How do you choose between your head and heart.
Awkward; Matty Mckgibben and Jenna Hamilton. Romance.
As I'm totally cut up about season 2, I've decided to write up what I wanted to happen, this IS my first ever time I've written a story so, I hope you enjoy!
After the winter formal, Matty is distraught. He lost the one girl he truly loved to his best friend, and he doesn't know how to deal. But he has his head and heart set on getting her back.
Matty's P.O.V.
Speechless. What if I was a few minutes earlier? What if I would of just asked her to the formal? What if I wasn't such an asshole and just told her how I feel? So many questions are running through my head. I'm feeling so many emotions right now, I feel like I'm going to explode. I'm so lost, I didn't realise what I had right infront of me the whole time. I feel pain,
a gut renching feeling, my heart is burried so deep into my stomach. My hands are shaking, the corsage I'd gotten for her seems a thousand times heavier. I feel tears building up in my eyes. Why couldn't I just get over my good for nothing reputation of being the cool guy, the guy that all of the girls were practically throwing themselves at. The guy all of the other guys wanted to be, the guy everyone looked up to. None of that means shit to me now. The only guy I wanted to be, was HER guy. She's just stood there, kissing him infront of my face. I mean how fuck could she do this to me? With my best friend? Now I'm starting to feel angry, at myself and her! I knew I had to get out of there before something happened which I didn't think I could control once I started. I dropped my head and slowly turned around, I walked slow enough for her to run up and tell me not to leave, to tell me she loved me, I just needed a sign that it wasn't over, but nothing. As I was walking out from the school, Sadie Saxton approached me, in her usually bitchy tune she asked me where I was going. "I'm headed on home, Jakes here on a date with Jenna Hamilton and I don't feel like being here either." I replied. "What the fuck? Jakes here with little miss cut myself? This has to end! Poor Lissa must be...wait a second. Is that a corsage? And who did you plan to come with?" she snaps. In the heat of the moment, I reply with "Look Sadie, why don't you mind your own bussiness, god can't you just give me a break?" I carry on walking to car picking up the speed after realising what I had just did. I finally approach my car, I throw the corsage to the floor before actually getting in. I put the radio on, turn it to full blast and let my emotions get the best of me. Here I was,
literally crying in my car while she's in there, with him.
After spending most of my spring break locked up in my room, avoiding as much socialising as I possibly could, my brother came in my room and decided I needed cheering up. He looked at me, with a sympathtic look in his eyes, which I don't think I've ever seen before."Dude, I hate seeing you like this. Heartbreak really sucks man. You wanna talk about it?" He kindly asked before closing the door behind him. "Since when you care about anyone other than youself?" I growled. He looked at me and froze, "Well fuck you, I was only trying to be nice, your not the only person in the world to go through heartbreak, I have and I didn't have anybody to help me through it, I thought you might of wanted to talk instead of being up here,
avoiding everyone. Dude your acting like your mood isn't affecting anyone else, we're all worried." He pleaded before heading towards the door again. "Look man, I'm sorry. I really am, I just don't think I can deal, I just didn't realise how much she actually meant to me, and I blew it because I was being a jerk. You know what I told her when she asked what we were? I told her I wasn't ready for a relationship, when that's all I was looking for." Before I could realise I was pouring my heart out, he came and sat next to me on my bed. He nudged my shoulded to reasure me that he was there for me. "It's okay, I understand that I don't seem like the type to care, but you, dude your my little brother, you can always talk to me. Well I guess you can blame me for that, I always put my reputation before anybody, I cared about what people thought too much to realise I've been a dick to some pretty sweet girls." I felt like I was getting to know a whole new side of James. Before, I was pretty sure he was being a dick to girls because it was in his nature. It was then that I realised I didn't want to end up like him, well end up with his luck with girls anyway. "I want her back man, I crave her. I crave the way she always smiled, I crave the feel of her silky, brown hair, the way she always smelled so fresh. I just need her." I respond, hanging my head and sighing. He turned to me and said "Well why aren't you out there trying to get her back? You need to tell her exacly how you feel, pour your heart out to her. Let her know that you never intentionally hurt her, and you're willing to be there for her, you know, stick by her. And if she takes you back, try not to fuck it up like I do most of the time. Always remember, Mckgibbens, are winners." Then I pluged myself up so I was sat up right. "Mckgibbens are winners" I mumbled. It was at that point that I realised, I need to chase her, to win her back. "Thats my brother!" James said as he tapped me on the back getting up off of my bed heading towards the door. "Hey thanks man, I really appreciate it." He looked back, " No problem man, don't mention it, seriously don't mention it, I have a reputation to uphold." He said giggling all the while. I jumped up out of bed, ran over to my phone and put it on charge, seeing as I haven't checked it in over a week. I run to my wardrobe, pick out some clothes and throw them on my bed along with some underwear and socks. I grab a towel and head to the bathroom to have a shower and freshen up. When I return to my room and finish getting ready, I grab some deoderant and spray it all over. As I pick up my phone, I realise I have 57 new messages. None from Jenna, 53 from Jake, the rest from Sadie demanding me to answer her messages and explain why I flew off at her at the formal. I slip my phone into my pocket and grab my keys, here I go. The whole time repeating in my head, "Mckgibbens are winners."