Never Felt Anything
by: Salem-sama =D HIGH AND MIGHTY I TIS
Author's note: Hi! MY FIRST PUBLISHED STORY!! YIPEE!! NO APPLAUSE PLEASE!! *cricket cricket*
o.o I wasn't being literal. Whatever. I kind of thought of this cause of a person I drew. I wish I could scan it, but I'm too lazy. Unfortunately, I won't make the next chapter for another few days so sorry! But if this story is hated, I'll just remove it. So...I dunno, I can't think of anything else to add.
X3 PLEASE ENJOY!!! AND NO FLAMES!!!
Sosuke Aizen was leading the small girl through a series of hallways in the Fourth Division building. The little blonde girl's hair barely touched her shoulder and had one bang between her eyes and another over her one eye. Her golden eyes were glassy and narrow. Sosuke was surprised to see her face so impassive as if she wasn't coming closer to her mother's lifeless corpse with each step. He finally stopped at a doorway and turned to the little girl.
"This is where she is," he told her.
"Thank you very much, Captain Aizen," the little girl said without looking at him.
"Before you go in, I was wondering if you could tell me your name. I never knew Sakura's daughter's name."
"Kinu Nagase," she said quickly."Goodbye Captain." She brushed past him. The little girl barely went past his knee, so Sosuke figured she couldn't be older than five. He stood at the doorway as Kinu walked towards her mother's body placed in the middle of the room. Captain Yamamoto stood just behind Sakura's body.
Kinu didn't even shudder. No signs of emotion at all. No pain, sorrow, anger, or anything. She looked Captain Yamamoto in the eye and asked,"How did this happen, General Captain Yamamoto?"
"No one is sure."
"Pardon me sir, but isn't that impossible? The whole Soul Society is monitored night and day, every last inch, correct?" She was acting more like this was the murder of a stranger and she was a detective than her standing before the bloodied and ragged corpse of her dearly departed mother.
"The camera's all went dead at the same time. Once they had started working again they saw her lying on the ground dead. I am very sorry ."
"There is no need to be, sir. I'm glad you informed me. Thank you, but I'll be returning to the Human world now. I can simply lie to everyone and say she fell in a river and they'll never find the remains." Kinu bowed to Captain Yamamoto and then to Captain Aizen and left for the gate to the Human World.
Kinu found herself back in the world of humans, where she belonged. The gate always just let out somewhere in the air, so she had to learn to be cat-like. She landed lightly on her feet and walked the streets. It was so cold and dark, and the rain was pounding onto the pavement. Kinu didn't want to return home because she didn't want to see her mother's belongings waiting for her mother to return. She knew she never would. It was somewhere in the middle of July, so Kinu wasn't expected anywhere. She settled herself down in an alleyway and curled up in a ball. The cold rain felt good, it numbed her body. Her mind was numb too.
Kinu didn't know how long she lay there, but she saw an orange-haired boy walking down the street with his mom. The boy looked at her in surprise and walked towards her. His mother called out, but he ignored her and bent down beside Kinu.
"Are you okay? You shouldn't be just sitting here in the rain, or you'll get sick," he said. Kinu looked up at him and realized this boy went to her school. She couldn't put a name on him though she knew he could see spirits. She was snapped out of thought whenever he continued,"Why aren't you at your house with your parents?"
His mother came up behind him and stared at Kinu in shock. Kinu surveyed them both and knew she knew them both, so she decided she would tell them her fake story and see how it worked.
"I'm Kinu Nagase. My daddy's been dead and my mommy fell into a river. I was trying to find someone to help her, but I must have collapsed." She got up and brushed of some dirt."I have to find the police," she stated and tried to run away, but the woman grabbed her arm.
"Sweetie, how about you come to my house. We'll call the police there, I promise," she said. Kinu just nodded and pretended to be hopeful her mom was alive. Like a foolish young child.
It killed her that her lie wasn't true.
I was walking to class. I slid open the door and was immediately tackled to the ground.
"GOOOOOOOOOD MORNING, KINU-CHAN!!!!" Ryu yelled cheerfully.
I rolled my eyes."You know Ryu, it be more wonderful if you weren't on top of me. Can you get off?" Yeah, Ryu had always been the kind of weirdo to tackle you the minute you entered a room. Despite that, he was in some weird form a friend.
"WELL-" Suddenly there was no weight on me, and I looked up to see Ari had just sent Ryu flying across the room.
"Freaking psycho, I thought I told you to quit attacking Kinu and Narumi," Ari growled at Ryu."Do you need me to remind you again?" I sighed, got up, and brushed my skirt off. I sometimes forget how out of control Ryu could be. And other times I forget how protective Ari was. Ever since we first met, Ari had always been like a guard dog for me and Narumi. Narumi was the more vulnerable than me, so usually Ari was tackling people off of her instead. What joy, right?
"You seem happy this morning, Ari-kun," I yawned.
"Aren't you pissed you just got tackled by Ryu?"
