Author note: I don't own fairy tail, Hiro Mashima does. Also this is my first fanfic and I've never really tried to write before so don't judge me too much! Also this is in Lucy's POV and when something is in parenthesis is her thoughts. Okay try to enjoy :D
Why? Why couldn't I just let you go? Why couldn't I just let you rest in peace? Things would never have turned out so horrible if I hadn't been so selfish… I know that every day that I suffer I deserve it for what I did to you. These words repeat through my head every day. Every time I look into your eyes and see the hate, the agony, the betrayal.
"You!" Laxus screams. I cower knowing what comes next, weakly I respond. "Yes master?" He walks up to me and roughly grabs my face. "You disgust me, every time I look at your face I want to break you." He replies hatefully. Without any warning he slams me up against the wall and start kissing me. The tears start to stream down my face, because I know this affection won't last long. And then if my tears were some sort of queue, he starts to choke me. I don't beg him to stop, I know I deserve all the punishment he gives me. His strength is so overwhelming it doesn't take long before everything fades to black.
4 years in the past
The grand magic games have recently ended, and Cana, Freed, and I decide to get a few drinks together. Of course a few turned into A LOT fast. We all ended up going to Cana's house to use up some of her alcohol stash. "So Lucy." Cana said giggling. "Hmm?" I replied. "You and Laxus have been hanging out a lot recently." She said wiggling her eyebrow at me. "I suppose we have, It turns out we have a lot in common. It's weird, I wish we would have started talking sooner." I said looking up at the sky smiling. (It's refreshing to get away from team Natsu every once in a while they're so rowdy. I mean don't get me wrong I love them to death, but sometimes I like not getting hit in the face by a chair every time Natsu and Gray bicker.) "You know Lucy, I haven't seen Laxus get along with someone so well in a while. Are you sure there's no secret dating going on?" Freed states watching my face like a hawk. I blush slightly. "No, no, no. We are just friends, I hadn't even thought of us being anything until you embarrassed me Freed!" I say slightly flustered. Cana laughs, "Oh Lucy, you're so funny when it comes to dating topics." I huff at her, then we proceed to drink.
(Two hours later) "Luuuuuuuucy can you do me a huge favor?" Cana slurs. I sigh, "Sure what?" "Well, to be completely honest I wanna fuck Freed. And you're kind of here. Do you mind going home?" I'm slightly upset, but I know it's the booze talking and not Cana. "It's all good, I'll go." I say forcing a smile. "Great!" Cana says giving me a hug. "Hey Freed, I'm heading out have a fun night!" I say with a wink.
I get outside and know I'm far too drunk to make it all the way home. (Damn it Cana you owe me! What should I do?) I pounder for a moment, well Laxus's house isn't far from here. Its way closer than my house is. "Yup. It's decided then!" I state and start walking towards Laxus's house.
I arrive at his doorstep, shit it must be like 3 in the morning. I hope he doesn't get too pissed off. I knock on the door, I hear him grumble "what the hell." (Yup he's mad, shit.) I haven't been on his bad side yet, and I really don't want to start now. He opens the door looking clearly annoyed, but he saw my face and his irritation melted away. "Lucy what are you doing here? It's 3 in the morning, are you okay? Did something happen" He said sounding genuinely concerned. "No, I'm sorry Laxus. I actually drank way too much with Cana and Freed. Cana gave me the boot so they could have "fun", and I didn't feel like I could make it home safely…So I came here. Again I'm sorry." He sighed, "No Lucy its fine, I rather you come here then end up in some ditch. Come in." He waved me to come in. "thank you so much, I really appreciate it Laxus!" I say, following up by giving him a big hug. He pats my head, "it's really not a big deal Lucy." I smile up at him and he smiles back down at me. "Well, I'll sleep on the couch you can sleep on my bed." Laxus says. "Oh no, I can sleep on the couch. I'm the one who randomly showed up at your house." I say completely against the idea. He chuckles lightly, "Lucy, you have no faith in me being any sort of gentlemen do you?" "Nope!" I tease. I start poking his sides, I feel him tense up. I giggle and try to make a run for it. "You really think you can tickle a dragon slayer and get away with it?" I have no chance at all, he catches me in no time and starts his tickle assault. "Laxus!" I squeal while laughing hysterically. "I'm soooorry!" I laugh out. He laughs and doesn't stop, I try to escape but I trip over my own foot and it ends with us falling over. Laxus lands on top of me and we're both still laughing. Slowly he lifts himself from me when our eyes meet. BAM! Out of nowhere there is the spark I feel between us, we stared into each other's eyes searching to see if this new feeling was mutual. "Laxus, I…" Then I was cut off by his lips crushing into mine, his lips felt so warm and perfect. I felt myself getting lost in passion of the kiss, I wanted so much more. I gripped his neck and pulled myself against him, I felt a smirks form on his lips. He lifted me off the ground and laid me onto his bed, I could hardly catch my breath before him he was kissing me again. "Mmm" I moaned into the kiss. His hand slowly slid from stomach to my breast, grasping it gently massaging out another moan from me. I pull away for air, then he starts kissing and sucking my neck .This was all too much for me, I felt so desperate for more I can hardly contain myself.
All too suddenly he just stops, gets off of me and sits facing away from me. "Laxus?" I ask confused and feeling hurt. "I won't take advantage of you while you're drunk Lucy. I'm not just going to throw this friendship away for a one night stand." He says without even giving me a glace. "Oh…I" I start to shake. (What is this feeling? I feel like I'm breaking) Tears begin to fall down my cheeks, "What's wrong with me?" I say not realizing I said it out loud. Laxus turns to see me cry, "Lucy there isn't anything wrong with you." Laxus pulls me into his arms, then gently rubs my back trying to comfort me. "Yes there is" I say breaking into full out sobs into his chest. "No there isn't, I just… I wouldn't want this to be a just tonight thing. If this started between us Lucy I'd want to make you mine, and I'm not willing to risk you only wanting this because you're drunk." I pull away from his chest to look at his face, I've never seen him look this way before. He looks so conflicted. I bring one hand to his face, placing it on his cheek. "Thank you, thank you for caring about me." I say smiling. "How about this then: How about we cuddle and go to sleep as friends and talk about this in the morning?" He looks at me and sighs. "We can do that." I smile again, we lay down and I snuggle into his chest. (I can't wait until the morning)