I got out the car and slammed the door l glared st paige as she jumped out the truck.
"What the hell paige" I yelled people startled now staring from my loud outburst
"You're acting crazy" paige said simply as she continued walking to the house
"Okay so if I'm crazy what the hell are you?" I yelled
"Um sane.." Paige responded calmly opening the door to our apartment and I closed it hard as soon as we got in
"So what do you call what happened today?"
"A rational reaction" paige shrugged
"How in the world is you making a scene with a clerk at our grocery store sane?" I questioned her
"You embarrassed me" I said
"I embarrassed you? You embarrassed me" Paige moved her hands bewilderedly over her head
"Paige you were about to fight her in front of everyone just for flirting with me"
"Yea so what? And you let her flirt with you again.. Emily" she responded
" I didn't let her she did it on her own"
"And you didn't say anything like always... you could at least let her know you were taken" she replied
" I'm sure she got that with how you decide to act like a possessive dog everytime we go there I surprised you don't start humping my leg" I yelled
Paiges dropped her jaw and her eyes looked like they were about to pop out of her head
I knew I messed up as soon as i said those words.
Paige turned around and brought her arms to her chest.
"That's it I'm going" Paige moved to grab her keys and I pulled her by the arm and turned her to me paiges eyes were glued to the floor
"I'm sorry paige I didn't mean that" I said sincerely
" it just hurts when she openly flirts with you and gawks at you and you do nothing ever you just let her" she sighed
"Emily it hurts that it doest bother you when I'm right there and you allow it to happen" Paige said defeated
"I'm sorry Paige it just she doesn't matter to me it's not like i flirt back and I don't want to be mean to someone" i replied
"And I don't want to act possessive but i just... you know what I don't want to get into it with you today" Paige said and made a sour face
I've learned to understand that face. The face where I fucked up and im a dumbass for not understanding why she was upset.
"I need to get some air before I end up blowing up and losing it"
She harshly pulled her hand from my grip and grabbed her jacket and walked out I followed her to the parking lot to see where she was going the same people were outside probably ease dropping from how loud we were.
Paige passed each person fuming.
"What!?" She yelled at some guy staring to much he just moved his head away and she kept walking.
I knew that this wasn't just a little flirt thing now she seemed genuinely hurt I love paige but she can definitely get in your face when she's pissed. I decided to go back in knowing she definitely need some space right now before I end up getting the third degree.
I was now alone I decided to go to a different grocery store to get the groceries we actually needed before the whole thing happened
When I got back to the apartment it was two hours later since it was further it took a little longer and she still wasn't home I started bringing in the groceries and putting them away then I started on dinner maybe it'll help a little when she gets home. I decided to go with some spaghetti. It was now another hr and I finished cooking so I called Paige to see if she was on her way and it went straight to voice mail
"Paige when are you getting home I have dinner ready and I don't want your food getting cold." Another 20 mins passed and no response I decided to call again and nothing so I put all the food away saving it for tomorrow knowing she's not gonna be calling me back anytime soon and I did not feel like eating at the moment. I decided to watch some t.v to pass the time while I waited for her to get home I ended falling asleep on the couch when I looked at my watch it now 1:30 and Paige still wasn't home. I was getting worried so I called her friends to ask is they knew where she phone calls and apologies later I called Caleb and no response so I called Hannah
"Hello" hannah groaned
"Hey Hannah I'm sorry it's late but do you know if Caleb's heard of Paige"
"Um yea they went out earlier"
"Do you know where they went?" I asked desperately
"Yea, are you sure you want to go Em Paige seemed pretty upset when she came by she didn't say what but I'm pretty sure it was something you did"
"It was that woman at the grocery store again"
"What happened?" Hannah asked
"Hannah I'll tell you everything later but right now I need to find paige and I don't want anything happening to her."
"Yea okay you got a pen"
I wrote then name of the place down and got the car keys.
