I own nothing. Code Geass belongs to the author. Lelouch and Suzaku belong to their creator. I just wanted to take the liberty of stating that. I also want to point out that I don't usually, as a rule, change the gender of a character. For some reason, I felt this scene would have been a little more interesting if Lelouch was a girl. I hope you enjoy. More chapters to come soon.

Chapter One

Nunnally had been kidnapped and taken to Kamine Island by V2 and Lulu was going to get her back. There had been a trap at the entrance, but she couldn't be sure if it had been for her or C2. Either way, it didn't matter to her. She needed to make sure her sister was safe. As she reached the large stone doors with the Geass symbol on them and rested her hands on them to push the doors open a bullet hit from her right. The one voice she had been hoping never to hear, spoke.

"Turn around slowly and face me, Zero," Suzaku Kururugi demanded. His voice was calm, neutral even and Lulu froze where she was. Lulu cursed silently to herself. What was he doing here? "Did you not hear me, Zero? Turn around, slowly."

As Lulu turned she noticed that Suzaku was wearing his Knight pin from Euphemia. Lulu needed to find a way to diffuse the situation before Suzaku thought about shooting her. She didn't doubt that her beloved would take out his pain on the "man" she thought behind the mask. Lulu had known since the first day she had become Zero that he would never forgive her for killing Euphie.

"Princess Euphemia killed innocent Japanese people in cold blood and you point your gun at me, Kururugi? You would follow someone who…"

"Geass must be a convenience for someone like you," Suzaku cut her off. "A coward who can sit on the sidelines and out of the way as those he commands to fight his battle for him. An arrogant coward who hides in shadows and lays blame on innocents."

Lulu was shocked. How had Suzaku learned about Geass? She hadn't told him and no one else knew except for C2, but she had been the one to give it to her. Hell, she was pretty positive that her father, Charles vi Britannia, also had a Geass. There was no other way he could do what he had to her and her younger sister.

"Kallen!" Suzaku yelled. Lulu flicked her gaze to her Knight who was standing with a gun pointed at Suzaku. "Wouldn't you like to know who hides beneath the mask? Wouldn't you like to know who has been using you and the others?"

The pink-haired girl sputtered for a moment before replying, "Why does it matter…NO!"

Suzaku raised his gun and shot at Lulu. Lulu didn't move as she felt the slight impact and her mask began to split. There was no reason to run. She just needed to reason with Suzaku and make him see that they could do anything. They could save her sister and end her father's reign.

The mask fell away and she was revealed to both Kallen and Suzaku. Kallen seemed on the verge of tears and Suzaku looked disgusted. However, he didn't look too surprised by the development. It was like he had known from the very beginning that she had been Zero.

"You…you used us! You used the Japanese people too…You used me…"

"Since the Japanese people will be freed from the Emperor's reign with this rebellion you should not be complaining, Kallen," Lulu responded. Kallen shut up, but Lulu could see the betrayal in her eyes. Lulu had never meant to deceive her, but she had to do what was necessary to keep her sister safe. That was her top priority.

"So, yes, to state the obvious, I am Zero. I am the one who challenges Britannia and controls the Black Knights. I am the one who has led rebellion after rebellion and has dented Britannia's hold on the Japanese people."

Suzaku shook his head at her. "I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want to believe that you were Zero."

"So you suspected then, Suzaku?" Lulu inquired.

"I wasn't sure so I was able to still love you and deny that you could have had any part in this madness. I wanted to believe in you, Lulu…I should have arrested you sooner. So much bloodshed could have been avoided."

"Bloodshed would have happened without my helping hand, Suzaku," Lulu rebuked.

"But you have been lying to everyone! You lied to me, to Euphie, and to Nunnally!"

"If we are being honest, Suzaku, Euphie knew," Lulu admitted. Suzaku balked at her admission. "That was why she wanted to make the SAZ so that Nunnally and I could live in peace. That was why she allowed for us to meet alone and in private without you there. The truth is, she didn't want you to know either."

"You are still lying!" he yelled. "Euphie, wouldn't have…Euphie trusted me…"

"It wasn't about trust, Suzaku. She was respecting my wishes for you to never find out."