"If I was pissed everytime he did that, I'd never be happy."
"How would that be different from you're everyday lifestyle?"
"Hardee-har-har. You're so hilarious Ari-kun." I walked over to my desk and sat down. Man, I'm so tired I'd think I just came back from dead. Well, I guess helping the dead is halfway there. I recalled last night there had been two Hollows. One was taken care of before I could reach it, which confused me. I had finished the Hollow on the other side of town in less than a minute, and then kicked into high gear to get to the other. Before I'd been halfway across town the Hollow's presence disappeared. My theory was a Soul Reaper must have taken care of it, but I had sensed something I didn't believe. Ichigo's spiritual pressure, which had always been unnaturally high, had sky rocketed to Soul Reaper level. Maybe he...that's impossible though...
"KINU!!" I had just realized my name had been yelled like four times by Narumi.
"Sorry Narumi, lost in thought. Morning, and what's up?" I asked, sorry I hadn't heard her. Narumi's like my little sister, and I always felt guilty if I did something wrong like not hear her.
"Where's Ichigo-kun? He's not here, and thought maybe you knew. You do live, like, right beside him after all."
I shrugged."I wouldn't know. I took a different path to school today. Mizuiro should know though." I got up and walked across the room to Mizuiro's desk with Narumi trailing right behind me. As I approached, I heard Mizuiro say something about a truck crashing into the wall. I felt like somebody just punched me in the gut. Hollow...then it's my fault...no...
"A TRUCK!?" Tatsuki yelled in disbelief."SO IS HE HURT!? OR MAYBE..."
"Alive," Ichigo said as he hit Tatsuki in the back of the head with his school bag as I stopped myself from sighing in relief. Holy crap, I thought..."Hate to disappoint you, but we all survived."
I scoffed."Jeez, Ichigo. Nice way to treat someone who was afraid you were dead. Least you can say is,'Thanks for the concern' or something."
"Glad to see your happy." I growled and thought, What the hell is with everyone and commenting on how happy I look!!?? I noticed something though. Ichigo's spiritual pressure was still different. My brain tried to piece it together, but couldn't. Then I turned to go back to my desk, but saw a new student. New student? Right now? I thought in disbelief.Wait, that's...Rukia Kuchiki!? What the hell is a Soul Reaper doing-then the puzzle solved itself. I pieced together the theory I had. Rukia must have come to defend Karakura town and came upon the Hollow she had tried to get to. Somehow Ichigo must have gotten tangled up, and Rukia must have had to transferred her powers to him because she was too wounded to fight or something. I figured there must be tiny details missing, but I remembered I was still as imperfect as any human. As the day went on, I tried to piece together every bit of my imperfect theory, completely ignoring everything in the process. I'm a perfectionist, what can I say? Notes from Narumi and Ryu were thrown at me like twenty billion times, or at least it seemed so. I wonder...
"What's wrong?" I heard a voice disrupting my thoughts. I turned to see Narumi."Kinu-chan, you're so lost in thought, and you haven't touched your food. You even ignored Ari-kun." She pointed towards him."I think he's mad now." Narumi, Ari, Ryu, and I were all up on the roof having lunch. Usually someone else got to the roof first, but for once we got it.
I rolled my eyes."How horrid of me. I should be arrested," I spat in his direction."Sorry Narumi, I'm just...I dunno, out of it."
"Or..." Narumi, Ari, and I turned to Ryu.
"Or what, genius?" Ari asked. I took a sip of my juice thinking, This oughta' be good.
"OR KINU-CHAN IS IN LOVE!!!!" Ryu proclaimed as loud as he possibly could. I spit out my juice while Narumi and Ari stared at me.
"You-have-problems-Ryu," I said through clenched teeth."See-your-therapist." Ari and Narumi were staring at me. Do they think he's right!?
Ryu pointed at me."MY THEORY IS RIGHT ON THE SPOT! NOT THAT I DOUBTED IT AT ALL, BUT-"
"QUIT YELLING!" I screamed and kicked Ryu right up the chin."Who the heck would I love, you moron."
Narumi pulled out a list and put on glasses."I've thought this over many times, and I've come up with fifty possibilities. Daniel Radcliffe included." I gave her the "What the hell?" look thinking, Daniel Radcliffe? Isn't that like Harry Potter's actor? Isn't he gay?
Ari sighed and asked,"I knew you two would go off the deep end sooner or later. Kinu loving someone is as impossible as sugar-free soda that tastes good or the Moon being made of cheese. Her eyes say it all. 'I hate the world and everyone in it.'"
"You're on the list too, Ari-kun. Don't be jealous," Narumi reassured with a goofy smile. Ryu started frantically reading the list while Ari had a look on his face as in 'She's gone off the deep-end.' Mission: Ignore pyscho friends. Mission failed. Just then I felt a Hollow's presence. No, not now! I yelled inside my head, hoping my face didn't give away my sudden shock. Jeez, Hollows just loved to show up at the worst times. I hated this. Unfortunately I couldn't just disappear at lunch, so I'd just have to pray Ichigo saved the day.
