When I Look At You I See My Everything

READ THIS BEFORE READING THE STORY! Author's Note: My few alterations to the Glee storyline are very few, but important. Finn and Rachel never got together in Journey to Regionals and Quinn agreed to give Beth to Ms. Corcoran with the option of making contact with her child. Quinn, Rachel, Puck, Finn, Santana and Brittany are all seniors in this story. Rachel did sleep with Jesse, but regretted it immediately after. Rachel didn't send Sunshine to the crack house, but Vocal Adrenaline still made her Sunshine a better offer. Rachel is just vegetarian in this story. Rachel's dad's names are Jonathan and Isaac. Quinn sister Finnie is twenty-six at the beginning of the story.

Pairings: Quinn/Rachel, Brittany/Santana, Finn/OC, Artie/Tina, Matt/Mercedes and Kurt/OC. Implied Pairings Puck/Quinn, Finn/Rachel, Sam/Quinn, Jesse/Rachel, Finn/Quinn, and Mike/Tina. One-sided Pairings Finn/Rachel, Sam/Quinn, Puck by himself (lol) and Kurt/Finn.

Prologue

It all started with a song. Well a song that they basically created by mashing to catchy love songs together. Quinn Fabray had no idea that this moment would bring upon a new beginning and ultimately show her the face of her true love. That was simply the only way she could describe the start of her first and last relationship. It happened on a day like any other.

It all started with a song or rather a mash-up of two very good love songs. Rachel Berry was a person who rarely liked surprises and to say she liked this one it would be a lie. In time though she would remember this instance as the most crucial thing that would change her very existence, this moment helped to show her who would forever hold her heart. And what life would have in store for years of happiness.

May 6th, 2011

A year ago today, Quinn had given up the single most important thing to her. Her daughter. Looking back on it now Quinn knew she had made the right decision for everyone involved. She was amazed at how much had changed in the 365 years since that faithful day that was regionals and the birth of an infant that she will remember for always. Quinn sat on the park bench watching all the kids run and play on the play structures. She knew this wasn't going to be easy, but when she had talked to Shelby she had felt so sure. She had changed since that day. Okay if she was being honest with herself she had started to change after Rachel let out that Puck was the father of her baby instead of Finn. She had started to make the transition into a better, a person that someone could respect. Someone who made the right choices and someone who deserved their mother's love, and most someone who realized that it was okay to love no matter who it is. She had a lot of people to thank for it Kurt, Finn, Puck, Mercedes, and mostly Rachel. She probably would have shot herself a year ago if she could her herself even think that, but the truth was besides her changing everything around her had changed too. Though she could only think of one thing that was the same though, she wasn't living with her mother. She had let her dad come back into their lives and after he found out her other big secret she had been kicked out again.

Watching the people milling around she tried to take deep breaths this was opening so many old wounds that she had hoped to bury. She knew they weren't wounds that could be erased. But they had started to heal under the guidance of a doe eyed girl with a love for argyle, Barbra Streisand, musicals, and cheesy romantic movies. If anyone had told her when she was a sophomore, that she would become pregnant with Noah Puckerman's baby and the next year she would be in love with someone that she had least expected and the truth was that she guessed that was the beauty of it. A love that had blossomed against everything that had been said and done in the past, a love that with stood the stares and whispers of their classmates around them.

Out of the corner of her eye she sees Shelby Corcoran pushing a stroller towards her. Taking a deep breath, Quinn really wishes that someone was her with her, but she understands why Rachel is hesitant to see her biological mother after the events of last year. Though Quinn knows it's also because of the massive fight that they had on Tuesday and she was amazed at how it split the Glee club right down the middle. She knew the brunette hadn't quite forgiven her yet because the truth was she had a lot to be sorry about. Even though the small diva had said some hurtful things it didn't break her heart nearly the same way seeing the pain written across the other girl's face. She tried to view Shelby as the nice woman who she and Puck had decided would become the mother of their child. Learning of things that conspired over the last few months of the school year she didn't respect the former Vocal Adrenaline as much anymore. Taking another deep breath she lets her eye travel towards the one year old. As she takes a few moments to observe the little girl with brown locks and bright blue eyes she can barely hold back the tears, but she has come to accept the fact that Beth has a better life then she would have had with Puck and her. As they come closer Quinn decides that this needs to be a happy moment because she is very excited that Shelby was okay with her seeing Beth after the long senior year she has gone through.

