Fear Of The Truth
i cant trust my thoughts
i cant trust my mind
im alone in my head
my thoughts are my own
then they're not
confusion
swirling thoughts
voices
voices screaming my name
voices
closing in on me
im in the dark
my mind is my refuge
but it is also my prison
im trapped in my insanity
is this how my mother felt
forever confused
thoughts forever twirling out of your control
darkness pressing in
you fight it
until you let your thoughts carry you
until you end up in a hospital
my thoughts are so confusing
i can't give in
i wont let my mind control me
i cant give in
the one thing i fear
fear more than anything in this world
the thing which my knowledge
cant protect me
the thought that haunts my every dream
and turns it into a nightmare
the truth that i try to fight
the truth
that send me into a panic
the truth that controls my life
the truth i must learn to accept
i bury the truth at the back of my mind
i try to forget
i try to live a normal life
i know things i shouldnt know
i see things that cant be seen
but i try to live a normal life
i try to lock the truth away
but the truth is always there
controlling my future
it scares me to think it
but i know its true
i cant fight it anymore
i am becoming my mother.
(A/N please review and tell me what you think!!! my friend said i should do a little poem about Reid's struggles with reality and his fears of becoming like his mother so TA-DA.. again PLEASE REVIEW!!!)