Hi guys, remeber, I need songfic ideas... pretty please!! Anyways, RATE, REVIEW, FEEDBACK, PLEASE!! But I hope you enjoy. Song is Why Can't I by Liz Phair... Thanx, x0x kayt x0x :)
"Why Can't I?"
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
We brushed shoulders as we passed. I swear he smirked, but you can never tell. I scowl back and keep going, I hate him so much you would think I'm his stupid sister. Actually Hate is the understatement of the year. I completely and utterly despise him so much I'm sick over him.
Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too
"WOAHhHhH!" I screamed as I started to fall backwards. I was lost hopelessly lost, shutting my eyes tight I let myself fall. Than something laced it's arms around my waist. I opened my eyes, starring in to ice blue ones, for the first time, they didn't look cold, they almost looked, well, warm.
"You should watch where you step Weasley." He pulled me up slowly, and as soon as I was standing, I jerked away.
"Watch yourself Malfoy, you don't want to give the wrong impression, someone might think you have a heart." I threw a sour look at him, a very pathetic, half hearted, sour look.
"Hey, no need to be cruel, only trying to help." He threw his hands up in fake defeat. We were so near; I could feel his warm breath on my cheek. We stood there for a couple minutes; I then heard my name being called. I backed away, forgetting about the ditch. He grabbed me again. Damn myself for owing my life to Malfoy twice in the same day. He stood there with his sweaty grip on my arms. I didn't struggle, I just stood, and so did he. Footsteps approached, he immediately let go.
"Well, you better go, McLaggen is probably looking for you."
"And you better go before I sock you on the spot." I sneered. "And whats-her-face is probably looking for you."
"Oh, I am overjoyed." He said sarcastically, before running off in the opposite direction.
"Malfoy, wait." I yelled, too late.
What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming
I see is top button undone on his shirt, I shouldn't notice, but I do. I see his broom lying on the ground, I shouldn't notice it, but I do. I see him with his hands clasped together, and head bowed, thinking, I shouldn't wonder what he thinks about, but I do. He sits alone in the stands, covered in dirt, with sweat stained clothing, just out of practice, I shouldn't feel bad for him, but I do. I approach slowly. He looks up.
"Uh, hi." I sat down about a meter away from him.
"Yeah." I looked away, but could feel his stare on me.
"I just wanted to say thanks, you know for the other day, I owe you." I turned my head and he looked the other way. I shifted uneasily.
"Sure, anytime, now is there something else you wanted to bother me with?"
"No, and if you're going to be that rude, I shouldn't waste my time being here." I got up and left, I always have the last say. I heard him call after me, but chose to ignore it.
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
I sat there thinking about him in the library. I mean, the library, of all places. Who thinks of boys in the library, it's stupid. You do homework in the library, right? Then he walked in, my breath caught in my throat and my stomach turned right side upside down. It always happens when I think of him. His stupid smirk just gets to me, it's just…UH. I don't know, annoying, and his perfectly straggly hair, is just too PERFECT. That's the perfect way to descried him, PERFECT. UH, I hate myself. I leave, that's the only thing I can do. Leave. My friends speak about how stupid he is, but how enchanting. I try to but I can't, my mouth moves, but I'm mute. I curse myself out. Using words worse than the worse word.
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
"WEASLEY!" He yelled across the library. Damn that stupid, idiotic boy. He found my hiding place, how will I escape him now? I yank his arm into a corner.
"Will you keep your voice down, and try to respect those around you, I know it's hard for you but try." I whispered as harshly as I could.
"Sorry, ok? And it's not hard. I need to ask you a very important" He huffed, gaining his breath back.
"What would that be?" I crossed my arms across my chest, and swayed slightly.
"If you had a choice, but didn't have to choose, why would you?" He walked away quickly, without my answer, it was quite pointless to me.
Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
Why had I convinced myself not to argue with Professor Scarcus when he assigned us partners? We had to make sure our truth potion worked, by testing it on each other. He handed me the gold liquid, I drank it. Curse me, but I did.
"So, how's McLaggen?" He asked.
"Fine, I guess." I snorted, telling the truth.
"So, why aren't you glued to his side anymore?" He raised his eyebrow at me, a bunch of wild butterflies swarmed around my stomach. Why me? I looked at my options and all pointed towards the truth.
"Because, because…" The potion was practically forcing my heart up my throat. "We broke up over a month ago." I finally was forced to say, I clasped my hand over my mouth, he smirked, I didn't like where this was going.
"Then why do you always use him as an excuse to get away from me?"His eyes locked with mine. Curse him, I had no option.
"Because I pretend to hate you, but I secretly am madly in love with you." Shoot me. Now.
"I see," His eyes flickered with questions practically rushing to his tongue. I ran, the only thing I could do. Run.
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful
I knew it wouldn't be too long before he found out, but I still pretended to hate him, hopefully he had forgotten. I sneered at him. He smirked. I called him every bad word known to man. He smirked. I slapped him. He smirked. Oh God, I dug myself a hole.
Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't done it yet, but my heads spinning
My heart was beating out of my chest, the note reached my desk. It was from him. I opened it. I regretted it.
High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
Why did he like me? There were thousands of girls to like him. But not me. I still didn't believe myself when I said I love him.
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'
I felt like I was drowning, no breath, my heart beating fast. I could love him, but I don't. I should, but I won't. It's taking so much energy just to think of excuses to avoid him. And I know I secretly love him, really secretly. Which is not so secret anymore. And then the note. I keep it hidden under my pillow. It's out of control. He likes me.