Shaun's POV
Light beamed threw my window and into my room as my Mother pulled back the blinds in an attempt to wake me up. I must have slept through my alarm.
"Get up Shaun or you will be late for school." She said flatly walking out of the room.
"Good morning to you too." I sarcastically mumbled to myself.
I turned around and looked at my clock on my bedside table checking the time. I had slept through my alarm.
I was definitely going to be late for school. Unless someone drove me. I walk to school usually but maybe not today. But the chance of that is very low since Dad would already be at work and Mum wouldn't care if I'm late. Mum does drive my little brother to school though. Because it's in the same direction as her work. Liam had started high school this year and he goes to a different school then me. He goes to a private expensive school while I'm sent off to a shitty public one. The reason being because my parents say they can't afford to send us both to a private school so they chose to send the youngest... and the most loved. Liam is always favoured and loved more than me. I do love Liam though. He is the only person who is ever happy to have me around.
I sighed and got out of bed and walked to my wardrobe and got out my clothes for the day. A black shirt a pair of skinny jeans and my converse. I made sure to grab a jacket as well, even though it was supposed to be a nice day today, to cover my cuts. Yes, I self-harm. I am also gay and get teased about both these things a lot at school. I'm known as a "gay emo" and have no friends at all. The only friend I really have is my cousin Amber. But she moved to England two years ago and since I live in Australia it is hard to stay in contact especially because she is always busy with friends. We talk through text every now and then.
My family don't know I'm gay or an "emo". If they found out I was gay my Dad would kick me out. I can't imagine what shit I'd be in if they found out I self-harm.
I quickly got dressed and ready and went downstairs.
"Good morning Shaun." Liam happily greeted me from where he was sitting at the table eating his breakfast.
"Morning Liam. How di-" I was going to ask him how he had slept but Mum interrupted like I wasn't even there.
"Come on Liam we better go." She said grabbing her handbag and keys.
"Mum. Would you mind driving me to school today so I'm not late? "I asked her testing my luck.
"Of course not! It's your fault you slept in and you're going to be late!" I knew it.
"O.k." I answered.
"And for goodness sake Shaun don't forget your keys today! Poor Mrs Wittleson across the road having to be disrupted by you." She said and then walked out the door Liam right behind her.
I forgot my house key on Friday and went across the road to Mrs Wittleson's house to ask her if Mum had ever told her where she kept the spare key and then she made me stay at her house while waiting for Liam's friend to drop him home. Then we broke through the toilet window like ninjas.
Talking about Liam. Stupid thing didn't wash his dishes. I quickly washed them for him, grabbed my keys and my bag and left for the hell hole they call "School".
Luckily I don't live very far away from school and it was only about a 5 minute walk. So I wasn't too late. After I got a late pass from the office I went to my first class. Science. When I walked into the classroom everyone glanced and then went back to acting like no one walked into the room. Including the teacher. I went and sat where I usually sit. Right in the back corner away from everyone. I briefly listened to the teacher explaining some assignment that I don't have to worry about because I already knew that Mr Jamison wouldn't ask me for it.
"You'll be working in groups of three." He explained to us. That doesn't matter either because no one would want me in their group.
Everyone started to whisper and giving people the want-to-be-in-my-group look.
"But!" Mr Jaminson said loudly regaining everyone's attention. "I will be choosing the groups." He said getting upset and annoyed groans from the class which he ignored. "I will be writing your names on a piece of paper and pulling them out of a hat. Then I will pull them out in the groups of three." Ok. Great. I guess this means that means I have to do it. And socialize with people who hate me. The main problem is... I wasn't really listening to the explanation of the assignment so I don't know what we have to do.
"The assignment is homework so you either have to organize homework dates at home or spend your lunch at the library doing it. It is due next Monday giving you exactly a week to complete it before handing it in to me in our class." He then walked out to go get the hat with our names in it. Whoever gets put with me is going to hate poor Mr Jaminson.
He walked back in with a hat with little pieces of paper inside it.
I could hear some of the whispers around the room some of them hoping to be together and some of them saying they hoped they are not put with me and they feel sorry for whoever does get forced with me. Nothing different.
I wasn't really listening to Mr Jaminson while he was calling out the names until I heard mine.
"Shaun Diviney" He said looking into the back corner. Everyone turned to quickly look at me and then quickly turned back around.
"You will be with..." He pulled out two other pieces of little paper then read them out. "Bradie Webb and Andy Clemmensen." He said then moved on to the next piece of paper. Putting our names on the desk in front of him.
Had I heard correctly? Andy Clemmensen was the most popular guy in the school! And I also kinda think I'm in love with him, Even though I already know that he would never love me back. He is gay though, but everyone accepts his sexuality. Bradie Webb is his step brother and they do almost everything together. They would be happy to be in the same group, but not happy about me being in it.
When Mr Jaminson finished reading out the groups he told us to spend the rest of the lesson to sit with our groups and start working on the assignment. Everyone got up and started moving around to be with their groups. I got up and trudged over to where Andy and Bradie where sitting.
"Hey" Bradie said looking up at me. Andy looked up into my eyes. We stared into each other's eyes until Bradie interrupted our stare.
"I'm Bradie and this is my brother Andy." He politely introduced. I don't know why though, everyone knows who they are.
Andy smiled at me and I smiled back.
