Maura's Point of View
I've finished the conference and have a day to myself. A day to gather my thoughts and think fully on the path I am about to embark on. A path I have wanted to embark on for a long time. I have always held faith in science, there is no guess work, no what ifs. Just straight facts and that is what I believe in, what I thrive on besides order. A week and a half ago I gave up the sense of order and stability for love. Giving up though is not a good word. I was tired of being alone, wandering, looking for my true love. Like all those stories say. I thought at one time Ian was my true love but as it turns out great sex does not make a relationship.
Other people (men and women) that I've dated over the years have wanted one of three things, my money, my influences or just a trophy on their arm. The sex was always good but it left me feeling empty once the endorphins wore off. With Jane, just being close to her satisfies and fulfills me in ways I never felt before.
When I told her the truth of who I am, she had a hard time accepting it, at first. Who wouldn't? But Jane being Jane, eventually, just rolled with it and began asking questions, with the utmost respect and understanding. She is an amazing woman, passionate, kind, caring, loving (even though she hates to show it.) I can not believe we didn't see it before or acknowledged it. But I realize that we weren't ready for this yet.
I have not told Jane of some of the powers I have or the things I can do if I wish too. I never wanted anything to do with my powers or the darker part of me. However, to survive that tragic accident I realize that some things must be done in order to do so. It is a time in my life that I don't wish to dwell on or think about. That is a period in my life that should remain buried in the past.
Speaking of my powers I did not mean to and I honestly don't know how it happened but one night I was just holding her in my arms. Something that Jane rarely allows anyone to do. Jane is not a touchy feely person by nature. With me though, it appears as I am the exception to the rule. Anyway I was holding her in my arms, feeling her breath on my cheek and I pressed my lips to her neck, her scent, her essence drawing me to her like a moth to a flame. I felt her pain, the pain of someone hurting her, betraying her and it wasn't just the betrayal and hurt I also have a feeling that this person hurt her sexually and emotionally as well. I know Jane won't tell me or if she does, she'll blow it off and keep it buried. I won't allow that, she needs to talk about it because I don't want to hurt her and I love her. I will do whatever I have to, to keep her safe.
We have decided to take our time, get to know one another before we become physically intimate. It's been extremely difficult doing so though. The chemistry between us is amazing and between keeping our feelings hidden for so long and the closeness that we share, I've been taking cold showers more now than ever before.
However, in another week or so we will be at a place where we can be ourselves, take our time and have some privacy. Work and family often interrupts our alone time so we both are frustrated beyond belief but we do try to find some time to make during the day. My mother and Angela are suspicious, even though we try to hide it. I see the glances and notice that they notice when my hand lingers on Jane's arm or back a little longer. Or when Jane does the same. However, I don't think it will be a problem to anyone that is close to us, when we reveal that we are dating.
In the off chance that people have a problem with us being together, we will always have each other. I know Jane and I are meant to be. And if anyone has an issue with it then we will take it as it comes. I have found what I've been searching for all my life. I will not give that up for anything or anyone.