TEMTPATION WAITS

One day I'm gonna kill myself,

I can feel it in the air.

A hopelessness surrounds my life,

A sense of total despair.

A hooded man is creeping

Inside my bedroom door.

He's the shadow of my razors,

The empty pill bottle on the floor.

He's the car I see that's speeding,

When I cross the street.

He's the devil on my shoulder,

Reminding me that I'm weak.

He's the shadow of my mother,

When she screams and shouts.

The image of my family

Who can't shout their fuckin' mouths.

He's the love you once gave me

That haunts me still at night.

Every joke they tell about me

Oh so repetitive and trite.

He's every college they shove in front me,

Telling me that's my dream,

Not knowing I cant afford it

And their efforts all feel mean.

The hooded man who's always watching

Always waiting to break my pride.

The one who knows the process

To rip out my insides.

Hey hooded man, my arm is shaking.

This pain I just can't take.

Hey hooded man, my heart is quaking.

I just can't bear this ache.

Hey hooded man, everyone is phony.

I just don't know what to do.

Hey hooded man, I'm feeling lonely,

But soon I'll be with you.