Authors note: This is a Harry Potter/His Dark Materials fic. All the characters are not my own except for Sarah, Lewis, and Keith. The book is mainly based around the "His Dark Materials" book and it would help if you had read the book but you can understand if you haven't! Thanks and review please.



Die Nachtigall- The Nightingale

Chapter 1

Before we knew

I shove open the swinging doors and push my way threw the crowd yelling, "Hot plate! Hot plate!"

That's the one downside to working at Hard Rock Cafe in Universal Studios, Orland, too many damn tourists sometimes.

My hand is burning, hardly able to hold it anymore as I place the steaming plate on the table. They tell me thank you and I walk back into the kitchen area, to take a short five-minute break before my orders are up for table number night teen.

I place my chin in the palm of my sweaty palms and rub the corner of my eyes with my fingertips. I try to control the tears that have been striving to leap free today. A couple tears leak from my eyes but I'm able to suck up the rest and for the moment in time take my wandering mind off Aaron. I wipe away the snout and stand back up since I hear, "Order for table number night teen." Ring from the cooking area.

I take the plate and deliver it to the awaiting table. They once again smile. The rest of the night continues like this in till 8:00, when my shift is over.

Grab my bag and yell out to Sheri that I'm leaving for the night.

As I approach the car, I see the outline of a figure by the yellow bug. As I get closer, I squint and see Lewis smiling back at me.

When I get to the car, he says in an ecstatic tone, "Hey babe, how was work?"

I hold myself up on the car and sigh, "You know boring, busy, and upsetting. Same as always." I lay my head on the side of the car staring off in a far off gaze.

He lowers his head to mine and looks in my eyes responding, "Is he really getting to you that bad? I'm sorry Sarah, I really am."

As soon as he speaks those simple words, the tears pour from the crevices of my eyes.

I cover my eyes with my hand, hoping for him not to see the emotions streaming from my eyes. But I am barely able to stand holding in my shredded heart from someone I am so close to.

My weeps soon turned to sobs and I place my head on the edge of his shoulder. I try to speak from beneath my tears but only mumble something that sounds like pure gibberish.

Lewis envelops me into the comfort of his arms and caresses my back whispering to me, "Shhhhhhhhh. Its ok just let it all out."

My tears come steadier down my face as I speak, "I love him so much Lewis. He is my freaking everything, how could he do this to me? I thought it would last forever. He talked all about marriage and everything. We kept the long distance relationship going for three years! Why did he have to do this? I just--- I just- I don't even know."

He pulls his fingers through my brown hair and responds to my cries, "I think we've all learned that things don't last forever. And did you really think it'd last so faraway? Yes, it was a miracle what happened, meeting online and falling in love. You felt it was god's gift and god brought you together. Remember telling me that? But you know what you always told me these years? If he ever left you, you'd survive. Will make it through this and I'll be here for you ever step of the way, ok?"

I smile at him and kiss his cheek in a friendly way, I say to him while whipping my tears with my hand, "I just never knew it would feel like this. I had to experience to really know. I just don't want to even talk about it. There's nothing you can say to make me feel better Lewis."

He just sort of grins and nods at me. He opens the door into the car and gets in. The ride is completely silent as I drive him home to his house in the neighborhood near to mines.

He hugs me goodbye and smiles as he leaves the car. He finally enters into the house after a final wave.

When I arrive home to my house, I ignore my moms how was your day and go up the stairs to my room, collapsing on my bed in confusion and tears all rolled into one.

I am hardly able to control my anxiety attacks as I hear a knock on the door.

"Darling? Are you ok?" I hear my mother say through the door.

I sit up for a second and am about to say come in when my mind chases. I yell back at her loud enough for her to hear, "Yes! Just leave me alone!--- Please"

My body cries out for her embrace and deep inside, I really wish she would of come in anyways and hold me close to her chest. Just like when I was a baby and rock me in her arms, taking me away from the harshness of reality.

When I was young, cuts, bruises, and harsh words were easy to heal but how do you clean up a broken heart. The heart I still feel literally tearing inside of my chest. After gathering my emotions more together and cleaning up the tissues. I decide a shower would maybe cheer my spirits a little even though I remember with Keith....that nothing worked. I don't want my mind to wander back to Keith now.

After taking a shower and sitting by the pool for twenty minutes, I go back up to my bedroom to sit down and read a bit before shut eye and dreamland.

I hear a Sarah come from the speakers and don't turn since I know who it is on web cam. It's Aaron, his voice all too familiar.

"Go away." I yell from the spot on bed.

"Come on Sarah, just talk to me!" he responds back to me

"No. You do not deserve my time." I scream even louder.

I hear him grumble and speak, "Sarah, you can't do this forever. Just give me ten minutes to explain."

I turn around and face the screen, feeling those butterflies flutter in my stomach once again. I yell at my conscious inside my head to not do that.

Every feeling rushes back but does not overcome my anger at him, "Fine ten minutes! I'm timing it." I turn the timer and sit in front of the computer staring at him.

He grins at me and says, "You just had to turn on that damn timer of yours."

I give him a sarcastic smile and tell him, "Ok get on with it. Tell me your reason."

He twiddles his fingers then begins to talk, "It's just---It's not that I don't- - - love you Sarah. I just want to see other people, explore my horizons, ya know?"

I look at him with an unsympathetic look and can tell by his eyes that he straight out lying and I say to him, "You're lying your ass off Aaron! Tell me the truth!"

What he is about to say, reveals my deepest fears and thoughts of the brake. He says, "Fine Sarah! I didn't want to tell you this but it's another girl."

I feel my heart tear at the sounds of his one sentence just as before and quickly mumble before my tears come, "That's all I need to know. Goodbye."

Before he can stop me I turn off the monitor and sit onto my bed too shocked to even cry. All I hear from myself is silence; my reaction is not yet determined from what I just heard. Words from the past pass into my head, "Sarah, I will always love you and no girl will ever take your place. You're not number one, you're my only one." As I replay the words back and forth in my head the tears to come roll along with it. Each time it plays the tears increase in till my breathing becomes unstable and my vision hazy.

I scream at the top of my lungs over the tears, trying to fight out the pain. I want to push it away, just get rid of it. No more pain! No more pain!

The words running about in my head actually turn into phrases coming out of my mouth. "He promised! He made so many—so many promises!" more moans exit my throat as I remember everything we had together. I start to scream more "Why me god!?!? Why me!?! Why me again?!?!"

Before I can say more the phone rings but my mom ends up picking it up first. I blow my noise and wipe away my tears, clearing my voice back to normal in case it's for me.

Sure enough my mom calls, "Sarah, it's Lewis."

I pick up quickly and rush a hello.

He stops for a second then says in a gentle voice, "How are you doing?"

I decide to hide my pain and say, "I'm just great! I promise." I don't want anyone worrying about me. I hate that happening.

He thinks for a moment and he has something to say I can hear it in his sigh, "Sarah, I need to tell you something really important."

My ears perk up a bit more and I respond with, "Sure Lewis, shout!"

He doesn't speak for a moment then coughs clearing his throat, "Sarah, I- I- I...love you."

I feel my heart stop beating and don't know what to say certainly with all that's been going on in the past few hours.

All I manage to get out is, "What did you say?"

He seems quieter then whispers but gets louder as he says it, "I---love you Sarah! I really do! I just had to tell you."

I have no clue what to say since I do not return the emotions and all my mind can think of doing is...Click.