A small silence filled the space between them. Suzaku was processing her words, but whatever he decided didn't matter. Nunnally was locked inside and Lulu needed to get her out. Lulu needed to rescue her, but she was going to need help.

"Listen, Suzaku," Lulu tried. "Nunnally is in danger. She has been kidnapped and behind this door. Help me save her! Help me get her out of harm's way!"

"What?" he questioned.

"Let us call a truce, Suzaku. It can be temporary if you want, but help me save her. I know that together the both of us can do anything."

"Don't be foolish!" Suzaku yelled. "If you had just joined with Euphie back then we wouldn't be here now!" Suzaku raised his gun again and pointed it at her. Lulu was starting to get aggravated with him. This was not the time for petty fights over things that had happened in the past.

"You want to shoot me, Suzkau?" Suzaku didn't answer, but Lulu knew by the look in his eyes that he did. "Fine, go ahead, but make sure to hit this liquid Sakuradite!"

"You are a monster!" he bellowed.

"If you shoot me and my heart stops this will explode and I will take everything with me!"

"Lulu!" Suzaku screamed.

Lulu brought out her gun then and pointed it at him. She would shoot him if necessary. It didn't matter that she loved him. She loved Nunnally more than her own life. Suzaku had just been a consolation. Silence reigned between them again.

Lulu should have been terrified. She should have been shaking as she pointed the gun at him, but she wasn't even bothered. She had done what had needed to be done whether he accepted it or not. She loved him, yes, but she loved her younger sister more and that was why she had done what she had. After a moment, Lulu broke the silence.

"I did what was necessary, Suzaku," she replied calmly.

"You killed your own sister! Euphie wanted to work with you! She wanted peace and you robbed her of her life!"

"I never meant for her to die. What happened was a miscalculation," Lulu sighed. She was telling the truth. She had never wanted to hurt Euphie. She had almost been convinced to work alongside her sister to create the Special Administrative Zone, but then Lulu's Geass went out of control. "She had to be stopped, Suzaku. She could have killed you too."

Suzaku shook his head making his chestnut curls sway. He was angry and he had every right to be. Lulu had lied to him and played off his feelings for her. She hadn't done it out of spite or out of a sick need to control him. Lulu had loved Suzaku Kururugi since they had met when they were kids. He had always protected her and took care of her and Nunnally when they had stayed with his family.

"If you had just given me time to..."

"No, she was deranged. She ordered the murder of hundreds of Japanese and even participated in the act herself. There was no way to stop her. I wish things were different, but they aren't. I will have to carry the weight of Euphie's death for the rest of my life. It is a burden I am willing to bare for the sake of the entire Japanese country."

"SHUT UP!" Suzaku demanded. His gun was still aimed at her forehead. His hand was shaking slightly and his normally happy green eyes were pained and angry. Lulu had hoped, for both their sakes, that he would never had to find out she was Zero. "None of what you are doing is for Japan! You are doing this for your own selfish purpose, Lulu!"

"Fine, Suzaku, if that is what you wish," she agreed. She would stop talking about Euphie. It hurt that he had been so close to her. It had wounded Lulu to see him choose Euphie over her and Nunnally when Nunnally was the one who truly needed him. It had pained her to see him fall in love with her beautiful and kind sister who wasn't tainted by hatred and vengeance.

Lulu could feel the tension in the small cave again and the blood dripping down her face from where Suzaku had shot off her mask. The bomb strapped to her chest was heavy and light all at the same time. She would push the button if necessary, but only if it was necessary. Her gun was still raised and level with her beloved's head. Lulu looked around to see that Kallen had fled the scene when she had found out that the "man" she trusted to save her people was actually a female.

The long silence seemed to stretch on forever, before something changed in Suzaku's eyes. The pain was still present and the anger, but something else was mixed in. An emotion she had only seen on his face a couple other times when he had looked at her prior to Zero's reveal. Lust.

Lulu didn't understand why he was looking at her like that. The setting wasn't right for a romantic rendezvous with the both of them currently holding guns aimed to kill. Lulu swallowed hard as he came forward with his gun still raised. Lulu knew by the determined set of his jaw that something was about to happen that even she hadn't calculated. Her hand was shaking, she noticed, and she steadied it again and placed it between her and Suzaku.

