A/N: Howdy people! That was a while~ did you miss me? *chuckle* Anyway, I'm back with a new collection of short drabbles/one-shoot of no one else but our OTP HonoMaki. Each chapter will be inspired by a song I will be listening to. I already have several playlist so look forward for an overdose of HonoMaki.
That's all! May you all enjoy!
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Kumori Glass no Mukou (by Hikita Kaori — Maria-sama ga Miteru Ending 4)
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Disclaimer: I still do not own Love Live…sadly…
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"Honoka…" That voice was my favorite melody. Her crimson red hair being swept by the wind was my favorite spectacle. She was my idol; I really admired her, physically, mentally and spiritually. She was cute, beautiful and most of all kind…but tend to not be too honest with herself. I, however, loved all these traits of her personality.
Without even realizing it, you have slowly gained a place in my heart. We spent so much good time together. We were good friends.
Friends… I really loved the sound of that word. I cherished it close to my heart.
Since the first day we met, all I wanted was to somehow get closer to her. That was back when Kotori-chan, Umi-chan and I were struggling against fate to find a way to save our school. I didn't want to admit it but I was desperate. I thought all hope were lost.
That was when I saw and heard her for the first time. She has singing "Aishiteru Banzai" with so much passion and emotions that I was left speechless. Her way of playing the piano, her way of singing…all that was accompanied by her dazzling look.
Since that day, I have insisted—forced you to get to help us—and to join our little team. In the end, I was so happy that she has become one of us. We went from strangers to teammates and friends in a very brief period.
She was very reserved at first, always keeping everything to herself and blatantly lying—acting tsundere—out of either embarrassment or for unknown reasons. I wanted her to open up to the others. I even went as far as to force her sometimes with the intention of curing her shyness and her lack of comfort around the others.
Later on, we became closer. The term "friends" couldn't satisfy me anymore. I know I was selfish but my brain couldn't work sanely anymore. Plus, I had that bad habit of always doing/thinking things just from impulsion without thinking ahead.
One fateful day, I have decided to confess my feeling for her, on the same rooftop we always had practice with the µ's.
The following since was very painful, our eyes glued to the soil. I could have sworn the wind has stopped as to add more into the already awkward situation. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't say anything. She, on the other hand, was confused, embarrassed and maybe disgusted. After all, I would understand. It would be normal if a senpai—of the same gender as you—call for you to the rooftop and confess even though you've only known each others for few months in addition to the fact that you have considered her like a friend/senior and nothing else.
"Maki-chan…" I spoke awkwardly, slowly clearing my throat and lifting my head.
"I… I will think about it… J-just give me a little time…" She said without lifting her face, her cheeks changing from pink to pale. There was no doubt that confusion has replaced her embarrassment.
And with that, she slowly walked toward the exit without any more word. I did the same after being sure that she was already gone. I also made sure to hide that event/accident to even my childhood friends. I was ashamed of myself and didn't want to get lessoned by Umi-chan who would surely spend an hour repeating that my action was "shameless".
The next day, Maki-chan avoided me. Each time our route crossed, she always found a way to flee away. Of course, the other member of µ's started getting concerned. Knowing Nozomi-chan, she must have understood but fortunately has kept her mouth shut. Rin-chan on the other hand—thankfully—was dense enough to not realize and I thanked God for that.
I started to feel emptiness inside of me. I felt guilty. I didn't feel like eating, something unusual. My nights were sleepless, my conscience becoming heavy as I thought about what I have done. It was also starting to become tiring to try to hide my problems to Mom, Dad and Yukiho.
It was as if a transparent glass was placed in front of me, preventing me to reach you. Said glass was becoming more and more misty every passing day.
I couldn't see you anymore. I was scared of the idea of losing you. Oh; please! Please let me look at you. You can even stare at me with accusing eyes but please allow me to see your face again.
I have come to realize how much I loved her. I needed to be by her side. My wish was to wake up beside her every morning, to have lunch together, to spend our last moment together…
Later on, our relationship worsened. With me being the leader of µ's and her as the composer, our relationship remained at that level. I felt lonely, now her voice always seemed so distant and cold as if I was some stranger.
It was as if you were wearing a mask. You did smile but I couldn't feel any warmth from it. You did act coldly. That pained me.
"Honoka-chan, how about we go out to see a movie this week-end?" My childhood friend Minami Kotori has proposed, one day, as she saw how down my moral was. I have still attempted to lay a smile myself but no matter how hard I tried, a sign always escaped my face from time to time.