"Kinu!" Ari yelled. I screamed as I fell over since I had totally been spaced out.
"Ow..." I muttered, then yelled,"WHAT!?"
Ryu yelled,"YOU KNOW WHAT!? WHO'S THE MYSTERY GUY AND WHAT'S HE GOT THAT I DON'T!?" Then he gasped."MAYBE SHE HAS HOOKED UP WITH DANIEL! IF SO, I'M DOOOOOOMED!!" He began to cry and started muttering to himself about defeat. Narumi patted his shoulder, trying to reassure him.
I finally snapped."HOW THE HELL DID THIS CONVERSATION EVEN START!?"
"TRYING TO STOP IT FROM GOING ON!" Narumi yelled happily."OH MY GOSH, I'VE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR THIS! CONGRATS KINU-CHAN!" Narumi hugged me so tight I thought maybe she was trying to kill me.
"I give up," I sighed in defeat."Believe whatever you want, but I have no boyfriend." I spotted something lying on the pavement. It was Ichigo's body, lying there like somebody had knocked him out cold."ICHIGO!"
Ryu jumped up and pointed at me,"IT'S ICHIGO! I KNEW IT!"
"NO YOU MORON, ICHIGO'S PASSED OUT!" I yelled as I headed for the side of the building. I grabbed a pipe and began my descent. Like James Bond or something. With the Mission Impossible theme in the background. Oh yeah...oops my thoughts are drifting again.
Ari yelled,"What are you doing!?"
"Getting to the ground!"
"There's a thing called stairs!!" he yelled, but by that time I had slid as close to the ground as I could and jumped down. I could still hear Ari trying to stop Narumi from trying to slide down the pipe too while I ran toward Ichigo. I knew his soul must be combating the Hollow right now, but I pretended to be confused.
Suddenly I heard someone yell,"TEACHER!! STRAWBERRY PASSED OUT!!"
And that day I comprehended my life was going to turn around.
Jeez, again?
June 16th, Nighttime:
I was lying on Narumi's bed half-listening to the story she was telling me. The other half of me was monitoring Ichigo's spiritual pressure to make sure the Hollow he was facing hadn't killed him yet. The fight was lasting too long for comfort, and I knew what Hollow he was facing. It was the same that had killed his mother.
"Kinu-chan...you look really sad," Narumi said, inspecting me."Is my story depressing?"
"Sorry, its just...today's the day Ichigo's mom died six years ago. ," I said, staring out at the rain.
"Oh yeah, I felt really bad for him. What happened exactly?"
"I don't know the details really, but I know Ichigo looked for her along the river for a few days." The rain wasn't heavy. It would've been more soothing if it didn't bring back such horrible memories.
Kinu...listen to me, Kinu...
There was suddenly a voice in my head. It was almost like my own, but more venomous and evil. I felt a chill run down my spine.
I'll be the death of you, Kinu Nagase. You and your friends...
What the hell!? What the hell are you and how the fuck did you get in my head!? Get out! And don't you dare threaten my friends!
Goodbye for now, Kinu...See you later...
"Kinu-chan, you look like you just saw a ghost? Are you sick?"
I swallowed."Yeah, I think I'm sick. Can we just get some ice cream please?"
"Ooooo! That sounds good!" Narumi said as she led me down the stairs and started to blabber about ice cream toppings. I tried to forget that voice, but how could I?
Ichigo walked into school the day after fighting the Hollow. Crap, all the wounds I got from Grand Fisher still hurt like hell. Damn. He was about to sit down when somebody tapped him on the shoulder.
"Oh Narumi," Ichigo said."What's up?"
"Ichigo, where's Kinu?"
"How am I suppose to know?"
"Well she lives beside you. I was just wondering," Narumi said, then looked at her feet."I'm worried. She was really pale whenever she left my house yesterday. I told myself she was right and she was just sick, but I think something is wrong."
"WHAT!!??" Ryu yelled."WHAT HAPPENED TO MY SWEET KINU-CHAN!!??"
Ari walked behind him and smacked the back of his head."Shuddup, you moron. I'm sure Kinu's fine," he lied. He was actually pretty worried. Kinu came to school no matter how sick she was.
Ichigo sighed."Don't worry about it Narumi," Ichigo said."I'm positive she's just sick, that's all." He looked at Rukia, seeing what she thought about this. Rukia gave him a look that meant "This can't be good."
I laid on my bed, gripping the edges tight and holding my eyes shut. I hadn't gone to school or called anyone telling them I was sick once I knew they were all home. Maybe I should've, but I couldn't move. Go away, go away, go away... I wished to the voice.
Now now, Dearest Kinu. Why do you want me gone? The fun hasn't even begun yet.
Whatever you have planned won't happen while I'm in control.
We'll just have to fix that won't we?
DON'T YOU DARE-!!
MWHAHAHAHAHA CLIFF HANGER!!! X3 THANK YOU FOR READING!!!