I stood in the rain and watched as everybody's head hung low. Everyone was in black. Solid Black. Everything was blurry. It was either the rain or tears. Maybe a combination of both. Why did this happen to me? Why me? The 15 year old boy still trying to find my way through life. Why? What had i done to deserve this? We all seemed happy, until yesterday. It was all my fault. If only i hadn't been so stupid, maybe my brother would still be here. Still smiling his usual smile. Thinking these thoughts, tears began to fall harder. It was impossible to see. I could hear everyone else's cries around me. My mom, dad, and now 2 brothers. Why did i have to get mad and run away? If he just would have left me alone, i would have come back. Everything was perfect. Now it was ruined. The band and the family. Life would never be the same. I realized that they had begun to lower the casket. He was now gone forever. Kevin was dead.