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I pace back and forth, waiting and waiting. Patience was not my strong suit. Why did this damn test have to take so long? Three minutes, three whole minutes and my life could be flipped upside down. I look at myself in the mirror. Alex you can do this, it is just a stupid test. I tried to distract myself by fixing my hair, twisting and twirling it. Finally the timer I set on my phone goes off. I scramble around, grabbing the test off the counter. I pick it up and look at it, positive. It was positive. How could it be positive? I lean up against the wall and slide down to a sitting position.

I was not prepared for this. Division had prepared me for every scenario. I always knew every angle of every situation, how each one would play out. I was always prepared, but not for this. I was not prepared for a baby. They needed care, comfort, and attention. I wasn't sure if I knew how to do that, I had been neglected for so long.

And Sean, he wasn't ready for this. He had just given up everything, his family, the seals, everything. I had made him stay with me, in Division to finish this fight. I wasn't ready to give up this fight. He wouldn't let me finish this fight if I told him. I wouldn't tell him, I couldn't tell him. Not just yet. I wasn't ready.

I heard him before he was through the door. I quickly shoved the pregnancy test to the back of a drawer and walked out to greet him.

"Hey hon how are you?" Sean says setting the groceries on the table and wrapping me up in a big bear hug.

"Good." I say, trying to keep my voice steady. He unwraps his arms from around me and starts putting away the groceries.

"What did you do this morning?" he asks. I lie and tell him I exercised, but really I just stared at the test box until I had enough confidence to open it.

"Do you want some eggs?" he asks cracking open two into a pan. The smell is almost unbearable.

"No I am going to take a shower." I mumble, racing from the room before I throw up in front of him. I barely make it to the bathroom in time.

I climb in the shower and let the hot water run down my back, relieving the built up tensions from days ago, when this all started. It had all started when Nikita had noticed I was more emotional than usual, after Amanda had framed Sean for the death of our CIA friend, Kendrick.

"Alex are you alright?" Nikita asked, looking concerned. I was sitting outside of medical, waiting to make sure Sean was okay. I was a crying mess.

"Yes…just….making….sure…Sean….is….okay." I manage to blurt out through my sobs. Nikita pulls me into a comforting hug, holding me like I was her daughter, letting me cry all my tears out.

"Honey, he is fine, you should get some rest." She says. I shake my head no; I didn't think I could sleep without him anyways. "Are you sure everything is alright?" she says. "You have been a little different lately."

"Yeah, just tired." I lie through my teeth. I had noticed I was different. I had been having weird dreams, I could barely control my emotions, let alone every smell made me want to throw up. The last thought stopped me cold. What if I was – no I couldn't be, I wasn't. But no matter how hard I tried to erase that thought, it had been eating at me ever since.

I hear the door open and I snap out of my thoughts.

"Alex, sweetie, are you okay? You have been in here for a while." Sean says, standing in the door way.

"Yeah, sorry just got lost in thought." I say, turning off the shower and grabbing a towel.

"Okay, well come out when you're ready, I have a surprise for you." he says mischievously. Not as big of one I have for you I think to myself. I dress myself in jeans and a white V-neck t-shirt before walking out to our living room.

He was sitting on the couch, staring out of the windows. I stopped and smiled. I knew this was part of the reason he had wanted this house. After he was framed, we decided it was time to get out own place, since we couldn't very well go back to his place. I had suggested Division, but I knew he didn't like being cooped up there, and to be honest neither did I. So we chose a little house on the beach, nearby.

"Come sit." He says, patting the place on the couch next to him. I curl up on the couch next to him, his arm warps around me and he kisses the top of my head. He pulls out a thin, purple, velvet box with a bow on top and places it in my lap.

"Happy anniversary" he says into my ear. I sit up fast I had forgotten. He was going to be so disappointed.

"I forgot" I say shamefully. Tears rush down my face.

"Hey, hey, hey it is okay we have had a lot going on, don't worry about it." he says, brushing the tears off my face. But I can't seem to to stop crying. I was all he had left and I had forgotten the most important day. I felt so guilty. I didn't deserve him. He holds me and lets me cry myself to a much needed sleep.

I wake up to the different colors of the sun set, streaming through the wall of windows. Sean is still just looking out of them. I sit up and rub my eyes and pull my hair out of my face.

"Hey sleepy head." He says smiling at me.

"Hey." I say numbly back, still upset I had forgotten about our anniversary. The smile on his face turns to a serious expression.

"Alex you have to tell me what's been going on. You practically sprint out of the kitchen every time we are in there, you have been waking up every night, and you can't seem to stop crying. What is going on?" he says looking concerned. I sit there quietly debating on whether or not to tell him. I start to cry again. He tries to be comforting, but I can tell I am really worrying him. I would tell him in time, just not yet.

"Nothing." I say. "Nothing at all."

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