Lost in a dream
Nothing is what it seems
Searching my head
For the words that you said

Laying on his bed Freddie closed his eyes and sighed as he replayed the the thoughts that consumed his mind, his conversation about where he and Carly stood in their relationship. They had been dating for five months when she had admitted to him that she'd been having an affair with another person, Sam to be exact.

"I'm sorry Freddie," she had said after he had walked in on them kissing on the couch. They had walked out into the hallway to talk. Crossing his arms he sighed "Explain" he said softly, his voice calm and collected but underneath the calm she could hear fury. Carly, her lips trembling, looked into his eyes "I'm sorry okay? I just.. I'm confused on how I feel about Sam and.. We've, well we've went further than kissing a few times" she admitted.

Freddie wanted to lay down, wanted to cry, wanted to do anything but face reality "We.. We're done" he finally said "I love you Carly, I'll always love you" he said, "But if you think I'll just sit back and let you experiment because you might have feelings for Sam you're wrong" he said. Carly nodded Turning around he went to the door and started to open it.

Tears filled my eyes
As we said our last goodbyes
This sad scene replays
Of you walking away

Carly mumbled a goodbye, a sentiment returned by Freddie. Freddie closed the door, tears in his eyes as he imagined Carly walking away, playing in his head like a bad movie he wanted to forget. "Damn it Carly" he said, sinking to the floor as he held his head in his hands. "What did I do?" he asked himself, repeating the line he'd asked last time he'd broken up with Carly. Maybe he should go over there and apologize.. No, he had done nothing wrong. She had lied to him, cheated on him, and he had broken up with her.. That was natural wasn't it?

Freddie sighed, wanting desperately to go over and talk to her.. See if they could work things out. Just as these thoughts swam around his head he heard a knock on the door, he stood up and opened the door to find a crying Carly, without hesitation he pulled her into a hug and sighed "what happened Carly?" he asked softly "I just.. I thought a possible life without you" she said, "and I hated it.. I couldn't live without you in my life as a friend" she said.

Time and again,
She repeats let's be friends
I smile and say yes
Another truth bends,
I must confess

I freeze "Friends?" he asked numbly "J-just friends?" he asked pulling back to look at her. Carly looked up "Yeah, I mean.. We're just friends Freddie" she said. He couldn't help but nod and smiled "F-fine.. Friends are fine" he said softly "But I need to go" he said softly, fearing if he said anymore he would confess he would admit his lie.

Carly nodded numbly and smiled "See you tomorrow?" Freddie nodded and sighed. The next day he walked out of the door and smiled "Hey Freddie" Carly said as Sam walked into the doorway "Hey Ca- Hi Carly" he said ,slightly deflated. Carly, of course, noticed and looked concerned "Are you okay?" she asked softly. "I'm fine" Freddie lied and mentally winced, another lie he told.

I try to let go, but I know
We'll never end 'til we're dust
We lied to each other again
But I wish I could trust

Carly looked at Freddie and tried not to cry, what had happened to them? In less than 24 hours they had gone to best friends to barely talking. "What's the matter?" she asked again. "I said nothing" he said, looking down. She could tell he was lying, she knew him too well. "Freddi-" she began but was cut off by Sam pulling on her arm "I'll talk to you later" she whispered before leaving with Sam.

Freddie closed his eyes, trying desperately to let go, but he knew he would never really be able to move on from Carly.

Two years later

Freddie looked down at the picture of him and Carly when they had been 17, not they were 19 and getting ready to go with college. Carly was still the girl next door, and he still loved her, but she was still with Sam and they showed no signs of breaking up anytime soon. Carly looked at him with sympathetic looks every time their gaze's met and he just nodded. Everyday it was the same old interaction with her. "Are you okay Freddie?" she would ask. He would nod and lie "I'm fine Carly."

Their entire relationship was build on lies now, he would lie and say he was okay and she would lie and pretend she believed him.

How could this be happening to me
I'm lying when I say "Trust me"
I can't believe this is true
Trust hurts
Why does trust equal suffering

Looking down he sighed, his mind screaming at him to run over to the apartment across the street and confess his true feelings for her, and hope to rebuild their trust. Freddie stopped and pondered that word, Trust, what exactly did that mean? He had lost the true meaning two years ago, when his relationship with the only person he had ever really trusted had fell apart. She had broken his trust, and he had broken hers.. the only conclusion he could come to was that Trust hurts.. Trust, for some reason, equals suffering.

My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust

God help me please, on my knees
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust

Freddie fell into his bed after school and work and sighed, He had talked to Carly that day and.. It hadn't gone so well.

"Hey Carly" he said walking up to her as she closed her locker "Listen.." he said "I just, I know we've been distant lately but.. I just wanted to know if you wanted to hang out after schoo-" he began before being cut off by a quick kiss b Carly, who quickly covered her mouth then put her hands down as Sam walked up "hey guys, what's going on?" she asked. Carly shook her head "Nothing, Freddie wanted to hang out but I just remembered I'm busy" she lied and they walked away.

Freddie sighed and leaned against the lockers, adding another lie upon their already ruined relationship.. Would they ever trust each other again?

Absolutely nothing we trust