Just let me stop your breath 'cause it's caught in your throat and you're choking. Choking on the ecstasy you didn't swallow right.
Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Well maybe there is a God above
King, you don't have to tell anyone. It's a secret. No one knows but me and you and you and me and him, I guess, if he's gonna watch it, but zanpakutous don't talk, King, they never talk 'cause they ain't got no one to talk to. It'll be a secret. And maybe there's someone watching, there's a Someone instead of a someone, and maybe he'll look down on us… On you, 'cause there ain't no us (ain't never been no us). Maybe he'll look down and he'll say, 'tut, tut, Berry! Your mother wouldn't approve!' But mother ain't here, King! Mother ain't here to say 'tut, tut, Berry! I wouldn't approve!' Oh, god, I'm CHOKING!
But all I ever learned from love
Baby, I'd choke any day if it meant you'd put your lips on mine to give me CPR.
I ain't never had lips before, not my own. If I did, would you… would you… would you k-k-k-k-k-k…
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you.
King, I'll push you to your knees. I'll k-k-k-k-k-k-kill ya! KILL YA, D'YA HEAR ME?! I HATECHA! I HATECHA! I… I… I..!
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
I ain't never gonna cry, ya hear me?! I ain't never gonna… Never gonna kiss you…
it's not somebody who's seen the light
King, you gotta a Crraaazzyyyyyy in yer head. He's a crraaaazyyyyyyyy and he… he just wants… I just want…
it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
I ain't never…
I just want…
Would ya…
I don't…
Don't listen, 'cause I…
Maybe then...
Maybe when…
Just wanted, just wanted, just wanted…!
Let me touch ya… Downwards, downwards, downwards… That's where… a heart is… isn't it?
Oh Hallelujah, Oh Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah