A new story for you... it is a series of One-Shots about scenes from the books that were not explicitly explained or missed... Carlisle's and Esme's POV... This first chap is about the time after the Volturi left in BD... the next maybe about the wedding of Edward and Bella... I'm working on it... if you have any suggestions for things you want to read, let me know...

This story is rated M, but every chapter will get an own rating, because the rating is gonna change from chap to chap...

Disclaimer: Of course I onw nothing, Stephenie Meyer does!

Well, enough from me... Have fun!!!!

- Missing Moments -

Need - M

A little One-Shot about the time after the battle in Breaking Dawn. Esme's and Carlisle's feelings after coming so close to losing everything – especially each other.

- Aro bowed his head, the picture of remorse, and drifted backward for a moment before he turned around. - BD p. 740

It was over. The Volturi were gone. They were save. Esme could hardly believe it. She looked at Carlisle who stood in front of her. He was as still as a statue, the tension still clearly visible in his shoulders. Slowly she stepped forward and let her hand run over his tensed back. She could feel him relax under her touch. Then suddenly Carlisle turned around and pulled Esme in a tight embrace. She buried her head in his chest and held on to Carlisle for dear life. Around them the cheers erupted. Esme shook in silent sobs. Carlisle was holding her close, burying his head in her caramel hair and taking deep breaths of her sweet scent. His hands were stroking up and down her back – calming them both. After a while they separated again. Esme turned to Alice and Jasper who stood close by, cheering with the others. She hugged them tightly, not letting go of them. Carlisle thanked the two newcomers, Nahuel and Huilen. A huge weight had been lifted from his shoulders. They were all save. Nothing would happen to Edward, Bella, Nessie… or Esme. A shudder ran through him. If they had hurt Esme Carlisle knew he would jumped right into a roaring fire. Anything to keep him from feeling the agony he knew would have come with Esme being hurt… or worse. She was his other half. His heart. Everything to him…

After a while everyone went back to the house to celebrate. Even the wolves. Some of their visitors left almost immediately, like Stefan and Vladimir but most of the others stayed. They all gathered in the living room and sat down to talk about what had happened. After a while Esme stood up and went outside on the porch. Suddenly two arms snaked around her waist and pulled her against a familiar body. "I was so afraid…" Esme whispered. "I thought I'd lose you…" a sob escaped her lips. Carlisle pulled her even closer. "I know, I was also afraid…" Carlisle whispered in her hair. His voice sounded hoarse. Esme turned in Carlisle's arms and embraced him tight. "I could not stand to lose you… no one of this family… but especially not you… I could not survive this…" Esme sobbed. Carlisle stroked up and down her back while he himself shook in silent sobs. "You will not lose me… ever." Carlisle promised. Esme nodded against his chest. She felt Carlisle's finger gently tilting her head up. His lips brushed along her jaw line before he found her lips. The kiss wasn't slow, it was pure passion and need. Intense and sensual. Esme moaned lowly and Carlisle's tongue slipped into her mouth. Esme's hand threaded themselves through his hair to pull him closer while his hands were feverishly running up and down her body – holding her, caressing her…

Bella, Zafrina and Eleazar stood up and made their way to the back door. They wanted to talk outside because it was much quieter. Suddenly Edward shot up from his seat. Just as Eleazar reached the glass door he stopped them. "Edward what…" Bella asked but could not finish her sentence. She followed the gazes of Zafrina and Eleazar – and froze. On the left side of the porch, not visible from the living room were Carlisle and Esme. Esme's legs were hooked around Carlisle's waist while she sat on the railing with her back pressed against a wooden pillar. One of her hands was fisted in his hair, the other somewhere under his shirt. Carlisle's hands ran over Esme's body, over and under her clothes. They were both panting heavily and completely unaware of anything than the other one.

"Exactly." Edward said grumpy as everyone's eyes grew wide as saucers. "We should leave them alone…" Eleazar murmured and led the others away. Only Edward refused to follow the lead of Eleazar. "What? And leave them there? Making out in a way that would even put Rosalie and Emmett to shame?" He hissed. "Edward." Eleazar said calmly but in a warning tone. "They need this, they need each other now… let them be…" Reluctantly Edward followed the others back into the living room though he looked still displeased.

Esme moaned and pulled Carlisle towards her body, she leant back slightly and suddenly – Crack! The railing gave out under her and Carlisle. They fell into some of the bushes below which brought them back to reality. "Esme…" Carlisle whispered huskily. He slowly released her from the cage his arms had instinctively formed around her body as they fell and helped her up. Though they didn't need the oxygen they were out of breath. "I need you…" Esme whispered lowly and stepped towards Carlisle. He put her arms around her and kissed her. "Let's go somewhere… private." Carlisle begged against her lips. Esme did not respond but she kisses Carlisle quickly on the lips and pulled him away from the house.

They started to run towards the forest. Carlisle held Esme's hand in his and smiled lovingly at her.

After a few miles Carlisle spotted something like an old shelter or a barn in the distance. He looked at Esme who had also seen it. She nodded. They made their way their way to the little hut. Carlisle tried the door but it was locked. He grabbed the handle a little harder, pushed and the lock broke. With a huge grin Carlisle held the door open for Esme and she went inside. The shelter had obviously not been used for quite a while. Cobwebs were everywhere, the little window was almost black with dirt. In the far corner lay some hay. Esme took Carlisle's hand and dragged him into the hay. Carlisle pulled her into his lap and started to kiss Esme passionately. She responded eagerly, pressed herself close to Carlisle and tried to unbutton his shirt with shaking hands. After the first three or four buttons Esme got impatient and pulled the shirt simply over Carlisle's head. For a moment Esme stared at his naked chest before she captured his lips again in a searing kiss. Her hands ran over his body, leaving a tingling sensation on Carlisle's skin.

Carlisle made quick work of Esme's blouse. He flipped the buttons open and threw the disturbing part of clothing away. His hands roamed over Esme's body, worshipping every little spot on her skin. His lips trailed kisses down her throat, hesitating at the scar there. Carlisle kissed it and then he sucked it carefully. Esme moaned and her hips grinded down against Carlisle's hips. The both groaned and moved against each other. Carlisle reached behind Esme's back and unhooked her bra. Esme felt his shallow breath against her skin before Carlisle's lips touched her breasts. She shuddered in pleasure. Carlisle's hands and lips worked simultaneously to caress her body.

Her hands reached down ton unfasten Carlisle's belt buckle. In the meanwhile he did the same to her jeans. Carlisle put his hands on Esme's waist, lifted her off of him and sat her down in the hay. He pulled her jeans and panties down her legs and kissed the newly exposed skin. Esme moaned and squirmed. Carlisle pulled her jeans fully off of her and then undressed himself until he was naked. Carlisle kneeled before Esme and started to kiss his way up her legs. Esme shook her head. "No… Carlisle… I want to feel you…" she pulled him towards her and kissed him. Carlisle let his fingers gently ran over Esme's whole body. He worshipped every inch of her, like he needed to memorize every little spot of her body again. Like he wanted to make sure there was not a scratch on her. It was endearing and it showed Esme how much Carlisle loved her.

Carlisle kissed Esme lovingly and at the same time his tongue swept in her mouth he entered her. Esme moaned but was silenced by Carlisle's lips on hers. They started to move in a well-known dance. Slow and loving. Esme held Carlisle as close as possible. She has come too close to losing him. Her hands ran over his back, sending shivers down his spine. She buried her head in his shoulder and kissed the scar on his neck. The tightening in her stomach increased more with every thrust of him. "Carlisle…" she moaned lowly.

Carlisle knew that Esme was close, just as he was. He increased his pace and moved from her lips to her neck. Carlisle kissed the scar he had left there so many years ago.

Esme moved her hips against Carlisle and met each of his thrust with one of her own. Their breaths were fast and heavy. Esme felt Carlisle's breath against her skin. Then he put his lips back to her throat and sucked on the scar. This drove them both over the edge. Esme threw her head back in ecstasy and moaned while Carlisle muffled his sounds by frantically sucking on her neck.

After they had come down from their height Carlisle rolled onto his back, taking Esme to rest against his chest. They were still connected in as many ways as possible. Esme closed her eyes and kissed Carlisle's chest. He stroked a calming pattern over her bare back and shoulders. They both were more relaxed now. The closeness just experienced was something they had needed.

"As much, as I hate to say it, but we should get back home…" Carlisle whispered after a while. Esme nodded. "I know. We should go…" she said. Carlisle sighed. "Let's wait another ten minutes or so…" he said slowly and kissed Esme on the top of her head. Esme snuggled closer to him, sighing happily.

Edward stood up as he heard a car in the driveway. Charlie. What did he want here? "Bella?" She had also stood up and went slowly to the front door. Alice looked at them. Suddenly Edward looked away from her as if he was embarrassed. Bella looked from one to the other. "What is it?" she asked confused. Edward sighed. "Charlie is coming…" she said. "He wants to know if everything is okay…" Bella looked at them. "Will he be alright? I mean…" she trailed off. Alice nodded. "Yes… that's not it… though…" Before Alice could explain why she and Edward acted so strangely the bell rang. Bella went to open the door.

"Hey Bells." Charlie said. "Edward, Alice." He nodded towards them. "Hey Charlie!" Alice chimed. "What are you doing here, dad?" Bella asked. "Well, I just wanted to look if everyone is alright. Is Nessie okay?" Bella rolled her eyes as he also called her Nessie. Edward smiled. "Yes, it went well. Everyone is good." Charlie nodded. "Eh, good, very good…" he said. "Well, I will go then, I think. I have work to do… obviously someone broke into a barn a few miles away from here… probably kids, I have to get there before something happens…" "Ah, nothing would happen… come on, stay a little…" Alice said and took hold of Charlie. "No, sorry Alice, I have to go… they could smoke in there… you understand?" Bella looked confused from Edward to Alice and back. What was wrong? Edward sighed heavily and touched the bridge of his nose. "These aren't kids…" Edward mumbled. Charlie stared at him. "What?" "Who broke into the barn… it weren't kids…" Edward explained carefully.

"We need to go…" Esme murmured against Carlisle's lips. He nodded and sighed. "I know, but I don't feel like partying…" "Me neither." Esme said. Carlisle again wrapped his arms around her and closed his eyes for a moment. Then he released Esme and they left the barn. Carlisle smiled sheepishly as he saw the lock. It was broken. Well, he would make sure this got repaired. He looked at Esme and kissed the back of her hand lovingly.

"How do you know it were no kids that broke into the barn?" Charlie questioned Edward. "Eh…" Edward looked away. "Because…" Just in that moment Esme and Carlisle appeared from under the trees. Charlie stared at them. Just then it hit Bella. Why Alice and Edward behaved so strangely. Carlisle had his arm around Esme. They looked perfectly at ease, very different from the last time she had seen them. Carlisle's hair was tousled, even Esme's soft curls were messed up.

Their clothes were wrinkled and on Carlisle's coat was a straw. "Where are you coming from?" Charlie wanted to know, confused. Esme looked shocked and cast her eyes down. "We… eh…" Carlisle stammered. "we… have taken a… walk…" he said. Charlie nodded, not convinced.

"Charlie have been called because someone broke into a barn a few miles away…" Edward said. In that moment Carlisle's face fell. He swallowed hard and stared at Edward. Esme looked to the ground, clearly embarrassed. "He thinks that some kids sneaked into it to smoke…" he said. Carlisle opened his mouth to answer but could not form a sentence.

Charlie had of course noticed the strange behaviour of Carlisle and Esme. He was puzzled. Finally Carlisle spoke. "Eh… you don't have to bother because of the barn, Charlie… Everything I alright… And I will make sure the lock get repaired…" he said quickly, avoiding everyone's gaze. Then he and Esme literally fled into the house.

Charlie stared at them, open-mouthed. "Try not to think about it too closely…" Edward suggested. "But, yes, you are right." Charlie's face was quickly changing colours – from pale to flushing red. Alice only shrugged. "Well, you want to stay now, Charlie?" she asked.

Carlisle and Esme were in their bedroom, hiding from everyone. "This is so embarrassing…" Esme groaned. Carlisle nodded. "I know." He said lowly and lay down on the large bed next to Esme. They looked at each other and then Carlisle gave Esme a quick kiss on the lips. "I an year or two we will laugh about this…" Carlisle chuckled. Esme nudged his arm. "You're starting quite early then." She scolded.

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