10 mins later
I got out the truck and went into the bar
"Hey beautiful need some help" some guy with a skull tattooed on his head and tattoos everywhere asked
"No thank you" I politely responded
I looked around the placed looked full of bikers and Paige was there chatting with a group of people I've recognized before Paiges old military friends she now goes riding with. I've only met a couple times before. Caleb was there too laughing at something Paige had said. I came up to their group they were all clearly drunk slurring and laughing.
"Paigey you're girls here" I believe Rowan was her name said paige froze with her drink to halfway and she turned to me.
I looked at her now clearly drunk as tried monuvering around them. They all continued laughing and drinking while Paige came up to me
"I been calling you" i said while i folded my arms
"I know I turned my phone off" she replied cooly
"Paige look at the time you work early tomorrow."
"Yea I still have time"
"Time? paige it's 2am you have to be at work at 7am"
"Yea I know what time I work Emily" she said bitterly
"Look your obviously still mad but we can talk about it later grab your things"
I was surprised paige didn't fight me on this as she went to grab her jacket.
"I see you guys soon I gotta go" Paige excused herself with a choir of "see yah" and different date meet ups. We got in the car and i drove home Paige ended up knocking out a few mins within the drive back.
As soon as we got home paige got in and collapsed on the couch I took her boots off not wanting her to get the couch dirty i left her some advils and a glass of water that she can drink when she wakes up. I went back to the bedroom and decided I'll deal with her later.
It was now 6am and I started getting ready for the day I heard paige exiting the shower so I started up on breakfast I made some eggs and toast for the both of us. When paige came back into the kitchen uniform on she joined me for breakfast we ate in silence and she got up and picked up both our dishes and started on washing them. I decided to get a plastic food container and fill it with last night spaghetti so she can eat at work she cringed I knew she felt bad
"I'm sorry I missed dinner" she apologized
"It's okay" I whispered
"Look babe I definitely over reacted yesterday I really am sorry and when I get home we can talk about it for real" she said rubbing my arm up and down.
I kissed her to let her know I wasn't mad she lightly smiled at me kissed my forehead grabbed her lunch and headed for work.
I decided to take a little nap I didn't start work until 9. I woke up again and it was now 8:20 I over slept a little so I took a quick shower and headed off I was the owner of a bar and grill I pretty much had whatever schedule I want. Originally it was Paiges too I opened up the bar while she was deployed with the money she would send weekly saying she had saved up more than enough and she wasnt spending any of it out there but since coming back from the army she realized the work didn't suit her so she became a cop it was either that or she went back into the army. I was not gonna let her leave me again and worry everyday that something happened to her and not even being able to be there for her when she was struggling I still find her awake at random times because she can't sleep amd she still doesnt like to talk about it. There was no way I was gonna let her go back.
She fell into major depression when she came back and soon and started drinking more often since it was more accessible. At the time I didn't understand and didn't know everything she was dealing but Paige was turning into a dark path. One day I grabbed Paiges phone to grab a number and found residue of white powder on her phone screen. We fought for days going in circles and I flew back home until she figured out her problem because she wouldn't let me help her. I came back a week later because I missed her. It took some time but we got to the root of it all. So it goes back to her now being a cop she just couldn't back to being a regular civilian after the life she was use to so she out put the bar completely under my name and her becoming a cop. We were definitely doing better place now though. We were even looking into homes we were definitely doing a lot better it's only been a year since Paiges been back but she was now doing better now since she joined the police force 5 months ago and things like yesterday were relatively new since she joined the army straight after high school we been long distance for 4 years off and on out of the 6 years. Paige tried breaking it off many times because she didn't want to mess me up if something happened to her out there and me breaking it off because I felt she deserved more but now I'm 24 and she's 23 and we've been through so much. She was it for me I was sure no more offs I wasn't going to let her leave easily on a bad day so when I get home I was more than ready to get to what was going on with her.
