"I struggled with who I was, trying to prove myself. I almost got in a gang. If fathers did what they're supposed to, half of the junk that we face on the streets wouldn't exist. Why are you worried about it? You nervous about being a father one day?"
David almost couldn't breathe. All if the guilt from hiding and all of the guilt from running had built up and suddenly there was a dam that shut in him, taking away his ability to function. There was only one thing left to do, the right thing to do.
"I already am one," he breathed out, looking at the ground.
David could tell that he had caught Nathan by surprise as the elder man set down his gun and walked towards the younger man. At first they just sat together in silence for a few moments before Nathan broke it with the obvious question, "You've got a kid?"
David nodded, "A little girl." As the conversation continued David felt all of the tidbits the guys had ever said about religion swarming around in his head, starting to form together, even more, starting to sound believable. When he heard Nathan ask what was holding him back, he thought hard and tried to find the rope that kept him back, but it felt as though it had been cut. There was absolutely nothing holding him back, why would there be something holding you back from something so wonderful? That's exactly what he told Nathan.
"What should I do?" David asked Nathan. He just accepted God, but where he still didn't have a concept of where to start with Amanda and Olivia.
"Pray about it," was Nathan's simple response.
"And then," David prodded.
"And then you should have the answer, but if not, keep praying."
As the Resolution signing got closer and closer, David got even more excited. Every night he got down on his knees and prayed about Amanda and Olivia. He spent his free time thinking up ways that he could support them, ways that he might be able to grow close to his daughter.
As he stood before William Barrett, David felt responsible. He knew, reciting those words, that he was responsible for the two girls that he had abandoned. He knew he needed their forgiveness and he knew that he would do whatever it took to get that.
AN- I hope to expand on this, sorry that it was so short.
XOXO Darcy
