A/N: This a oneshot that I just thought up I hope you like it!

Disclaimer: Nope don't own Terminator.

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here

suppressed by all my childish

fears.

I'm traveling now down a dark road to nothingness without my mother. She died of leukemia about 4 months ago and I just feel so empty. It seems like every since I found out about fucking Judgment Day I've been afraid. I mean how the hell am I supposed to rule the human race I'm one fucking person.

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave.

Your presence still lingers here and

it won't leave me alone.

I still think about her everyday. Yeah I know, John Conner the one who didn't care that his mother was in a mental institute and thought that all the things his mother told him were "bull-shit" but I really do care.

These wounds won't seem

to heal, this pain

is just to real. There's so much that

time cannot erase. When you cried I'd wipe away

all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all

of your fears and I've held your hand through all of these years but you still have

all of me

I remember holding her when she would cry about my dad. She would always get so upset though I don't know why she only knew him for like 10 hours or something. I also remember her screaming or waking up from a bad dream. I remember she described it to me I have to admit it was scary but…I don't know.

You used to captivate me by

your resonating light. Know I'm

bound by the life you left behind.

God when she was alive I felt as if I could do anything I wanted and that I could actually rule the human race. But now it feels like I can't do anything like someone's tied me to a steal post not wanting me to live.

Your face it haunts my once pleasant

dreams your voice, it chased

away all the sanity in me.

I dream every night that she will come back though I know its not possible I can still dream can't I? I think now I know I will be able to do this I will be able to rule the human race. I miss you mom more then you know

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.

When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears.

But you still have all of me.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.

But though you're still with me,

I've been alone all along

THE END