"This is a precarious situation, Suzaku. We could shoot each other at any moment and you chose to move forward knowing that." Suzaku didn't respond as he slowly made his way towards her. She let out an annoyed sigh. "Really Suzaku, you don't think I can shoot you, do you? I killed Clovis and I killed Euphie without a thought besides on how it would further my agenda. What makes you think that I won't shoot you too?"

Suzaku stopped when he was right in front of her gun and she watched as his eyes hardened at her words. She knew bringing Euphie back into the mix might dissuade him from his next plan. The silence stretched again before the determination came back. He holstered his gun and Lulu started to panic internally then as he grabbed her wrist and forced her grip on her weapon to loosen.

"Suzaku, what are you doing?" Lulu questioned.

He took the gun from her hand and gave her a small smile. The same smile he had given her yesterday before he had to leave on the mission that led them here. He kept eye contact with her as he knelt down and placed the gun on the ground. Lulu thought about kneeing him in the face, but something told her that was a move he anticipated. The only thing she did move was her free hand to rest over the switch to the bomb.

When he rose and caught sight of her new position his smile faltered slightly, but didn't fall. Lulu was shaking now. He was too close to her. She could feel the heat from his hand against her skin even though the sleeves of her Zero suit separated them. She could smell him. He smelt like sunshine and it was making her loose focus.

"Suzaku, stop this nonsense," she ordered.

He finally spoke, "No, Lulu."

"I'm serious, Suzaku. If you continue to provoke me I will have no choice, but to blow us both to hell," she threatened.

"A royal princess should never swear."

Lulu raised an eyebrow at him. She couldn't believe what was coming out of his mouth. He was chastising her for a simple curse word. This was a new phenomenon. Suzaku usually loved it when she cursed, especially during intercourse. He loved watching her come undone from her persona of the well-behaved and responsible sibling.

He moved forward with his hand still on her wrist. She moved back. If he got too close he would kill them both and even though she had made the threat Lulu didn't want to see him dead. When she had thought him dead when this whole horrid game began in Shinjuku she had been distraught. When she had realized he was to be executed for his nonexistent role in Clovis' death, she had saved him and taken the rightful blame.

"Suzaku, stop!" she tried again.

He kept pushing her back making sure that he didn't hit the switch. Lulu knew this for what it was. He was backing her into a corner and she was letting him. Her feelings for him were clouding her judgement and keeping her from doing what needed to be done. Suzaku was playing off her feelings and she was allowing him too. She was trapped and they both knew it.

In a moment of weakness, Lulu closed her eyes and Suzaku took that opportunity to grasp her other wrist and pulled it away from the switch. He raised her hands above her head and transferred them both to one hand while he carefully removed the bomb from her chest. Once it was removed he weighed it in his hand before squeezing her wrists in a silent gesture to not move. The same gesture he used when they were having sex and he wanted her to stay still. His hand left and she had the urge to run and to get away before he could do what he was planning.

Suzaku moved away from her and she cracked her eyes open to see how far he was going to go. When it was obvious that he wanted the bomb as far away from her person as possible she stole a glance at her Knightmare Frame. If she could just get in she would be safe from Suzaku. He wouldn't be able to get in without going for his own Lancelot. The odds were slim. He would catch her. His stamina had always been better than hers, but she was willing to take the risk if it meant getting away to see another day.

Suzaku was placing the bomb down when Lulu took off for her Knightmare. She was almost there when she was slammed to the ground. Her head smacked the rock of the cave hard and her vision swam. She was probably bleeding and had a concussion from the force of the blow. Suzaku didn't seem to care for her pain as he leaned over her, caging her body between the cold floor and his warm hard body.

"You shouldn't have run, Lulu," he reprimanded.

"You could have cushioned my fall, Suzaku," she snapped. "That hurt and I'm pretty sure I have a small concussion."

"You will survive, Lulu. You can't die yet. I won't let you."

Her eyes widened as she looked at him. He was deadly serious, that was obvious, and he wasn't smiling anymore. It was like she had slapped him across the face by running. It wasn't too far off the mark considering all she had done and all she still planned to do to get her revenge on her father. The man who had never once wondered why her mother was killed. The man who threw his two young children into the Japanese wilderness and left them to rot. The man who threatened Nunnally's very existence.

