Broken Dream

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto. Duh.

Authors note: I wrote a one-shot! Woot. I hope you enjoy this cause I enjoyed writing it and yes it is my very first yaoi so please don't bash it!

(Start)

"Damn it!" Neji cursed under his breath as he tried to dodge the oncoming sand. He pivoted around on his toes aiming his fingers towards Gaara's arm to incapacitate him but the sand blocked him before he was given the chance. Even still he wasn't ready to give up. Not yet at least. He leaned inwards letting his fingers point towards the ground, his body arched in the familiar position that he had used so many times before, the flow of chakra running rampant through his veins.

With one more breath he let the chakra burst into his hands, his precision perfect, flawless. He attacked Suna's Kazekage with as much force as his body could muster attaining speeds that no human could possibly imagine. Not even the Leaf's main taijutsu ninja could come close as he whirled his body feeling his fingers collide with sand over and over again. It seemed almost hopeless to even try until his fingers felt contact with flesh. He applied just enough amount of chakra to incapacitate whatever he had hit before he bent down lowly then pushed up feeling his body soar through the air. He clutched his knees to his chest as he back-flipped before landing gracefully on his toes, hands stretched out like a gymnast who just finished a routine trying to regain their balance.

The familiar smell of fresh cut grass and misty summer rain became once again visible as his senses spread out again instead of being solely directed towards his opal eyes. There was no need to keep his Byakugan activated anymore since the bet was complete. He had only to lay one hit on the Kazekage and he would win the bet that Gaara had specifically asked of him to help him with his training. Of course he was delighted at the prospect of training with such a high ranked ninja. It wasn't everyday that you got to fight against a Kage. He let out a gentle sigh before calming his stiff muscles. It didn't take long before even his breathing returned to it's nature calm pace. He closed his eyes softly feeling his beads of sweat mixing with the mist of the gentle rain cooling his temperature. Although the rain cooled him down completely the humidity also made his clothes stick to him unpleasantly, his hair plastered down his back in dripping tresses.

"You won," the deep velvety smooth voice said from across the field. Neji turned his now calm opal eyes towards the red-haired sand-nin who had spoken. His face still remained blank just as it had at the beginning of the match. Neji remained poised and graceful. Strong but dignified. Neji was the perfect Hyuuga specimen.

Even still, the challenge to beat the young prodigy had become to much for the Kazekage to handle when he decided that it was time for his annual visit to Konoha. He wanted to see what all the hype was about and this just gave him the taste he was looking for. The adrenaline rush he had been so wishing to feel for a long time. A true opponent.

He wasn't surprised at the blood that he suddenly coughed up onto the grass and the beads of sweat that dripped down his forehead. It was just the kind of fight he was looking for and his bloodlust nearly ran too wild. If he hadn't pulled himself back at that very moment the Hyuuga struck then he would have ended up crushing the long hair jonin letting his beautiful blood splatter against the ground… he bit down on his lower lip angrily. He had to keep his cool. It seemed that every time he had the strange feeling in the pit of his stomach towards someone else he just had to come close enough to see even a little bit of their blood. To see the wonderful shade of crimson as it ran down their flesh. It was the closest thing he ever found to bliss.

He ran his fingers through his own hair that had stuck to his forehead, cold against his skin. It raised small goose bumps along the exposed skin of his arms. When he looked back over towards the Hyuuga he gulped quickly his throat becoming dry. Neji was pulling of his soaked white shirt revealing the milky skin of his perfect chest, his wet hair now plastered against his back. The bloodlust had struck up again. There is was burning heavily in the pit of his stomach near his abdomen. He wanted so badly to crush the unsuspecting Hyuuga and let his essence drip to the ground so he could finally be satiated.

That's when he remember a conversation he had had with Naruto the night before.

Flashback

"I'm fighting Neji Hyuuga tomorrow," Gaara whispered lightly taking a bite of from the bowl of ramen in front of him. Naruto had already swallowed three bowls of the delicious food while the sand nin was still working on his first one.

"Why do you always insist on fighting every top nin every time you come to Konoha?" Naruto asked after swallowing a large mouthful of noodles. "You could try to relax. You know, settle down. Maybe get yourself a girlfriend or something."

"A girlfriend?" the prospect seemed completely knew to him as he looked at Naruto confused.

