Forgive me, my love
For I am unworthy of you
I came to you
As a free man shackled and chained
With the taste of freedom in my mouth
And wanted more
I needed no loyalty
Because betrayal was expected
I required no companionship
Because solitude meant safety
But you offered your trust
To the lone wolf on the run
Covered with bitterness and resentment
And I learned new words
The rhythm of penmanship
Conviction;
Assurance with sincerity
And, passion
You see, my love
I needed you before I ever met you
You took care of what had been haunting me for years
And I gave you nothing in return
You don't pry, yet you questioned
You don't ask, yet I knew what you wanted
Said what we meant
Then held on with honor and truth
We functioned in ways only we could understood
A partnership
And this fascinating dependency grew on me
Like the smirk you gave
After every tease and joke
That was when I realized
There is more I cannot fathom
An explanation to why
There was brewing desire
Bottled up within this cursed, harden shell
So I got close
Tested my self-control
Through anger, doubt, and hatred
You accepted me as I was
Gave me a weakness I could not refuse
But I was a fool
I let go before you could say no
Believed you deserved better
Disregarded your need of me
And for that, I apologize, my love.
Because you stayed
Recognized the insecurity that tied me to my past
So you waited
Patiently wore away the locks, the links
And I saw the strength
The warmth that I thought had abandoned this undeserving body of mine
And I believed
Exceptions are rare but they exist
Nothing was more soothing
Than the sound of your voice
Speaking my name, softly
I knew I am unworthy of you, my love
But that no longer mattered
Anymore