There is still a month left till graduation and then two and a half months till she's off to NYU for Fashion Design. She was really excited to meet new people and experience things outside of Lima, Ohio. There were only a few things that she would truly miss.

Turning to greet Shelby, Quinn feels a twinge of the irritation she feels for her biological child's mother, but she tries to let it go and stands "Hi, I hope that the park is okay." Quinn is trying to find the right words because she is trying to keep Shelby's opinion of her high so she wouldn't rethink the open adoption agreement that she had signed exactly a year ago. Quinn was surprised that it had taken her this long to get up the courage to possibly see her daughter. Quinn realizes she probably would have before, but she had thrown herself deep into her school work, being HBIC of the Cheerios, the glee club and being with Rachel.

"The park is fine. No, actually it's great" as Shelby smiles brightly at her, Quinn can't help, but stare in amazement at how much the older woman looked like her girlfriend. If Rachel looked like that in twenty years Quinn would be extremely happy if they were still together. Maybe by then Ohio would legalize domestic partnership or gay-marriage. Quinn couldn't help, but chuckle at this revelation and realize that she does love Rachel enough for that kind of commitment.

Taking her mind off that realization, she hears Shelby say "You know this is a lot nicer than the ones in Columbus. Quinn I'm glad that you decided to meet with me and see Beth, but I'm just wondering if you are okay, I know this is hard for you, are sure you don't need some support? I know it's not my place, but I know what you did was hard and I don't want to cause you anymore pain."

After a long pause a new voice joins the conversation "She has someone" Quinn's eyes slow look up and she releases a sigh of relief that she isn't just hearing things. Just to make sure she gazes for a moment at Shelby and the shock on her face makes her believe that her companion is really there. Watching the diva through misty eyes Quinn feels at peace when Rachel bends down and greats Beth "Hi, there sweetheart. You a very pretty girl, you look just like your mommy over there in the yellow, yeah?" Rachel tickles Beth and Quinn can see out of the corner of her eye how pleased Shelby is that Rachel's here. Quinn felt her love for Rachel swell up in her heart at seeing her girlfriend playing with the daughter that she decided to give up.

"Rachel, I'm really happy to see you. I know I should have stayed in touch after Regionals, but I..." Shelby stumbled over her words trying to articulate that she actually cared for her oldest daughter. The truth was that Quinn wasn't buying it if Shelby Corcoran cared at all she would have contacted Rachel after last year's debacle.

"Shelby, I'm just here to support Quinn, I know how hard this is for her. It doesn't change how I feel or erase your actions, if you would like to discuss that with me it can be at a later date" if she didn't know Rachel so well she would say she was angry, but Quinn knew better she was just slightly annoyed. Quinn knew that they would have to talk, it wasn't that she wasn't she was dreading more that she had put it off talking about their fight. She had hurt her girl and it had been eating at her for the last week and a half. She knew that it had basically split the Glee club in half.

Catching the shorter diva in the eye she mouthed her words of affection "I love you."

Her girlfriend smile sparkles across her face as she mouths a reply back "I love you, too."

It's then that Quinn realizes that everything with them is going to be okay no matter how bad they fight, they have overcome so much already that its going to take a lot more than this to break them. They have faced a lot of things head on and this is going to have to be one of them.

An hour later after having a nice visit with Shelby and Beth the two girls left hand in hand. Taking the brunettes hand she places the softest of kiss on the skin there. Smiling softly at her love she sees the smile also written across the brown haired girl's fac. And Quinn felt at peace and had come to realize that no matter how much she may regret the decision to give her daughter up was for the best. She just wishes that it wouldn't have helped cause Rachel so much pain.

As soon as there out of sight and hearing distance leans over and wraps her arm around the smaller girls waist while saying "I missed you, baby."

"I missed you, too, Quinn even though we live under the same roof and share the same room it hasn't been the same. We've just been so…" interrupting her by placing a finger to Rachel's lips Quinn.

"Shush" turning the diva to face her she gathers her the other girl in her arms and swiftly places a soft kiss on her lips.