Chapter 1

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"W-What?" I asked the angel in front of me.

"Bella, I want you to stay here, with charlie, and away from me." Edward said. I shook my head, "N-No! I don't believe you. If you want me to be safe, then CHANGE me! I wont live with out you! I cant live without you!" I said, breaking into sobs. He was my life, My reason for being here, in Forks Washington. He couldn't do this to me.

"Bella, you have to make yourself safe. or else our time together will have been for nothing. That is all I want you to do for me, Promise not to do anything irrational." I couldn't believe what he was saying.

"Why should I promise you anything, if you are breaking all of the promises you have ever made me? I won't promise you anything, because without you, I will be dead inside! Edward, Please don't do this to me! you promised me! you promised me that you would stay as long as I wanted! " I was breaking down now. There was no way I was going to win this, and we both knew it.

"Bella, I am sorry, but I can't do that. Everyone is already gone, and they are waiting for me." he said. I stared at him in shock.

"Well, you could always stay, and they could come back! Edward, I know that you still love me, Why are you doing this to yourself?" I asked him, then his face hardened, and his facade slipped. I briefly saw pain slip across his face. but then it was gone, his face composed again.

"Bella, I am leaving now, and don't worry, It will be as if I never Existed." he said, then kissed my forehead. and in a second he was gone. I wandered after him. soon enough, I heard a noise around me. I looked around, hopeful that it was Edward. But when I turned, It was A girl I didn't know. and I could tell that she was a vampire. She had topaz eyes, and ws more beautiful than I had ever seen. Aside from Rosalie, of course. She stared at me for a while. I suddenly realized what I wanted from her. as soon as I thought it, she walked at a human pace away from me. I could tell that she wanted me to follow, or she wouldn't have walked so slowly. I followed her, and she brought me to the Cullen house, then we waled upstairs into Edwards room. I could tell that he had left everything there. I broke into sobs worst than I had before. the girl spoke, and it shocked me.

"You want me to change you. I can see that it is the one thing that you want the most. so I will. but you must promise me that you will not go and kill that man you were with. I will not be with you when you wake up, but I know that you will be ok." She said. Before I could aske her what she meant, she swept down and re-bit the wrist that James had bitten last spring.

All of a sudden, everything was black. I couldn't hear anything, couldn't see anything. For a while, i thought that I was dead. But surely in death you felt something.I could feel nothing. then, after who knows how long, I could feel a burning sensation start at my heart, then slowly, the pain started to expand. I couldn't think anything except the fact that Edward wasn't here, and that was good. I wanted to scream out when I felt the burning at what was surely the worst point, but figured that Alice could probably see me, and so I didn't. It gave me comfort to think that she was watching me, and that seemed to ease the pain.

After an eternity of burning, I could think about more than the burning and Edward. I remembered where I was. and why. I also remembered the pain I felt when he said that it would be as if he never existed. What a lie! I thought. how can it be as if he never existed, when I am becoming what he is?I suddenly felt a pang of anger towards him. I decided that I would stay in his house, not going anywhere except to hunt. maybe, if Alice saw me like this, they would decide ot come back. there were so many thoughts in my head at once, it was slightly confusing. then after another eternity, the pain started to recede from my palms. I knew that I was going to be forbidden to remember, yet I didn't want to forget all those times that he said he loved me. I knew that he was just trying to get me to move on. I don't know how I knew that, but I did. I also knew that he still loved me. there was no way that I was forgetting him. not after all that we had been through. All of a sudden, I remembered the day in our meadow. We hadn't gone back there after that day, but I knew that I would start there. But, of course, I had to get through the burning, and then hunt.

Soon, the burning went back to my heart, ans it thumped its last, dead thump. I tried to smell everything in the room, before I opened my eyes. it smelled like Edward, and I was glad to have his room the first scent that I took in. there were no sounds around me, beside my breathing, but I could hear evry thing. I could hear the cars on the freeway, and the way the trees moved when the wind hit it. I could also hear all the raindrops on the roof of the house. It was Amazing.

when I finally opened my eyes, I noticed automatically the clarity of everything. I looked around, and could see that he had actually left a bunch of his Cd's. Maybe he was planning to come back. After I took in the beauty of the room, I noticed my faint thirst. I was surprised that I wasn't all that hungry. but I decided that I should probably hunt. I went downstairs, and ran out the door. I leaped gracefully over the river as though I had done it a thousand times. this surprised me. I scolded myself for being so surprised at everything I was capable of doing. I ran through the forest, and heard a light lapping of water. my senses took over and a shot off in the direction of the scent. I jumped onto the deer that was drinking the water, and drank the blood. Luckily, though, I didn't ruin the outfit I was wearing.

After 5 more deer, I decided that that was enough. I wanted to look for Edward, but I also wanted to stay in the house. I decided that I would look in our meadow, then, if he wasn't there, head towards Alaska. I had heard the Cullen's talking about a coven up there like them, and I wanted to see if they knew the whereabouts of my family. or, at least, I hoped that they were still my family. I shot off towards the meadow. I knew exactly where it was, for some reason, and slowed as I got closer to the light. I closed my eyes, and walked foreword