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The Sin of Weakness
By Silver Sailor Ganymede
You were weak, far too weak. That is why you left him alive. If you had truly been as bitter as you would have wished yourself, then you would have killed him along with the rest of what was once your clan. Not that you had ever regarded them as such, except for him.
That was why you left him alive, why you said those cutting words. His hate was not strong enough, that was why he was too weak; that was why you too were weak, not that your conscious mind would ever let you admit such a thing. You could not be weak; you had to be perfect in all your sinful glory.
You told yourself that you hated them all; that the hate had replaced whatever love you had once felt for those you would have called your own. You killed them because you felt you could, but it was impossible to kill him. You loved him, and love can never truly turn to hate, not a love that deep. They were easy to kill because they meant nothing to you. You could not kill the deep emotions you held for him though; hate is not the opposite of love, indifference is.
That was why you told him those words. You did not want him to become weak like you; you wanted him to become strong, to be able to conquer all his flaws. That was why you left him alive; you wanted to die for the sins you knew you had committed. You wanted to die by the hands of the only one you ever truly loved, to know that he was not weak; to know that you were right when you told yourself that he would never love you back, at least not in the way you wished.
You wanted him to hate you. At least he would still feel something towards you, even if all he felt were bitterness and want for revenge against you. Even if it was hate, you wanted him to feel for you. You did not want him to feel nothing, you did not want him to forget your existance; you did not want him to become weak like you. Hatred was the only way to live, at least in your mind, and in a world like this only the strong will survive.