"You know, a girlfriend," Naruto said dreamily staring off into space. "What I'd do if Sakura-chan would only say yes… Haven't you ever thought of having a girlfriend? There's got to be some pretty cute babes in Suna."

"I never really have time to worry about women," Gaara shrugged gently as if trying to drop the topic completely. "And anyways, I'm just not 'physically attracted' to any of the women in Suna."

"Well then there's got to be one in Konoha that strikes your fancy," Naruto said as if it were the simplest thing in the world. "You know when you get that gut feeling like you're on cloud 9. It's the greatest."

"I do not understand that feeling," Gaara whispered even more softly as another thought popped into his head. One that he was expecting. His explanation made it seem a lot like the feeling he got when he lusted for blood.

"Seriously?" Naruto asked shocked putting his chopsticks down which was surprising enough since Naruto never put his chopsticks down until he finished his meal completely. "No woman whatsoever?"

"None," He was really starting to get annoyed with the conversation.

"Gaara, do you mind if I ask you a personal question?" he rested his chin on the palm of his hand ponderingly.

Gaara just nodded not really interested in what his blonde best-friend had to ask.

"Are you gay?"

End Flashback.

It seemed innocent enough of a question earlier and he wondered why it seemed to have popped into his head now… it wasn't really like it had anything to do with the brown haired male standing across the field from him… dripping ever so temptingly in the rain… the feeling was of immense bloodlust not lust in itself.

Neji looked over towards the fiery-haired nin just to see the other male staring at him incredulously his nose scrunched lightly in deep concentration. His red hair soaked thoroughly and dripping down his forehead ever so gently eyes alight. He tied his wet shirt around his waist easily before striding over towards the Kage wordlessly.

"Want a rematch or is your sand to wet to use now?" Neji cocked a perfectly arched eyebrow mockingly as if to rile him up again.

"My sand becomes hard when it rains," Gaara said smoothly letting his eyes wander to towards the sky, the once misty rain becoming thicker into small droplets. "If you thought it was hard fighting me before then if you were to fight me now you would find it even more of a challenge."

"Oh would I?" Neji wasn't nearly done training yet. If the Kage didn't go for another round then he would probably just train by himself for a while to make sure his technique remained as absolutely flawless as it was if not more.

"If you let your mouth run wild like you are at this very minute you could end up losing your life," Gaara smirked a deep chuckl emanating from deep within his vocal box. It almost sounded like a demoniac purr. "Unless you're really that suicidal to egg me on."

"I wouldn't call it suicidal," Neji smirked back. "I just call it improving. You didn't go full out on me before. It wasn't fair that I was given the advantage. I want a real fight 'Kazekage-sama'."

Gaara sneered. The Hyuuga was really testing his patients. All he had to do was encase him with even just a small amount of sand and his blood would run for miles. Just a little taste was all he needed…

"I bet I wouldn't even have to activate my Byakugan to destroy you," he chuckled lightly although even he knew the truth. If the Kage lost total control it was his funeral, but he wasn't going to let the Kage lose full control. Just enough so it was a challenge.

A soft growl was heard under Gaara's breath as a snicker flared across his lips. If the Hyuuga wanted to die so badly then he would get just what he wanted…

The sand was pulsating under his fingertips as he edged it forward. The damn Hyuuga wasn't even paying attention. Only a few seconds more and his blood would splatter against the grass blade, the smell fresh in the air. The predator in him seemed to kick in as all his emotions were edging him onto kill. To destroy the Hyuuga once and for all.

"Seriously?" Naruto's voice emanating through his head. "No woman whatsoever?"

Gaara grimaced at the memory of what Naruto had said to him. The bloodlust was for surely there… he could feel it running through his own veins growing ever so evidently in the pit of his stomach. Growing to a point where he had to get rid of the thing that was making him feel this way… the thing that made him burn so passionately…

The lust the burned within him…

Neji of course was completely unawares of this as he turned his back on the Kage thinking that fight had finally reached it's end but he never expected to feel callused hands turn him completely before shoving him into the nearest tree, hard lips crashing against his in a bruising kiss. His eyes widened at the feeling of total and utter shock as he started to fight against the sand nin as was his first instinct. When he egged Gaara on he thought he was just edging him into fighting but this was completely different as he beat his hands forwards against Gaara's chest pushing him away. Gaara of course looked at the Hyuuga confused as Neji wiped his arm across his lips.

