Disclaimer: I don't own SGA, SG1 or anything involved with it. I do however own Farin, Darrow and her team mates. Don't steal them please.
The halls were dark as I made my way through the SGC. It was well past midnight and only the emergency lights were on. A few airmen were standing at their posts, but they were few and far between. Out of habit I kept myself very aware of my surroundings. I tucked a loose strand of my dark hair behind my ear. It had grown longer over the past year. It no longer looked the typical Air Force bob. It was now long enough to braid. I finally made it to my room on base and unlocked the door. I opened it quietly and walked in. I hadn't really moved in last year. I'd just put the boxes of my stuff there to keep it out of the halls. I lay down on my bed staring at the ceiling. I thought back to how excited I was to join the Stargate program just four years before.
"Col. Darrow this is your team" Gen. Jack O'Neill said pointing out the only other people in his office. "This is Dr. Amy Gerrard, Maj. Ian Adams, and Cpt.. Aaron Felix." He pointed first at the only girl. She was about 35 and had short blonde hair. Geeky was the politest way to describe her and she looked nervous as Jack introduced her. Adams was a typical marine. He was buff. His red hair cut close and the freckles on his nose almost gone in the tan he'd gotten over the summer. I'd met many like him before. He would question authority to test the limits of what he could and couldn't do. Cpt. Felix on the other hand with his classic good looks and wavy brown hair was a yes man. He would balance out Adams and prove useful. At least I hoped he would.
It had been four years almost to the day since I'd first met my team. We became fast friends immediately and when we weren't off world saving the galaxy as SG7 we were at the house my parents had left me which was close to Cheyenne Mountain. Amy and Felix had gotten closer than the rest of us and after a year they got married.
I must have fallen asleep reminiscing because the next thing I knew there was a loud thud on my door as some one knocked. Groaning I got out of bed and wandered over to the door. I opened it to reveal none other than Jack O'Neill.
"What do you want Jack?" I asked putting my hand on my hip.
"Hello to you too" he said giving a small grin. "I've just been told by Dr. Lam that you haven't been showing up to your sessions and the airman on duty last night told me you were wandering around until at least 1 in the morning." I shrugged.
"I couldn't sleep. So I went for a walk." Jack shook his head the smile disappearing from his face.
"Around a high security Air Force Base? The Airman also said you were up by the gate room." I gave him a glare. When I didn't say anything Jack continued. "Caity we found their bodies. There's nothing left on that planet to go back to." I couldn't help myself anymore my eyes welled up with tears.
"You have no idea what I went through!" I yelled at Jack. I started looking around to find something to throw at him. Jack's face went white and he grabbed my arm.
"I lost my son!" He said his cool grey eyes never leaving my own wet green ones "I know!" We stood there staring at each other for what felt like an eternity. I broke down first. Tears streamed down my face as Jack pulled me in to a hug. "I'm sorry" he said. I sniffled and I'm pretty sure I got nose junk on his uniform.
"Jack I want to go somewhere. I want to be off world again. I'm being suffocated here." I waved around at my quarters. The only sign of that this room was mine was a picture of my team sitting on the bedside table. Jack sighed.
"I'll see what I can do, but I doubt anybody is going to let you do anything until Dr. Lam gives you a clean bill of mental health. Going off world requires the ability to live alone with out having the air force watching you for suicide attempts." Jack said giving me a look which said I was responsible for the place I'd ended up.
"Right, I'll go see Dr. Lam" I conceded.
"and stop wandering around at night" Jack added
"and stop wandering around at night" I echoed. "Now leave 'cause I have to take a shower." I started pushing him towards the door. Jack laughed and gave me a hug.
"Take care Caity" he said "I'll be back tomorrow" I shut the door behind him. My thoughts drifted as I went through my daily routine.
It had been two years since we had formed SG7. Amy and Felix were now married. Adams still gave me crap about being in charge but most of it was in good fun. We had gone to a new planet in hopes of making contact with the locals before the Ori showed up. Turns out we were too late. The Ori had placed bounties on our heads. The locals lured us into the tavern pretending like they hadn't even seen the Ori before. Before we knew it we were tied up in front of the stargate waiting for the Prior to show up. Amy was beside herself with tears. Normally she was cool as a cucumber in situations like this but getting married had played with her hormones or something. Felix was trying to console her. Adams was no doubt figuring out a way to dial Earth and escape. I was focused more on getting untied. I'd almost freed myself when the gate activated and the Prior walked through. I quickened my efforts at getting untied and succeeded. Adams saw me and gave me a wink. After that I don't remember a whole lot. Dr. Lam said it was Post Traumatic Stress that was suppressing the memories. Some how I made it to the DHD and dialed Earth, but I was the only one who made it through the gate. O'Neill and his team went through the gate while I was recovering in the infirmary and found the bodies of Amy, Felix and Adams. That was the day the Air Force made me move all my things to Cheyenne mountain. Although looking back that was probably more to do with the fact I tried to OD on the pain killers the doctors had given me. I'd been taken off of active duty and was told to visit Dr. Lam every day to discuss my emotions and problems I was experiencing dealing with the death of people who were basically my family. I went to three funeral services through out the next week. Met too many family members and friends and then found myself growing weary of the Air Force. I tried moving off base but the Brass wouldn't allow it.