Disclaimer: I obviously don't own jack of SVU or else we would see much more Alex/Liv. ;)
Gerne: slightly Angsty, I guess.
Slash Warning: Yes, I am impliying there was more than friendship between them before Alex had to leave in this one.
Spoilers: 10x15 Lead
Word Count: 200
Summary: Anyone else got the feeling that there must have happened something between the talk at the crime scene and Olivias caring manner in the courtroom?
A/N: Just my own little attempt on filling in the blanks "Lead" left us with. Inspired by The Rasmus song 'Guilty'.
Guilty
Alex knew coming back would be hard all along. Knew it would cut open deep wounds on all sides. Wounds that had not even started to heal properly in three years time.
She had been glad nevertheless. Jumping at the opportunity to take back her life; her job – and someday maybe even her heart. Not that she really dared to hope for the latter, but at least she was finally going home and it felt great.
But that was before.
Before she reached the crime scene, pure disbelieve flashing from the faces she had yearned to see again for so long. Before listening to Elliots unvoiced reproaches for not even calling once and finding herself unable to explain her reasons.
And most of all before todays evening when Olivia had shown up on her doorstep completely unexpected, leaving Alex to just stay there and stare at her lost in astonishment.
Disappointment, the blonde would have expected. Anger, the counselor could have coped with. But the almost shy smile she got seconds before finding herself enveloped by strong arms she'd longed to hold her again for such a long time completely knocked her of her balance.
Now, she really felt guilty.