"I'm Shaun." I introduced myself.
"Well Shaun, would you like to come over tonight after school so we can work on the assignment?" Bradie asked nicely. They were being nicer than I thought they would be. Well Bradie was...
"Um. Sure" I smiled. I was so flattered I have never been asked to go to anyone's house before.
"Ok cool" Bradie smiled. I looked over at Andy. He had his head down and looked like he was deep in thought. I wonder what he was thinking about. Then I realized I would be in a lot of trouble if I didn't tell Mum I was going to Andy and Bradie's house.
"I'd have to ask my Mum first." I said looking back up at Bradie.
"Of course." He said.
"I'll text her at lunch and ask." I told him.
"Ok" He said back.
"So with this assignment... Did you two listen? Because I didn't." I confessed. They both laughed at me and we started working on our assignment. Andy barely said anything. But when he did speak my heart melted at his angelic voice.
Andy's POV
The bell signalling the end of Period 1 and the start of period 2 rang. I stood up and grabbed my things and quickly walked out. Bradie following right behind me
"What's wrong Andrew?" Bradie asked worriedly.
"Nothing" I said walking faster.
Bradie is a great brother, but sometimes he can be a bit to caring. Thankfully he said no more.
What was wrong though? I hadn't said anything to Shaun. He must think I hate him. But that isn't true. I don't hate him. I love him. I had never thought much about him before. Everyone is always teasing him and calling him things like "Gay Emo". He might not even be gay or emo. People just assume things. I feel bad now though. I let all my friends do these things to him. Mostly Michael Chris and Darren. They are always coming after school saying they bashed Shaun during P.E or something else about him. And I just let them. Even though I didn't really say much shit about Shaun only the small comment. But know that I know how amazing he is... well seems... I really do feel really bad for him. I had never really noticed him or looked at him until today when he got put in Bradie and I's group. But when I saw him it was like the whole world stopped and all that mattered was him. Like my heart jumped out from my chest and sprinted to him wanting to be with him forever. He is so beautiful and he has such a sweet voice and smile, they melt my heart every time he speaks or smiles. I don't know how the people who have paid some attention to him before still tease him. He is... seems... amazing. I will have to ask him later if the gay and "emo" rumours are true.
I got to class and took my seat next to Bradie. I didn't pay much attention to Bradie, the teacher, or the others in the class. I just daydreamed about the amazing boy I just met
Shaun's POV
The rest of the day flew by quickly and before I knew it, it was lunch.
I went and sat down at the old bench under the tree, where I usually sit and pulled out my phone and sent my Mum a text. "Hey Mum. I'm going to go to a class mate's house after school to work on an assignment. Love you." I don't know why I tell her I love her. She never says it back.
"Fine. Will you be home for dinner?" See, no "Love you too Shaun."
"Not sure yet. I'll text you later and let you know."
I spent the rest of lunch sitting by myself looking down at my not very interesting shoes. They become very uninteresting when you sit there staring at them every day.
I heard footsteps coming towards me but I thought they were going to walk past, so didn't look up till I heard his voice.
"Uh, Hi Shaun. Um, Bradie was, um, wondering if you had asked your Mum about tonight?" He asked nervously scratching the back of his neck looking at the ground. He was so adorable. And his lip piercing added to his hotness. The way he was sucking it...
"Um, yeah. She said I can come over." I answered his, well Bradie's question.
"Ok cool." He looked up and smiled at me. I smiled back. You could never resist smiling back to his beautiful smile.
The bell for last period rang and I stood up.
"Bye Andy."
"Bye Shaun. Meet us near the front gate near the crossing after school." He told me then walked away in the opposite direction.
This was the worst part of the day. P.E. The subject I have with Michael, Chris and Darren. They are so fucking mean.
I walked into the stadium and didn't even bother to get changed. I just went and sat in a corner. I do this every P.E class. The teacher doesn't care.
I watched as everyone else participated in the sport. About half way through the lesson, they came over to me. Oh joy.
"What's wrong today Shaun? Why aren't you participating in class?" Michael said in a fake sweet voice.
"Leave him alone Mike. He can't play because he can't get sweaty and take off his jumper otherwise everyone will see his cuts and scars!" Darren said in the same sickly fake sweet voice.
"Stupid pathetic gay emo piece of shit!" Chris said meanly, breaking the fake sweetness.
By know I was holding back tears, but a few escaped when they started kicking my stomach hardly.
"Boys, get back over here!" The teacher yelled when he noticed they were missing. They laughed and one of them kicked my eye before they all went away.
I got up ignoring the sharp pain in my stomach and got my bag from the change rooms and went into the toilets towards the back of the school and locked myself in a cubical. No one ever came in these toilets.
I sat on the lid of the toilet seat crying and pulled out my blade from my pants pocket. I dug it deep into my arm and slid it across making a horizontal red bleeding line. I repeated the same thing several times and then just sat there staring at the blood dripping out, crying. They are all right. I am pathetic.
The bell for the end of the day finally rung and I walked out of the cubical that had been my escape for 3 years. Since year 7. I looked at my appearance in the mirror. I had a black eye from where they kicked me. Oh well. The only person who would worry would be Liam. I quickly fixed my hair making my side fringe cover my black eye and walked out with my head down to the front gate to meet up with the beautiful Andy and his friendly step brother Bradie.