Around 4 I left home and took a shower and started on dinner Paige got off at 5 and it depended what time she got home since she usually went out for a drink with some of her friends. But she promised she'd be home to talk. I decided to make white rice and black beans with a salad and some avocados on the side. I heard her opening the door around 5:20
"Hey babe" I greeted meeting her at the door and kissed her
"Take a shower food will be done soon" i said
"Smells good honey" she kissed me again and headed into the shower.
I started setting up the table once the food finished and waited for Paige to be out. I sat at the head of the table and paige decided to sit at my side
She grabbed my hand and kissed it
We remained silent while we ate Paige I finished up and paige got up to go for seconds
"You enjoying the food babe" I asked
" I always do you know that" she smiled and kissed my cheek I waited for her to finish up as soon as she did she went to the sink to wash up. I got up to stop her
"You leave that there I'll wash it up later I want us to talk now Paige"
"Alright then" she replied
We sat at the table
"Emily I really am sorry for the way I behaved" She apologized
"I'm sorry too I was being insensitive i know that now I won't let it happen again I promise" i said and I squeezed her hand
"So now tell me what's really going on" I continued
"It's just ugh I don't wanna say it" she groaned
"Come on babe well never figure this out if I don't know what going on with you or how you're feeling"
"It's just with you i always felt like I wasn't enough" she said while looking at her hands
" you know that you're way more than enough Paige"
" I don't wanna low blow you em but you know high school with maya alison you even kissed nate when we're together I always felt with you i wasn't enough or I was competing with all these people to be enough" she said while looking down
My heart broken I definitely didn't treat Paige good when we were younger so I definitely needed to fix that
"Babe I'm so sorry I did that I was so young and dumb you know at the time with Maya I just wanted to be out she was my first gf who wanted to be out with me too and it like the first relationship I had at the time I was confused by you. You were new to me and you still weren't ready to come out and maya was just there and I didn't want my mom thinking it was all a phase so i got back with Maya I'm sorry I did that to you I was stupid. Alison was the stupidest thing I did she was the first girl I ever kissed the first girl I thought I loved she was just the first ever feeling I ever had that felt real feeling not pretense for a boy you know. That being said nate was just idk but I'm gay paige i was confused with life. All of them have been just confusion in my life and I'm sorry my recklessness brought us to where we are now. I was insensitive I was 16 but you have to know I always always loved you I think maybe that's why I was so reckless because I knew you were the sure thing at such a young age that why I was always back with you besides what anyone else thought of you I didn't care"
Paige just shook her heading trying to get everything I was saying.
" and I'm not a teen anymore babe and neither are you I'm not confused anymore you're it for me I will never ever put anyone before you again ever. I don't even know how I'd live with you baby" I said crying now
It was true Paige and I had been throught so much together the last couple years. With my fathers heart attack and flucking out of college Paige was there for me even across the world when i was at my lowest she helped me love myself again and believe my life still had purpose. I went back to school and got my business degree with her help saying it was an investment. She helped me want to start living again after my fathers death.
"I don't ever want you to feel that way and I don't want you to ever leave me because I did something stupid like I did yesterday I'm sorry I can be so dense sometimes and insensitive but I won't let that happen again I promise you're the only one I love Paige and i sorry i ever made you feel other wise" I said
Paige got up and sat on my lap wiped the tears coming down my cheeks and kissed my forehead
She smiled at me and I smiled at her I wrapped my arms around her waste and held her tight and paige dropped her head on my shoulder and wrapped her arms around my neck
" I love you Paige I'm sorry"
"I love you too em and it's okay I forgive you and I'm sorry too for getting a little crazy because of my jealousy that being said idk if I'll ever get that under control I'd like apologize for my future jealousy" she laughed
I laughed too and kissed her hard I slipped my hands inside her shirt and started rubbing my hand up and down her back the kiss was no getting heated and I pawed at her ass. Paige came up and moaned and grinded herself on me while I continued pawing at her she came up and started sucking on my neck I wrapped her legs around my waste and picked her up I stood there and looked at her
"Make up sex?" I asked
"Yes em make up sex" she laughed and went back to sucking my neck I laid her on the table decideding the room was just to far.