Prologue

So this story was posted before but I deleted it 'cause I felt that it was going the wrong direction. After doing some planning I finally know where I'm going with this story. I'm excited to start writing it again and I hope you enjoy.

Disclaimer: I don't own the guys from BTR

…I'm sorry for doing this but I just can't take it anymore. I want you to move on from this and live a happy life.

Love, Carlos

I started crying even harder as a wrote the last letter which was for James, who over the last couple of months ,became like a brother to me. I looked out the window one last time. The sun was shining brightly and the birds were flying freely, happy as could be. I could see the neighbors 3 year old playing outside with his ball having a good time enjoying his life. That was the exact opposite of what I felt at the moment. I looked at the birds one more time knowing that I was about the free. Free from all the pain.

Looking down at the gun in my hands I smiled knowing that this was the thing that was going to set me free. How did I get to this point? I wasn't always like this. I used to love my life and everything in it. Now, now I just feel like a waste of space. There is no point in me being here. I don't want ruin the lives of the great people that have been by my side with my sad existence.

I started feeling dizzy. I guess the pills were starting to have an effect. I looked at all the letters one last time before I pulled the gun to my head ready to pull the trigger.

2 years ago September 20, 2010

I checked my watch for what seemed the hundredth time that night. Where was she?

"Excuse me sir are you sure there's nothing I can get you you've been sitting here for about an hour." a waiter from the restaurant asked.

"Yea can you get me some water?"

"I shall be back with your drink sir."

Today was the one year anniversary of being together with my wonderful girlfriend, Stephanie. I hope nothing bad happened to her. It's not like her to just stand me up on such important day. I took out my phone and dialed her number again. Like the last time the call went straight to voicemail.

"Here's your water sir. Would you like to order some food?"

"No thanks can you just give me the check I'm going to leave."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes." There was no point in me waiting here any longer. It was very clear that Stephanie was going to show up. Once everything was paid for a got up and grabbed the flowers that I had on the table. They were 12 red roses, Stephanie's favorite flower. She would always tell me as we laid in the park watching the stars that she loved it when I gave her roses.

I threw the flowers away in the trash as I exited the restaurant. I can't believe I wasted so much money on nothing. I had to work double shifts just to be able to make reservations at this stupid place full of stuck up rich people. Honestly I didn't see what was so great about it but it was Stephanie's favorite.

The restaurant wasn't very far from my house so I walked. The park wasn't far either. The plan for tonight was to have a romantic dinner and a nice stroll at the park. Maybe even some stargazing.

I reached into my jacket pocket and felt the small box. I took it out to look at the small gold necklace on the inside. It was a heart shaped locket with words I Love You engraved in it. I opened it up and on the inside were two pictures of both of us together.

I took out my phone and tried calling her again. Still nothing. Maybe something happened ,but wouldn't she call me to let me know?

After walking the park a few times I decided to just go home. I will go over to Stephanie's house tomorrow but now I just want to lay down.

I opened the door only to hear my mom screaming at my dad like there was no tomorrow. I thought it was very unusually since they rarely fight and when they do its never this bad. Then I saw a young women run out of my parents room in only her bra and underwear. That explains everything.

"That's right you better run you stupid bitch! Your lucky I didn't see your face!" I heard my mother scream from the room. I was still at the front door when I saw the girl run past me. She looked up and saw the surprised look on her face. My eyes widened and my mouth hung open. I couldn't believe my eyes. Standing right in front of me was non other than Stephanie.

"STEPHANIE! How can you do this to me? I waited hours for you and you were here fucking with my dad!" I yelled with anger in my voice.

"Carlos I'm sorry but it's over between us." she said as she started to run again.

" Damn right we're over!" I screamed at her fading figure.

I can't believe Stephanie and my dad did this to me. Dad knew how much I loved her but he took her away from me.

I saw mom and dad coming down the stairs. Dad had a small suitcase with him.

" Roberto quiero que te vayas de la casa en este instante," (1)my mom was screaming in Spanish meaning she was beyond pissed, and she had every reason to be. "No quiero ver tu cara de nuevo!"(2)

I had silent tears coming out of my eyes. I was just so heartbroken. My dad just smirked at me as he walked out the door. That bastard how could he do this to us. Before he closed the door he turned around and said " I'll be waiting for the divorce paper at my apartment."

Once he was gone my mom broke down. That day my father didn't only hurt me but he broke my mom's heart as well.

1-I want you to get out of the house in this instant

2-I don't want to see your face ever again

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