James and I were sitting in my room. "What are we going to do?" he asked. "I don't know" I said. "Its not like we can tell Carlos, or can we?" he asked. "That's what I want to know" I said. We went into the living room. The boys were on the couch. Carlos looked at me. "Em, the boys are spending the night, if that's ok with James, he can too" Carlos said. "Yeah, that's cool" James replied. "Where are they going to sleep?" I asked. Carlos looked at them. "I don't know" he said. "Well there is a living room" Logan replied. "True" Kendall said. "I guess they get to choose" Carlos said. "I call living room" Logan said. "Me too" Kendall said. "Im sleeping in my room, what about you James?" Carlos asked. "I don't know yet" James said. Carlos looked at me. "You upset?" He asked. "No" I said. "Ok" he said. That afternoon we were planning out what we were going to do. "I say we should do tag in the dark" Logan said. "To dangerous" Carlos said. "Video games?" Kendall asked. "Yes" Carlos said. They all turned to me. "What do you want to do tonight?" They asked. "I don't know" I said. "You know even if you're the only girl tonight, you don't have to stay in your room, you can sleep in the living room if you want" Carlos said. "Ok" I said. James looked at me. "uhhhh, im going in my room" I said. "Ok" they said. I sat on my bed. I thought about my problem. "What if Carlos finds out?" I thought, "Would he be mad, or happy that I found someone?" James came in. "Whats wrong?" he asked. He touched the side of my face with his knucles. "Nothing" I lied. James looked at me "Yes there is" he said. "Im worried" I replied. "About Carlos?" he asked. "Yes" I said. "So where you going to sleep tonight?" he asked. "I don't know, maybe the living room" I said. "I was thinking, maybe tonight we can come up here and sleep." I looked at him. "And just sleep?" I asked. "Maybe a little more" he said. I smiled. He smiled too. "Come on, lets go downstairs" I said. We both went downstairs. The boys were still on the couch and they gave me their phone numbers, and I gave them mine we were like brothers and sisters and we all knew that. "Hey want pizza?" Carlos asked. "Sure" I said. Carlos went to go order pizza. I started talking with the boys. Later on the pizza got here and we ate. "Found anywhere to sleep yet?" Carlos asked. "I guess in my room" I said. "Ok" he said. Then we played video games, and truth or dare. Finally it was bedtime. Carlos went in his room. Kendall and Logan laid on the floor. I didn't go to bed yet. I sat on my knees on the floor and looked down. "Everything ok?" Logan asked me looking up. "I don't know" I said. "I thought you were over him?" Kendall asked. "I am" I said quickly. "Umm it happened all quickly" I said while glancing up for a second. James was sitting beside me. "Just thinking about everything" I said. "How bad did you love him, and how bad do you miss him?" James asked. "To be honest, I didn't, and I don't miss him" I said. "Huh?, explain" Logan said. "It was a stupid dare" I explained, "My friends dared me to go out with him, and so I did, he thought it was real, and when I broke up with him, he was real mad, he did things like he tried to hurt me" I said. "How?" Logan asked. I paused, and looked down for a second. "Carlos doesn't know about this" I said as I pulled up my sleeve, "But he took a knife and cut me across my arm" I said. The boys were shocked. "Did it hurt?" Logan asked. "It happened so fast, so it really didn't hurt till after" I said, "He said he never wants to see me, or do anything to me again" I said. "Does Carlos know?" Kendall asked. "He thinks we were actually together, until we broke up, and he knows he wants to hurt me, but that's it, he doesn't know that he has or anything" I said. I looked down. "You ok?" James asked. "It was an emotional experience, but im glad I have 3 other brothers to talk to." I didn't say James was my bf, and James understood.