Johanna's P.O.V
"What? He can't hurt me. There's no one left that I love."
I couldn't help but let my eyes flicker to her as I said that. To Katniss. Once upon a time it was true you know, that there was noone left that I loved. But ever since I saw her, on a flickering screen in district 7, volunteering as tribute; I couldn't get my mind off of her. Her bravery. Her courage. Everything about her appealed to me, to my soul, or, what was left of it. I thought it'd go away. These...feelings for Katniss Everdeen. But now, seeing her beauty in person, coming face to face with her...it didn't change a damn thing. It only but enhanced my unfound affection towards her. My...love for her.
Strange isn't it? Falling for someone who, so obviously, is in love with another? She has Peeta. I know that, and I've tried, constantly to still my hearts yearnings for her. I slept with nearly every girl in district 7 but to no avail. After a while I realized that all the girls I slept with looked like her in some way. Brown hair. Tall. In some way they reminded me of her. My love. I still try though. I try to stop my heart from beating out of my chest every. single. time. I see her. Every single time she smiles that beautiful smile of hers. But I can't. I can't stop the warmth that invades me whenever she's near. I can't stop the tingles I get when she laughs. I. Can't. Stop. It.
And it sucks because everyday I fall deeper for her. Everyday I go deeper and deeper and I know that she will never, love me as I love her. Never. And yet I'm deeply, unconditionally, irrevocably in love with Katniss Everdeen, the girl on fire. And the strange thing is...?
I don't ever want to stop loving her as I do right now. This love may be unrequited but it's real, for me at least.
"Love is weird."
Oh yes, love is very weird. But I love it. And I love her.