I've had this idea in my head for awhile and I hope you all enjoy it. I've decided to continue this story as well! Anyway on with the story!
Disclaimer: I do NOT own any of the characters in Ouran High School Host Club, do NOT sue me.
"Hey Kaoru! I brought you some flowers. I had them specially made for you. See? They're blue roses."
I placed the roses on a small table next to Kaoru's bed, and took up my younger brother's hand, kissing it softly.
"The Host Club isn't the same without you. Everyone misses you. Haruhi and I are doing okay… I guess. How are you?"
Silence filled the room as an answer.
"That's what I thought." I replied and smiled sadly. "Anyway, I'm sorry I can't stay long today Kaoru. Tamaki is having us do something bothersome for the club today."
Hesitantly, I placed Kaoru's hand at his side on the bed again. "I love you Kaoru."
With that I sadly left the hospital room, but quickly turned and peeked back into the room for one last word, "And don't worry Kaoru. I convinced mom and dad not to pull the plug on you, I won't let them." I smiled and ran out of the hospital.
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The limo ride to the Academy was a lonely one. I no longer have my twin with me which makes everything in the world seem to be empty. It was just a cluster of months ago Honey and Mori were getting ready to graduate and even though I did like Haruhi it had worn off a month after we had our date. Kaoru didn't realize this though. He also didn't realize that I was in love with him. That day… I hate thinking about it.
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Everyday seemed normal as it passed though, Kaoru never showed that he was upset or depressed about anything. One day though while in the club Kaoru said he was quickly going to go to the bathroom and he would be right back. I just smiled, nodded and trusted him. But… Kaoru never did come back. The entire club searched the campus before I received a call and was told to come home quickly. Of course I rushed home.
When I arrived home the maids and butlers were all frantically running to and fro. Finally one of them noticed me and screamed for one of the butlers to keep me away from the shared room between my brother and I. Tears were running down the maids cheeks, and I could hear my mother in another room screaming in sorrow as my dad tried his best to calm her. As the butler approached, I had put the pieces of the puzzle together. My eyes widened in fear and my heart raced as he ran upstairs to our bedroom, thrashing and kicking at everyone who tried to stop me. He burst into his room. Where was Kaoru? Out of the corner of my eye I saw the light of our private bathroom on.
I rushed over, "Kaoru?!" Dropping to my knees I could barely gasp out words at what I saw, "...K..Kaoru.." Slowly I crawled over to his blood soaked brother. Kaoru had slit his wrists and a pool of blood was on the ground. Without hesitation I picked up my limp brother, not caring about getting blood all over myself, and cradled Kaoru.
By the time the ambulance arrived, they found me hunched over my brother's body, crying hysterically.
Early next morning the Hitachiin family was informed of Kaoru's condition. He was not dead. This sparked hope inside me until the doctor told us that he may stay in a coma for the rest of his life. Now it was in our hands whether or not to pull the plug on Kaoru or keep him alive.
I fought with my parents over the matter for months. Only recently both of them had given up and agreed to keep Kaoru alive.
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"But… there was one thing that I never told mom and dad. Right Kaoru?"
That night when Kaoru had attempted to commit suicide, I found a note he had left for me. It's always with me.
Hikaru,
I truly love you Hikaru. It hurts to see you and Haruhi together, but I cannot be greedy.
"But I never loved her Kaoru..." I can feel hot tears forming in my eyes already.
Even if you did love me back, we couldn't be together. No one would have accepted us. I can't go on like this knowing I can never be with the person I love so dearly.
The tears broke free from the rim of my eyes.
I'm sorry.
The limo came to a stop; I have arrived at the Academy. Cautiously I read over the last lines of the letter. This is the part I hate the most.
Brother, as my dying wish, I want you to be with Haruhi and forget about me. Be happy with her. Please.
Love, Kaoru.
I wiped my face with the sleeve of my coat and exited the limo. It pains me to know he's gone because of this, I can't be happy with Haruhi. There are no feelings that I have for her other than being friends. Still… I am dating her. Not out of love for her, but out of love for my brother and his final wish.