"What the hell was that!" Neji demanded not so much a question but a statement of raw anger his face becoming distorted with rage. Not normal compared to his usual cool persona.

"A kiss," Gaara stated simply.

"Well I know that but why the hell…?"

Gaara pushed him back against the tree his lips pressing against the Hyuuga's hard ones once again determined on making him submit to it. Neji of course just pushed him back again this time his eyes coming to life in the flare of deep printed veins. For anyone but a Hyuuga it looked almost painful but Neji never thought of the feeling around his eyes as pain. Just pressure. The more you focused the more pressure seemed to force itself down on his face, the veins becoming more dominant. When he improved less pressure was needed for higher attacks.

"I asked you a question!" he hissed through his teeth.

"I wanted to," he shrugged a little annoyed.

"And what made you think I want that?" it was clear in his voice that Neji was not impressed with the action forced upon him. "I'm not gay!"

"Went off of instinct," Gaara was starting to become really annoyed with the twenty questions game that Neji kept pulling off. He liked the taste of the Hyuuga's lips and he wanted more but it seemed the male wasn't going to have any of it… at least not yet. "I thought you wouldn't mind."

"And why wouldn't I mind?" Neji turned his head away, his arms crossed over his chest like a spoiled child. "Like I told you before, I'm not gay."

"You don't have to be gay to kiss back," Gaara murmured stepping forwards again. "You don't have to lie to me. We are quite alone out here and I'm pretty sure you liked it to."

Neji nearly punched the Kage when he heard the assumptions Gaara spewed but he restrained with all his might. It was true and he hated to admit it to himself. He had enjoyed the first kiss a little bit more then he should have especially since he prided himself on being straight. He couldn't be gay…

Even still, there was one thing Neji was absolutely sure of. He wasn't easy. If Gaara thought that dragging him out here for a fight would let him get what he wanted he was sorely wrong. Neji side stepped to the left so he had a little room to move.

"You're too sure of yourself," Neji growled.

"And you are wasting my time," Gaara grimaced. "I would rather at least be wasting my time doing something more enjoyable then standing here answering questions that have obvious answers."

"Oh so I'm a waste of time now?" Neji raised his finger to his lips. "How very deliberate. Betting me for a fight just to get me alone. I wouldn't have expected it from you Gaara."

"Again I will add that this was a spur of the moment kind of thing," he smirked gently eyes bright. "Just so happens you got me a little riled up."

"Sorry but I don't want to be just some object you claimed Sabaku," he turned his back on the kage a little angrily. "I don't care how much of a 'spur of the moment' kind of thing this was. I'm not just something you can pick up, play with, and drop like any of your 'former' expeditions. If you're looking for an easy lay then you picked the wrong male."

"Easy lay?" Gaara cocked his head confused. "What is that?"

Neji looked over his shoulder to see the Kage's confused expression and he nearly toppled over laughing as he clutched his hands to his face, Byakugan deactivating, loud chuckles filling the empty meadow.

"You've got to be kidding me!" Neji laughed wrapping an arm around his torso. "You're a virgin?"

"I don't see what's so funny about that," Gaara crossed his arms over his chest, face blank. "I don't think it's a law to sleep with someone before the age of 18 now is it Hyuuga?"

"But you're the Kazekage!" He belted laughing even harder. "There's got to be women lining up outside your door! How have you not had sex?"

"I am not attracted to women," he shrugged again. "And I'm not really physically attracted to males either… although for some reason you attract me."

The loud booming chuckles seemed to go quiet at that statement as the Hyuuga let his arms lie limp at his sides. He looked up cocking his own head.

"If you were so attracted to me then why didn't you try to at least make your intentions known before you attacked me like that?" Neji asked simply.

"You said it yourself," Gaara stated. "You're not gay."

Silence seemed to have taken over after that statement as they both let everything that just happened pass through their heads. Neji was absolutely confused for once in his life, everything being just to much for him to take. It wasn't like him to over-process anything but his emotions seemed to be out of it. Gaara of course kept his calm and he understood completely everything he had just spoken for it was all true. The only thing he was having problems with was how bad he wanted to pick up where they had left off. Since Neji seemed so against it he didn't know if he was going to get the chance to do that again and that thought annoyed him further.

