Losing Yourself

Disclaimer-Sadly, I don't own anything because it all belongs to Joss.

A/N- this is my first story so I haven't gotten the feel for writing so please be kind with the reviews.

Setback- Somewhere in season 2 where, Angel, lost his soul and is set on killing, Buffy.

Chapter 1

"Hello lover, did you think you could hide from me forever."

"Angel, long time no see"

"No hard feelings Buff, but I would prefer to fight and kill you instead of having these little conversations"

"Dido"

Buffy and Angel began fighting and it was looking like Buffy was having an advantage tonight but Angel kept his pride up and kept throwing puns at her so he could get the upper advantage. "God, Buff, you wanna know the worst part of being with you was…pretending that I actually cared for you, pretending that I loved you"

Buffy cringed at his words and he took this as his advantage and he kicked her HARD in the stomach. She doubled over in pain and he grabbed her head and smashed into a near by mausoleum. She surprisingly didn't get knocked unconscious but she was stunned for a few minutes.

Then Xander, Willow, Giles, and Cordelia ran out loaded with stakes, crosses, and holy water so Angel decided that it was better that he took off cause he knew not to underestimate Buffy's friends. At that point Buffy passed out and the gang ran over to Buffy. Giles saw that Buffy was unconscious so he picked Buffy up and the gang took Buffy back to the library.

They arrived and Giles laid her down on top of the research desk and Willow got water and a cloth while Giles called Buffy's mom but no one seemed to answer so he joined Xander and Cordelia at Buffy's side. Willow came back with the water and she told everyone to back up so she wasn't crowded if she woke up. Then Willow got the cloth wet and she started cleaning off all of Buffy's wounds. When she finished everyone decided to sit and wait till she woke up.

2 hours pass

She woke up to total blackness then all of a sudden a flush of light washed over her. All her friends surrounded her and she was greeted with hugs and tears.

"Buffy, oh my god we thought we lost you,"

"Are you ok Buff," well that was a dumb question I mean of course she is not ok…

"Um… yeah I'm fine but I think I just wanna go home and spend time with my mom… um I am going to go call her and let her know I am coming…"

"Certainly, you should spend time with her since you never usually get to"

Buffy went over to the phone and dialed her house and on the last ring someone picked up… weird thing was that it wasn't her mom.

"Hey, Buff, to bad you aren't always there to protect the ones you love…"

Then he hung up and Buffy walked out of the room looking like she just seen a ghost.

"Buffy what is the matter,"

Only one word came out of her mouth "Angel"

Then she took off running to her home with Giles, Willow, Xander, and Cordelia running after her. They were right down the street from Buffy's house and they saw her run in the house and disappear. Then a few minutes later they heard Buffy let out a shrill that pierced the night.

To Buffy a few minutes before

She was running throughout her house, the place seemed different like everything had a feeling of death and not the homey feeling it usually brought. She ran through the kitchen, living room, and dinning room. Then she decided to check up stairs for her dearest mother. She ran straight up to her mom's room and she slammed the door open to reveal her mother tied to a chair…dead… with cuts and traces of blood covering her body, and also her eye and jaw was missing out of their sockets. Buffy let out a shrill that broke the silence that had consumed her.

Within a few minutes her friends ran in and saw exactly what caused Buffy to scream. Giles went to Buffy and tried to comfort her while Xander tried to comfort the girls. Buffy passed out so the gang decided to bring her to Giles's house so she could get away from her mother's death and her home.

Shortly after they arrived at Giles's house and Giles put her down on his couch and went over to join the others. It was silent for a while until Giles broke the silence. "Maybe it would do Buffy good if she got to get away from the hellmouth for a while." "Perhaps it would good if she maybe went to her father's. It may help her if she got away. The only thing is Hank cannot know that Joyce is dead cause then he could take her away."

"I think that would be a great idea," Both Xander and Willow replied.

After a few hours of waiting Buffy finally woke up and called her father to come and get her after her friends had a while of convincing. Buffy had just hung up with her father and came out to the gang. "My dad said he should be here in the morning some time and he will pick me up here,"

"That's good news Buffy," Giles went over to the others and they all talked about what they were going to do about patrolling. "Well, it's getting late and my parents will be getting worried," Willow replied. "Hey, Willow I'll walk you home…you too Cordy," Xander and the rest of the gang except for Buffy and Giles went home after saying good-bye to Buffy.

"I will make you a bed on the couch so you can sleep and get you strength up," Giles made a bed and after Buffy fell asleep on the couch and Giles went up to his bedroom and went to bed waiting the day coming up.

A/N- For those who like Joyce I am sorry for killing her but it was the only brutal thing I could come up with.

As I said before this is my first fiction so please don't be hurt full on reviews.

I will update within the next day or two.