"Sorry. I already have something planned." I lied with a forced smile. I knew she didn't buy it as she opened her mouth to protest but remained silent before giving a weak smile.
"Don't push yourself too much in that case. Okay?"
With a nod, I stood up and walked out of the classroom.
I was not in the mood. All I wanted was to fix the link between Maki-chan and me.
It was as if the glass between us has turned thicker. I couldn't hear your voice anymore.
That soft and relaxing voice…my favorite melody. I was depraved of it. Oh; please! Let me listen to your voice. You can even insult me but please allow me to hear anything from your innocent mouth.
This damn glass is so getting in my way. I can feel the cold from loneliness taking me away. I want to feel your warmth. I couldn't live like this anymore.
I wanted to cry out…scream… 'I'm going to risk it all! An all-or-nothing!' I shut my conscience up and walked toward the first year's classroom. It was almost empty except for three familiar individuals. Without saying a word, I walked in, my steps heavy andgrabbed the red-head by the arm before dragging her to the music room, leaving a pair of confused girls.
"Jeez! What do you think you're doing, Honoka?" She asked, annoyed as I pushed her in the room and locked the door behind.
I turned to her, my eyes reflecting seriousness. "Maki-chan… No; Maki." I shook my head, dropping the 'chan' honorific as to prove how serious I was. "I am sure of my feelings! I love you and want to spend the rest of my life by your side. And nothing will make me change my mind."
"Honoka…"
"Listen to me!" I interrupted, taking a step closer to her. "You are my star. You gave me hope when I needed it the most. I am honestly in love with you and I can't imagine a future without you. Truth, we are both girls…but I won't let anyone have a word about it."
Silence fell on the room for a good minute before she started laughing. Laughing…that beautiful melody I have missed so much.
"Idiot!" Maki said as she stood up straight, her lips forming a smile. "That's so like you; to say whatever's on your mind without thinking ahead. However, I'm kind of happy to hear these words. The problem is me…" She looked down. "I am a coward and I didn't know what to do. I thought that fleeing should be the best option. I was scared that I would only be a burden and slow you down…"
The red-head turned to the open window of the room, the wind gently brushing her hair.
"The truth is…" She continued, a hand on her chest. "I now realize how idiot I was." Maki closed her eyes for a second, turning in my direction and gave me the best smile she could. It made my heart skip a beat. "I am sorry! If I could go back in time, I would gladly accept your feelings…"
"Then, do it now!" I said, earning a tilt of a head from my soon-to-be-girlfriend. "Maki… I will ask you again. I love you, Maki. Please become my lover, then my fiancée and finally my wife after we graduate from college."
There was a small pause before her smile returned. "Yes… I want to."
I returned the smile, taking a step forward and reaching my hands forward, putting her in a comfortable embrace. "Now that we are going out, how about giving each others cute nicknames? What do you think of Maki-tan?"
"Please no." She said, both embarrassed and happy. "Just remain the Honoka I have come to love." Her face turned crimson red at her own words. It was a very cute spectacle. At least, until she pushed me and became the usual tsundere she was. "A-anyway, I think we should get going now. It's getting late and we also need to explain few things to Rin and Hanayo."
I just giggled, my beloved Maki was back. I was happy. "Hai hai~"
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A/N: I got the idea of this collection while in the middle of working. (I'm actually working as a machinist/artisan at a workshop/atelier not far from our house) I was building several chairs and a table when I suddenly felt the urge to listen to some nice song. I took my phone and shuffled the playlist and that's how I got the inspiration.
Anyway, I will let you dear readers decide of whatever song I should get inspired in next chapter from the list I will be giving at the end of each chapter. Let us let destiny/fate decide which song suits HonoMaki the best.
1. Happy Fate — ChouCho
2. Nakimushi — Sawai Miku
3. Renai Saiban — Megurine Luka
4. Hana Jishin Uranai (Sono Hanabira ni Kuchizuke wo: Michael no Otometachi Opening)
5. Christmas Love — Nishino Kana
6. For You — BTS
7. Love Marginal — Printemps (Love Live! School idol project Bonus Soundtrack)
8. Long Kiss Goodbye — HALCALI (Naruto Shippuuden Ending)
9. Sotsugyou Memories Sayonara Anata — Sawai Miku
10. Shoujo Meiro de Tsukamaete — Aki Misato (Strawberry Panic Opening 1/Ending final episode)
See you all next time!