"Why me?" the question was simple but one that he just needed to know. After re-accessing everything that was a question he could just not ignore. His voice had lost all harshness. It was just soft and mildly curious. "I hardly know you…"

Gaara reached a hand out towards the Hyuuga's pale cheek and surprising enough Neji let him cup his cheek caressing the skin with his thumb. "I don't know."

It became silent again as the new waves of emotion washed over them. It wasn't easy holding the blankness in his face but Gaara remained stoic as ever not wanting to lose what he had already gained. Neji was slowly accepting everything and that was enough for him.

"I'm sorry but I don't want to be a one time only kind of thing," Neji spoke his words slowly deliberating. It wasn't easy what he was about to do but he was sure it felt right even if he didn't understand it. "Even if you were right that I did enjoy that kiss…"

"You live here and I live far away," Gaara was taken aback by the words that Neji spoke. "I don't see a future in 'this'."

"Then 'this' never happened…" Neji stepped back letting Gaara's hand fall limply back to his side. "I think it is time I get back to the Hyuuga compound…"

Gaara reached his hand out grasping Neji's wrist gently and he pulled him into a soft passionate kiss. Neji's lips were hard at first as Gaara wrapped his free arm around Neji's back but Neji's lips softened and moulded into the kiss sending an unknown electricity running through them. If the first kiss was good then this one defeated it a hundredfold. Gaara was lost in the emotion of it all because for the first time he felt an emotion that he never thought he would feel. An emotion that felt twice as good if not more then his bloodlust had. An emotion that made him want to be closer to the Hyuuga. It was like for the first time he was truly alive.

Neji pulled back reluctantly resting his forehead against Gaara's as he realised the smile across the sand nin's face. It was small and kind of awkward, but there and there was nothing in the world that could stop him from smiling back.

"You've grown tall on me," Neji spoke softly as Gaara reached his hand up to stroke the Hyuuga's hair. Neji had always been the tallest out of all the shinobi while Gaara was always the shortest but it seemed he had hit quite the growth spurt and now stood at the same height.

"I don't want this to be over," Gaara spoke so suddenly it nearly broke Neji's heart. "I want this feeling to continue…" he raised his hand to his chest clutching the shirt where his heart would be located. "Can you hear it? It's pounding so loudly I wouldn't be surprised…"

Sure enough the sound of Gaara's rampant heartbeat was heard by the Hyuuga male. Neji nuzzled his nose softly under Gaara's jaw line and he kissed the place where he felt the pulse of the kage's heart just to hear it beat louder at the touch.

"We can make it work…" Neji spoke softly wrapping his own arms around Gaara. "It feels right… and I want to know everything about you. I know I want this to continue. I know in my heart this feels right… so lets try."

"We will try," Gaara committed himself to it without a second thought.

Gaara grabbed Neji's hand softly within his as they walked slowly back towards town, new feelings strange to them being the one thing that showed them a future. A future where they could be happy.

X

For the rest of the Kazekage's trip, Gaara and Neji had been inseparable although in public they weren't as 'close' as they were in private. The feelings that they had found for each other only grew stronger at their strange compatibility. It was like fate was finally on both their sides… and that finally they both had a destiny…

But it turned out that dream of a week was just that. A dream. And like all good dreams they come to an end. Gaara left back for Suna not to be back for another year and although they made their promises of letters and their last goodbyes it seemed that reality would kick in soon enough.

Neji wrote Gaara a letter nearly every single day and Gaara the same but soon enough the letters started to become sparse. Neji's letters became an every other day thing and then a once a week thing until finally after almost a month of not receiving letters from the Hyuuga Gaara received a very formal looking letter.

It read that Neji had been arranged to marry the heiress to the Hyuuga clan and that their long-distance relationship had come to an abrupt and heartbreaking end.

The last time they spoke to each other was at the end of the wedding day when Gaara walked up to them to give them both his blessing even though it hurt him completely. He had spoken only one word before leaving Neji. One word that broke him so absolutely and completely. One word… "Goodbye."

(End)

Authors note: Yes I just ended it off like that muhahahahahahaha. I know, I'm terribly evil. I hope you enjoyed my first one-shot yaoi and please please please press that little review button. It loves you and I'll love you forever! I'll give you all the cookies in the world!!

I wrote this one-shot as kind of a first time thing for yaoi and I really hope it wasn't a failure because I really want to write a story but I didn't know if I was really capable of it. I would love to hear your opinions and please, if you think I can, tell me. I don't want this to a failure XD.