Author Note: Okay, so I made changes to the first five chapters of this story. Most of it is the same so you probably won't need to reread it! I found a super huge mistake and I have to proofread my story again! I still hope you enjoy it! Also, I do not own the rights to these characters, forever and always, the rights belong to S. E. Hinton! Enjoy. Please Read and Review. I'd really appreciate it!

Sat. Jan. 16, 1965

I almost jumped out of my skin when the phone rang. I walked over to the side table, where the phone sits, and answered it. The caller was Ponyboy. He called to say his parents died in an auto wreck. I went over to his house to make sure everything was okay.

Everybody was there but Dallas. Soda and Pony were crying hard. Darry was hardly crying at all. I couldn't think of anything better to do but hug and console them. Seeing them cry made me cry. I went over to where Steve and Johnny were.

"When did it happen?" I asked quietly.

"Earlier this morning. Man, I've never seen Soda this upset." Steve explained. I gave him a look, like he was stupid. Of course Soda has never been this depressed; he hasn't lost his parents before.

Sat. Jan. 23, 1965

A week later was the funeral. Most dressed in the traditional black but my friends and I just dressed in our regular entire. At the end of the ceremony, I went home with Soda, so they wouldn't do anything stupid.

Thurs. Apr. 29, 1965

It was a nice spring day and I was at home with nothing to do after school. I felt too lazy to even do my homework. I was home alone which made things worse because nobody was there to entertain me. While I was watching TV I fell asleep. I woke up when the phone rang.

Typhani: Hello?

Johnny: Hi, Typh, it's Johnny. Are you busy?

Typhani: Not really, why?

Johnny: Well I just wanted to know if you wanted to be my company. I'm kinda lonely.

Typhani: I don't know Johnnycake.

Johnny: It's alright then. See ya later.

Typhani: Sorry maybe tomorrow. See ya later Johnny.

Johnny: Alright.

I felt bad that I wouldn't hang out with Johnny but my dad was going to home in less than an hour so I had to at least start my homework. I turned off the television and went to my room to start it. My eye lids felt heavy and kept closing because I was so sleepy. My eye lids closed and my head fell back on the pillow. My books fell on the ground with a loud thump and woke me up.

Later I found out that Johnny was brutally beat up by some Soc. He couldn't walk and could barely speak for the most part. I knew that somehow this was my fault but when I went to visit him, he said it wasn't my fault but I didn't want to believe him.

Tues. May 11, 1965

After everything that had happened so far this year, Soda was not taking it well. He started dating Sandy Mason, goofing up in school and eventually dropped out earlier this year. Then he took a full-time job at a DX gas station with Steve (who only took a part-time job). Casey Linnhall and Cherry Valance, my friends from junior high, moved in with me at my house I got after moving out of my parents' house. Then everything went downhill from there.

Sat. Sept. 25, 1965

A tragic day. The death of two of my best friends: Dallas Winston and Johnny Cade. Truths were revealed that I did not want to know. I might have been in love with Dallas this whole time and now that he's gone, I will never get another chance with him. And poor innocent Johnny didn't get to see what he wanted to see and do what he wanted to do.

Sat. Oct. 9, 1965

Steve came over late at night while I was asleep. He woke me up to tell me that the court hearing for Pony was tomorrow and since we weren't able to come, he asked me if I wanted to hang out with him and Two-Bit tomorrow. I told him, "Sure, but can you leave so I can sleep?" I didn't wait for him to answer; I just closed my eyes and slept until Steve woke me early the next morning.

Sun. Oct. 10, 1965

Before going off on our own, Steve and I stopped by the Curtis house. The three of them looked so tensed up and nervous. On the plus side, Soda looked cute. I couldn't help but smile when I first saw him. We planned to meet after the court hearing at the pizza parlor.

Wed. Oct. 13, 1965

Tonight I was going to the Curtis house for dinner. Soda was cooking and I was nervous to see what kind of concoction he was making tonight.

