Glimpse of Paradise
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Italics Hakkai
Normal Gojyo
Bold both
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Eyes the color of blood, redemption, sorrow, anguish. Crimson eyes...bury myself inside...can't escape…
Eyes...emerald depths. A shallow facade masking the eternal depths of infinity behind that jade barricade of false happiness.
He's...staring into me...my soul
I can feel the slight rustle in the air, he moves forward. Such graceful movements from a man.
...should I reach out and touch that face? The darkness caresses his features, making them blaze with solemnity...
What is he thinking right now?
His cheek...so soft against my fingertips. All so...beautiful in a way that I can not describe, even that scar adorning his cheek. To assign any words to this moment would be an injustice, for any said words would be too superficial and empty...
His touch startles me...he feels alive and warm. I wonder...since when have I become so shy as to wait for someone else to make the first move? Ah yes, but Hakkai isn't just some whore...
He's just...
Hakkai
Gojyo
I lay my hand over his, stopping his caress. I want to say something, anything, but I know that words would just shatter this moment...
…this moment...Why is it that I can barely breathe? Or maybe I'm just holding my breath...waiting for...
What's next?
The nighttime dances around us...darkness that stills the world...nothing exists but my hand on his...
His fingers tighten around mine...intertwining...I see nothing but crimson eyes...
I can hear his quickened breaths...I slowly inch forward...as if I'm almost wary of him...
He moves so slowly, his arms sliding around me making me shiver...his body, his heat, all moving closer, till I'm surrounded by the resonance of his breathing and the lullaby of his heartbeat...
His lips, inches from me, yet I hesitate. Why though? He isn't just anyone. He...is Hakkai...A person who grew so close to me...and I didn't even notice until...
I can taste his breath on my lips, but still he does not move...what is it that he's pondering...and yet this is almost it...
...the point of no return
And yet...the moment was broken so harshly and suddenly...
suddenly released from doubt...
as those lips sweeter than any before them crushed upon mine...
...hunger grew inside my soul...the taste of cigarettes and beer...and something sweeter than has ever been tasted before...
..just a glimpse of paradise...
And it left me knowing...that there was so much more...