AN- Ok, so this will not be updated frequently, I have First Day On A Brand NeW Planet to work on, as well as school and my trip to Mexico next month WHOOOOOO! So updates will be infrequent. On the Plus side, I finally get to right two of my favourite couples in one fic. That's right HG/RL AND HG/ SB all in one fic, neat, huh?

PLEAE READ NEXT PART TO UNDERSTAND STORY

This fic is so AU after book 5 it is not even funny. Like seriously, just ignore 6 and 7 most of those two books will be trashed out the window for this fic. Ummmmm, prologue is confusing, kinda, just go with it. It will make sense…….eventually. I'll try to put chapter one up by the end of the week…..I hope……

Peace out,

CHAYLA

Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.

David Grayson

PROLOGUE AUGUST 10th

"Did any of it ever matter to you at all, even one damn minute of it?" She yelled out at him, her voice ringing with anger and…hurt. " 'Mione…" he started, but she cut him off quickly. "No, obviously, it didn't. I saw you and her together, don't try to deny it."

"I wasn't going to deny it." He said quietly. He sank down into a chair looking suddenly weary. "You were gone for over a year 'Mione. You didn't call, you didn't leave a number." He looked suddenly angry. "Sixteen months Hermione, and not one bloody letter. Do you know how worried I was, how worried we all were?"

She started at him coldly for a moment before breaking down. Once the tears started pouring, there was no stopping them. "You promised." She whispered. He looked up at her, unsure of what she had said. "You promised.' She said her words louder than before. "Before I left you swore that you would be here waiting for me. That you understood that I needed time to sort things out, that you understood."

He made a move to speak but, once again, her voice silenced him. "I can't believe I was foolish enough to trust you." She shook her head. "I should have known better than to believe in happy endings."

She was just about to walk out of the room when he called out her name. "Hermione." She stopped dead in her tracks. He never called her that, ever. Oh maybe he had once, years ago but in all the time they were together, he had only called her by her full name once before…

Her eyes were sparkling with tears. "Don't," she said, as he stepped closer to her. "This… this is something you can't fix….." She took a deep breath. For the past three years, this man had been everything to her. He had been the one that protected her, saved her from everything, even herself. Now, suddenly, she was going to have to survive without the reassurance of his presence. The though terrified her.

They stood looking at each other for a few more seconds before she turned and fled the room. For them, there could never be fairy -tale ending, no such thing as happily ever after, it just was not meant to be.

Remus Lupin stared at the door long after Hermione had exited. He sighed. In all honesty, he had never expected her to come back after she left England over a year ago. He thought she was gone for good. Oh yes, she had promised to return and he had promised to wait, but in his heart or hearts he knew that she was gone, that she had left him for good, that he had been her comfort--her solance-- while she had needed him and now she was going to finally move on.

He had knew this, felt it with a burning certainty, and yet, here she was, she had been in front of him just moments ago. And so, into his mind, the question entered. Why was she back?