Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. It mostly belongs to J.K Rowling and whomever she decides. Like her editors. But I'm not one of her editors. So no, I don't own it. I'm just borrowing a couple of her characters for a while.

I Have Every Reason To Hate You

Malfoy-

Maybe once I've finished writing this letter I'll feel better. Of course, you'll never actually get to read it, but I need to get it all out, all this emotion I'm bearing inside of me. There's so much I'd like you yell at you that it'd take forever and a day to finish.

I don't know why I'm writing it though after that. Even being rewarded the title "The Smartest Witch in My Year" I still haven't quite figured it out.

However, I feel with all my heart that I have every reason on earth to hate you with my entire being, and I know I do.

You know that you completely ruined my life, left me shattered. My whole world absolutely torn apart. Not that you would care. After the Death Eaters took over, you showed your true colours. I never should have believed that there was something good in you. Never. I never thought you would lie to me. You conniving bastard.

You killed my parents, the ones I thought would be safe. Their bodies were found mangled on their living room floor, splattered in blood. I almost didn't recognize them, or the house that I grew up in. You smashed the family heirlooms, stole all the money that was in the house, completely destroyed the rooms and you worst of all destroyed all the photos. All the memories that I kept in that house are now gone, along with my parents' lives.

You betrayed us to them. The ones that you swore to us with every fibre of yourself that you'd destroy.

Your words were poison, letting us believe what you said to us about Voldemort, giving us the hope that we could actually succeed to build a better place where there would always be hope, and then you swiped our hope right beneath our feet in that one last fight as you started picking us off, one by one, eventually giving Harry to Voldemort when he was defenceless.

You are a coward and have no sense of dignity and no courage whatsoever to even give your enemy a chance to live. And that was after stabbing Ron with that dreadful knife.

That's something I'll never forgive you for.

You're an unfeeling git.

You had the chance to be a good person. To decide to do the right thing for once in your life. Even Snape decided that he was with us. You let us all down.

We believed in you, that you had changed for the good. We thought that you had decided to make a difference to all those lives that could have been saved. All those children who never even had the opportunity to even have a life, to get married, go to Hogwarts even, to experience the things that you take for granted, you disgusting pig.

And those who did actually make it to school, you corrupted their minds. The ones who should be creating, not killing. And you made them kill each other, their friends, just for a sport.

Worst of all, you left me alive to suffer. I remember us talking about how it would be one of the worst things in the world to happen to us. We were strolling alongside the riverbank that night – when you said you loved me.

You completely and utterly betrayed my trust.

Remember that I saved your life that one time? When you were about to be run over by a truck – not that you even knew what it was at the time.

You owe me your life.

Although you spared me at the last battle, you subjected me to a lifetime of torture.

Yesterday I saw you through the bars of my cell with Pansy, who still looks more like a pug than ever. She was hideously batting her eyes, puckering her lipstick smeared lips up to give you a kiss. I never ever wanted more to curse you and her.

Is she better than me? Do you even regret making me feel that way? I loved you Draco. Does it keep you up at night – remembering how you tricked me? Did you ever, even for a second stop and actually believed that you loved me too?

Did you ever feel guilty that I truly loved you?

Do you ever repent about what you've done to my life?

To so many other lives?

I should have left you to die when you ran out so stupidly in front of that truck.

I have every reason to hate you.

I could despise you with every fibre of my body.

But I won't.

Because I love you.

A/N: This was originally going to be called 'Ten Reasons Why' and there was going to be ten reasons why Hermione hated Malfoy… But then I couldn't think of ten. So there's just some that I made up. What a lame excuse eh?? Tell me what you think!