Anger boiled in her throat as Suzaku looked down on her with annoyance. He was annoyed with her. How about the fact that she was annoyed and furious with him! He was the one who was always throwing himself into dangerous situations that could get him killed. That was way she had cast her Geass on him. He had been willing to die to keep her pinned down while the higher-ups sent a missile in their direction. She had saved him! So, how dare he try to stop her from doing what she needed to do! She was going to change the world! She was going to make the world a safer and gentler place for her younger sister no matter the means necessary! She would not be a pawn! She would be the king that pawns followed!

"Release me!" she roared. She pushed at his chest with her hands and tried to get him off her. He didn't move. He sighed at her actions as if she were a petulant child. No matter what she tried, however, he was a rock above her and that pissed her off even more. "Damn you! Damn you, Suzaku!"

"Lulu, watch your mouth," Suzaku scolded again.

"Fuck you, Suzaku!" she screeched. "You are not innocent in this game! None of us are! You could have been by my side! We could have worked together to change the world and yet you betrayed me!"

Suzaku seemed shocked by her words. He raised an eyebrow at her and sighed as he shook his head. Lulu could see that he didn't understand. He didn't know how he had wounded her and helped her turn into the person lying beneath him. He was completely clueless. He was dense and that only infuriated her.

"I betrayed you," he countered. "That's rich coming from you, Lulu. Who is the one who became Zero in the first place, hmm? It wasn't me. You did this! You betrayed our feelings for some stupid vendetta!"

"You chose her over me! You chose my father over me! Not once have you chosen me, Suzaku! So don't claim it to be so!"

"What are you talking about? I have done everything…"

"Wrong," she snarled. "You should have become Nunnally's knight. She needed, no, needs you more than Euphie ever did. I needed you!"

Suzaku was shocked. He waited a moment as if he was contemplating her words before he asked, "Why didn't you just ask, Lulu?"

She looked away from him as tears started to form in her eyes. She didn't want him to see her cry. It was a weakness. A weakness she only showed to him. She hated it.

"Euphie summoned you and you left. You were in love with her. It was plain to see and it killed me. Then when you were announced as her Knight I knew that there was nothing left for me besides my revenge. I became dead inside and retreated farther into the darkness I had created in my heart. You had chosen her over Nunnally. You had chosen her over me. You were abandoning me just like everyone else."

"Lulu…"

"I needed someone I could trust to protect my sister and I had wanted it…no…needed it to be you. I knew you would watch over her and protect her when I couldn't, but it was a fool's hope," she continued.

"Lulu…I…"

"It's too late now to change the past. I can't change what I've done, who I've killed, or who I've hurt in my quest for revenge. I can't atone for the fact that I took Euphie from you and you had to…to…settle for me." Her voice was thick as she tried to hold back the tears. She couldn't get emotional now and show him weakness. She couldn't; because they were now adversaries. "I can't change that I have loved you since before I knew what love was. I can't change that I am Zero. I can't change that you are now my enemy."

She lifted a hand to her eyes to try and hide her tears. The days of innocence between them were over now. She was broken, shattered, and the one person who could put her together hated her. The one person who could have saved Lulu from herself and her vendetta had betrayed her. There was no one to save Lulu while she tried to save her sister.

Silence stretched between them. Lulu didn't know if he was processing her words or if he was ignoring them completely. All she could see was the pale skin of her own palm as she tried to hide her tears and quiet the sob that was bubbling in her throat. She had never wanted to hurt him. She had wanted to protect him too and, in doing so, had lost him forever. But, she knew she was right. They couldn't go back to what they once were. They couldn't be the lovesick children from before. Everything was different. They were different now.

"Lulu, look at me," Suzaku ordered. She shook her head. "Look at me."

Lulu shook her head again causing Suzaku to growl and grab her wrist again. He yanked it away from her face and his eyes widened when he saw her expression. Tears were pooling in her eyes and when she meet his beautiful green irises they flowed down the side of her face. She had told the truth. She could have lied and that was why he had demanded to see her face. There were moments when he could read the lies on her, but this time she wasn't lying and at this moment he knew she was serious.