Everybody knows that everybody dies. But it was like I had one job to do and I blew it. You were the most human…human being I've ever known. You cried and you laughed, you regretted and you forgave. You loved your brother and you loved me, we both know that. I was meant to protect you like your father asked all those years ago.
But I lost you.
I was my fault. I know it was. Sam says that I shouldn't blame myself but I do. It's not something that you can just switch off. If I had been there, I know I could have stopped it. You weren't meant to be there on your own. If I was there then you would be here and I wouldn't be writing this.
I am trying not to cry because I cried all through your Hunter's funeral and all of yesterday. My head is throbbing and I look a mess.
We haven't seen Cas since then but I suppose he is hurting.
We all are.
Sam and I are going to try hunting tomorrow. There is a Wendigo in Ohio we need to sort out.
Dean, just remember that I love you. I know you aren't in hell because I tortured Crowley until he told me. I will always miss you and will never forget you,
Yours forever and always,
(Y/N) xx
A/N Okay, so this was a little depressing. But I was just in the mood for writing this. I wrote it a while ago and just thought I had to share it with you guys. Let me know what you think.