Title : Songs of the Dead and Dying
Disclaimer : Me no own, You no sue. Written after the "Home" episode.
Warning : Wincest
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Chapter One: Mary Apologizes
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Mary Winchester says she's sorry
She's apologizing for something her husband did
He made them who they are
Beings who are no longer people
Just things that are trained to hunt and kill
Hunt and kill
Hunt and kill
So Mary Winchester says she's sorry
Sorry for the sons and husband she left alone
They never knew any other life
Though the elder barely remembers a time when "dad" used to be "daddy"
And when "mom" used to be "mommy"
When "mom" was a word that wasn't forbidden
When the thought of mommy was a happy one
So Mary Winchester says she's sorry
She turns away from them
And the boys watch as she goes up in flames
Her apology still ringing in the air
It was something that she could not control
But in her mind, it was still her fault
So Mary Winchester says she's sorry
And she wishes she could apologize till she's blue in the face
But her time here is officially over
The younger watches the mother he doesn't really remember
And wishes he could hear her voice only once more
'Cause he wants a mother, not just a brother and father
But a mother as well
So Mary Winchester apologizes to her baby boy
Tells him she's sorry for something she had no control over
But could have stopped if she had only fought a little harder
'Cause she knows that it's her husband's fault for ruining her boys
For making them lover more than they should
For making them care only about each other
For making them lie over and over when they should only speak the truth
For making them alone without any friends
For making them warriors instead gentle
For making them outsiders with no one to trust
So Mary Winchester apologizes to her son
And says that she's sorry
And Sam knows what it's about though he denies it then
But he'll never tell Dean
'Cause he's not sorry for what they do
He's not sorry that he fell in love just sorry that it's "wrong" to love who he does
So Mary Winchester says she's sorry
She's sorry for allowing her youngest to fall in love with her oldest
She's sorry for allowing them to be forced into what they are now
She's sorry for allowing her boys to be forced into that cursed embrace
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