Soda opened the door. He wasn't happy to see me and said nothing when I said hi.

"Soda's been in a bad mood all day, don't take it personally." Pony said seeing the disappointment on my face.

Fri. Oct. 15, 1965

Soda and I didn't talk for a while because we weren't ready to confront each other after what happened at dinner. Plus, he was still hurt about Sandy. Then Casey came to me and told me to just get it over with it and talk to him about. Then everything will be better. I called Darry:

Darry: Hello?

Typhani: Hi Darry, can I talk to Soda?

Darry: I don't know; Soda's not in such a great mood.

Typhani: I don't care; I need to talk to him.

Darry: Fine, but you talk in the living room and if you come now you'll have to wait for him to come home or you can pick him up.

Typhani: I'll pick him up. And I promise to come home and talk to him under your supervision. Bye.

Darry: Bye.

I hung up. At 3 o' clock I went to pick-up Soda.

"What are you doing here?" Soda asked, quite nervous to see me.

"Can we talk?" I lied.

"Sure." Soda got in the car with some uncertainty.

I figured that the car ride to his house would be silent and awkward, but my prediction was partly wrong, like it normally is.

"I'm so sorry about Sandy and I understand that you're hurt but there's no sense in crying about her." I apologized even though technically I didn't need to.

"Oh, really Typhani, you understand? Someone you were in love with just slipped through your fingers, you just lost them and you didn't see it coming?" Soda snapped back.

"As a matter of fact I have Soda. Just because I am in love with you doesn't mean I wasn't in love with anyone else. I didn't date Dallas just for kicks. Unfortunately for me Dallas didn't move to another state, he didn't just run away and he can't come back, he can't ever come back. Sandy could come back, no, she will come back because she knows that you will take her back." I said.

"You know what? If she does come back, I will take her back because I still love her."

"You deserve better than her. How could you ever love someone that obviously doesn't love you back? Read between the lines, Soda, she doesn't love you!" I shouted. Soda hit the door with his elbow and stared out the window. I was so stupid to mention her.

"Soda, I'm sorry. I didn't mean that." I apologized.

"Shut up, Typhani! I don't want to hear it anymore." Soda commanded.

Then it was finally silent but we were practically there. He jumped out of the car as soon as I stopped. I turned off the engine and got of the car and followed Soda to the house. I got to the door just as Soda did and he went in first and slammed the door shut in my face. I figured I deserved that.

"Soda, I'm sorry! Sorry for everything I said because it hurt you but honestly Soda, it is all true. Sandy may come back because you will give her that second chance but you can't." I pleaded.

"I am done listening to you, Typhani!" Soda yelled back.

"Sodapop, what's going?" Darry yelled.

"Stay out of it Darry!" Soda was still yelling.

"Will the two of you just knock it off? I know that you both hurt inside because you lost someone but of any one you two shouldn't be fighting!" Darry shouted at us.

"Darry's right, we shouldn't argue about something as stupid—" I was caught off guard when Soda came over and kissed me! I don't know why he did it but it was oddly nice. It ended when Darry pulled the two of us apart.

"What do you think you're doing, kid?" Darry shouted. "You, you get out of here." Darry demanded that I leave.

"I'll just go." I was drunk… on love. And then I turned around and saw that Pony and Steve were standing in the doorway. "How much did you see?" I asked.

"Enough." Steve joked.

"From start to finish." Pony admitted.

"Great. See you guys later." I said, laughing.

"Bye." They all sang in unison. I was just happy Soda would be okay now and we might have a chance together.

Obviously, my past wasn't the brightest. I lost four of the most important people in my life and I was ruining relationships with family. I found out I was in love with someone who could've hurt me but I didn't care nor have I ever. Now the chance to really risk my life for love was no longer available. This love not only put my life in danger but prevented me from doing what was right and not saving those innocent souls. Because I loved Dallas, I listened to him and did not save Johnny and Pony from the church fire. All that's left to figure out is: Did I seriously screw up?