I wasn't part of the past.

Not anymore.

But I remember the killing. I remember the fear. And the screams…will forever burn in my memory.

There was something I could never escape, though. The guilt…the guilt of blood over my hands. I was never a killer. Not until he made me.

And before I had time to think, I led the life he wanted me to live. And I did things, beyond my own understanding.

The problem was, I never questioned it. I never asked why, nor did I bother to find out. I did as I was told, just like I should. But I should've known better.

I was alive. If there was one thing from the past—deep inside the past—that I know of, it was being alive. Somewhere, buried within me, had a fragment left that reminded me of the feeling. I was alive. And I missed it. I took it for granted.

I don't know how it happened. I don't know how I became what I am. There were always choices. But I never chose to leave.

Looking at the fire, I become envy of the ash. They are the broken remains of something great, but they are able to drift and become lost in the world. They are able to be forgotten. Forever Unknown.

But the girl. Her eyes. I could never forget those eyes. Not when they look at me like that. How could have done what I did? What had taken control of me? What part of my mind was able to act, when every barrier I had left fought weakly against it?

But the thirst, it was invincible. The need, so unhuman, there was a part of me that noticed and acknowledged what I was doing. The problem was…

I liked it.

There were no memories, no morals, no training. All of that had died inside me…a body, a soul, with no purpose.

They changed me. My body, my mind wasn't my own. It couldn't have possibly been me.

But the past had a way of reappearing, and I knew that it was.

OKay, so this is what i though a Strigoi would think. Now, what do YOU think? REVIEW! Sorry, it's super short, but still, tell me what you think. Also, for those of you who didn't get it, the girl mentioned is a victim the Strigoi fed off of, and 'he' is the Strigoi that turned her. Hope you liked it!