Song and Title: "I'm With You"
Artist: Avril Lavigne
Pairing: Rogan (Marie & Logan)
Disclaimer: I don't own the song or the characters.
Story by: Dark Kitten Saki
I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I wondered as I walked away from the mansion, after Jean's funeral, if you'd even notice I was gone. I hoped so. But I didn't think so. The Logan in my head was telling me where to go. He was more worried what would happen to me since I wasn't around you. He steered me away from the people who would hurt me, because, let's get real, his senses were far more advanced than mine. I followed his lead blindly.
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
Finally, I stopped running on a high bridge and looked over the water. It was dark and I was broke. I had no idea where I was going to stay the night. The clouds rolled in, and I thought of Storm. I missed her. I missed everyone. But, I couldn't watch you beat you're self up any more. I tried. I really did…. But… I wanted to cry every time I saw that look in your eyes, and your abused body that looked half starved. It was like you had wished it were you….
Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
It was getting cold, and I was sure it was going to rain soon. I didn't know what to do. I was alone. I was just trying to clear my head, but to the darling Logan in my head it meant running. I sighed deeply. I don't even think they notice I'm gone. But then, that doesn't make sense. Jubilee would say something and so would Piotr…. They know but do they care…?
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I looked to my inner Logan again, and let him take over for the night. I just turned to him, and let go. I didn't really care anymore; I knew he would let anyone hurt me. He was helping me, protecting me just like always, and I loved him for it.
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
That said, I get the feeling I don't know Logan. Not as well as I originally thought…. But, that could also come for him not really knowing himself. I was afraid in some ways…. Who knows what he lived through before I found him, and he me? I just hope it doesn't break him if it's riddled with horror.
I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
I shook off the feeling, and looked out through my eyes scanning hoping to see someone I knew. With Logan in control, if they tried to get too close he might attack them. A familiar place or landmark, they would have been a welcome sight too….
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone
I had no such luck. I was scared. I was alone and I had Erik running around trying to get me to do something stupid. I'd figure out what later. Logan found a decent place to crash, better than an alley or something. A park, I think.
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
I stayed there, lying awake for a long while trying not to cry. The wind had kicked up, and it was colder now. Plus, my cloak wasn't as warm as it could have been. I could hear my inner Logan trying to comfort me. How is it that my inner Logan wasn't half as depressed as the real Logan was?
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I feel asleep with that question on my mind. But I dreamed of Logan coming to find me, and he asked me if I was running again. I told him no, it was just the Logan in my head was restless. He took over my rational though for a while, but got over it. He frowned, and told me it was his fault. I glared at him, and told him to forget it. That I didn't care, because it was him in my head. I told him I knew he wouldn't let anything happen to me. He looked at the ground, seeming to mull that thought over.
Oh why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea yea yea
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
I couldn't read his face. He had it hidden from me, and that annoyed me. I called to him sharply, and told him to look at me, which he did. Then I told him I loved him, and that I loved having him in my head. He looked at me disbelievingly, but I insisted heatedly. Then, I shivered, even in my dream I couldn't be warm….
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
His eyes widened and he stared at me like I'd grown another head. It took him a while to realize I was shivering. Once he did though, he handed me his jacket to put on. I smiled ruefully knowing anyone else except Jean would have had to freeze. I mumbled a thank you as I put it on, and smiled at him warmly.
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
He asked me, after a long moment of silence, if I was lost. I nodded sheepishly, and gave him a quiet affirmative. He smirked at me like he did when he couldn't decide why I had done what I had done, and gave up trying to understand. He took my hand and started to walk. We walked to a main street. He told me to follow it for about twenty miles Southeast, and I would recognize where I was.
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
I gave him a kiss on the cheek, and thanked him again. I made a move to give him back his jacket when he stopped me, and told me to give it to him when I saw him next. Then someone shook my shoulder, but I didn't want to leave this Logan here. Then he told me to go, and wake up because someone was worried about me. So I woke up to see my Logan. I stared wide-eyed at him as I whispered his name. He had come to find me.
"Did you think I'd let you go, Marie?"
Thanks for reading my song fic. Please review and tell me if it was to pity party-ish or whatever okay?
Thank you!
Saki