DISCLAIMER Cassandra Clair owns all the characters and such. All the songs in the fic will be Taylor Swift just for disclaimer's sake. And, obviously, I wrote the plot since I wrote it. And just a heads up I probably have many mistakes. I am looking for a beta for anybody interested that knows how that works. Thanks and I hope you guys like it.
"Sage these are magnificent, though before I can sign you I will need to hear you perform,"
"Of course Mrs. Wayland," I chuckled walking over to the guitar stand.
"Alright, which song or songs will you be performing for me?" Mrs. Wayland asked looking at the pages.
"I think I'll start with the end. I'll do The Way I Loved You."
He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight and I feel perfectly fine
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing and I'm comfortable
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated got away by some mistake and now
I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
"My dear, what is your story?" Mrs. Wayland asks ahed.
"Well it's a bit of a long one," I mumble.
"I've got time if it's not to much to ask." I look into the older woman's eyes a find I want to tell her.
"Well it started like most teenage stories. The mean girls sophomore year."
**Flashback to Spring of Sophomore Year**
"Really? The soccer team? You couldn't kick the ball if your life depended on it." Kaelie sneered. I could have. I could have kicked the ball right in the goal past Aline's head. But her words lingered. So, I missed.
"Sorry Morgenstern, guess you just don't have your brother's genes." The coached dismissed me. I dragged myself to the locker room and changed before sitting on the bleachers alone. I can't go home now, when dad finds out I didn't make the team he'll just say told you so. God, why are people so mean. I pull out my note pad humming a toon.
"All you're ever going to be is mean," I mutter jotting notes in my note pad. I'll write later, I think as I pull out my phone.
Yesterday 9:43 PM
Later Lewis
See you Fray
Today 4:39 PM
Time to chat?
Always for u, what's up
No go for the soccer team :(
WHAT?! But ur the best ever!
Thx Lewis but coach Manler has to disagree.
That sucks
Tell me about it
U still there?
I was just writing a negative review for Mr. Manler on
Lol
Anything for u Fray
"Seraphina! It's time to go!" Jonathan yells on his way out of the boys locker room. I scrabble after my older brother, jumping in the car just before he took off out of the parking lot. The ear splitting awkward silence in the car is usual for the two of us. He's the popular jock embarrassed of he's nothing of a little sister. It's not sibling rivalry, it's social class difference because we honestly don't like each other as people. I reopen the front door after Jonathan slammed it in my face.
"How did tryouts go?" My father leered at us.
"I made the team, Seraphina did not, and we are all surprised," my brother remarks walking up the stairs to his bedroom.
"I told you you we wasting time, thinking you could play soccer, go do your homework like your brother," my father dismisses me, just as I knew he would.
Tue, Mar 14, 7:34 PM
Bye Seb
Today 5:17 PM
Want to catch a movie later?
Seb. He was everything good about my life. My mother died when I was young, I hate my brother, my father only cares about himself and his image and Simon. Three years ago his father died and finally a year after that his mother got a job in Brooklyn so he had to move. We haven't seen each other in person since the 10 hour drive from 810 East 15 St Charlotte North Carolina to 26 Hunterfly Pl, Brooklyn New York is more than I think I can ask my father. I've really missed Simon, I used to see him all the time when he lived across the street, but then the Verlac's moved in. At first Seb really hit it off with my brother so I thought I'd hate him but a few months ago he stood up for me in the hall when Kaelie made fun of my outfit. After that we just hit it off. Lately, though, he's been seeming distant.
Today 5:17 PM
Want to catch a movie later?
Actually I have something planed, remember I asked you to make sure u were free today?
Oh
That's why I'm free
I'll meet u Carlo's in 20?
C u then
Carlo's' pizzeria is where everyone meet up after school to hang out. I was finally going to prove I was just as good as Kaelie or Aline.
20 minutes later I was pacing in the back room at Carlo's, stage fright getting the best of me. Slowly I take a deep breath knowing I can't stall for Seb any longer and walk on stage.
"Hey everybody, I'm Clary Fray and I'm going to sing a song I wrote," Clary Fray is an interesting story. Fray was my mother's maiden name and though I don't remember much of her I remember she was better than my father so I'd rather go by her name, which she never changed I might add. And Clary. My parents had always been at war over my first name. When my mother died my father had it legally changed from Clarissa to Seraphina, but I'll always remember her calling me her little sage. Legally my name is Seraphina Morgenstern, my father's daughter, but I will always be my mother's daughter Clary Fray. After my self introduction the booing starts. My brother being a popular kid had put me on their hit list, and who disagrees with the popular kids? Seb. He goes against them for me. I take a deep breath and start knowing he'll be here any second.
"Ok my song's called Sparks Fly," I step up to the microphone having heard Seb's truck pull up. I watch the door but it's the window that catches my eye. Seb and Kaelie. Kissing. Seb looks through the window and I catch his eye. He smirks. No. I almost run off the stage but then realize that's exactly what they want.
"Get on with it!" Someone yells. An idea strikes me. I can finish Mean on the spot right? It's almost done.
"Um, just one change of plans I'm going to sing my song Mean," people groan as if that sounds even worse than the first one. I take a deep breath settling my stomach as Seb and Kaelie walk through the door and hand and hand smirking at me.
You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me
You, have knocked me off my feet again,
Got me feeling like a nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, calling me out when I'm wounded
You, picking on the weaker man
You can take me down
With just one single blow
But you don't know what you don't know
Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
You, with your switching sides
And your wildfire lies and your humiliation
You have pointed out my flaws again
As if I don't already see them
I walk with my head down,
Try to block you out 'cause I never impress you
I just want to feel okay again
I bet you got pushed around
Somebody made you cold but the cycle ends right now
'Cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know what you don't know
Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
And I can see you years from now in a bar
Talking over a football game
With that same big loud opinion
But nobody's listening, washed up and ranting
About the same old bitter things
Drunk and rumbling on about how I can't sing
But all you are is mean
All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic
And alone in life and mean, and mean, and mean, and mean
But someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Yeah someday I'll be big enough
So you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so
Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
Everyone stood shell shocked that the geeky girl really has a voice. I rushed off the stage Kaelie and Seb still in the forefront of my mind. I hid in the back starting to sob as I gathered my things.
"Clary.." Seb started.
"Don't. You know what my name is Seraphina, just call me that like everyone else." I seethed.
"Clary I.."
"What! What, what, what was your goal Seb? Set me up to fail? Humiliate me? What was I, a.. a dare or a bet or something? Because honestly I don't care. I saw you outside with her! And I wrote you a damn love song. So here just take it." I shoved the papers onto his chest and ran out the back entrance. I rode my bike home in tears, which in hindsight was not a safe idea, and stormed into my room. I cried and cried and then I realized I should have seen this coming. A football player? With me? Standing up to bullies without being pushed out of social circles? I guess the jokes on me. And with that I start my third song.