"I'm not in Love, This is not my heart" I smiled as I looked at the beautiful girl sat next to me on the computer screen, smiling as I sang next to her, looking at her and smiling. I loved those days. Just to have fun with your best friend and not have a care in the world.

All those youtube videos we made together. Each day I have the same routine; Wake up, go to school, go to work, try to look happy for cameras, come home and watch old youtube videos while I cry my eyes out.

One year has gone by and I still do this, reliving the memories and picturing what I'd be doing right now instead of balling my heart out at everything that went wrong.

As my crying dies down, I softly lay on the pillows and drift off to a nightmare filled dream.

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Next Day

Greatt!!! I have three classes with Selena today. Why don't you just kill me now and spare me the agony. First of the horrid lesson is Modern Foreign Languages. Great.

As I enter my classroom I see Selena sat there with Miley, the popular bitch. This comes to no suprise to me as she fits in with all the 'popular' crowd now but it still hurts to think that she threw our 8 years of friendship away just to fit in. I see her laugh at something ridiculous Miley just said and I watch as she pulls out a ciggarette lighter and starts fooling around with it. Then she pulls out her phone, probably to text her stupid curly haired boyfriend Nick. God I hate him, I don't even know why because he seems like a sweet guy.

I take my seat towards the back of the classroom, next to Emily and Taylor (Swift), two of my only real friends.

"Hey Demi!" Emily brightfully exclaims. I smile and return the greeting before turning to face the front.

Oh great all I can see is her and stupid Miley messing about thinking their all clever. Ughh I hate this stupid freakin lesson.

"Bonjour!" Mrs Goldridge exclaims happily in that extra annoying squeeky voice.

Everyone replies with a grim "Bonjour" in return

I lay in my arms as the teacher begins explaining our lesson and something about upcoming tests that we have like every week anyway.

I close my eyes and imagine what MFL used to be like when she wasn't a spoilt bitch. We used to share a desk together and just laugh and make jokes all lesson, not even bothered by the teachers furious scolding, just enjoying each others company. Even when we did do work we would make up words that didn't even exsist and make up a random meaning for them, like de fuff (which was originally off friends) meant 'my god'.

We would just laugh when Mrs Goldridge gave us a wierd look.

I was rudely pulled out off my pleasant thoughts when she walked past and 'accidently' dropped a dictionary on my head, I looked to look at the back of her head tearfully. I hated the fact that my 'best friend' had changed so abruptly and started giving me the cold shoulder.

I looked around to see the concered looks on both Emily and Taylors face. Of course they knew what pain that had just caused me, they knew aboit my feelings towards her and in a way, they also shared the same sort of treatment from Miley as they were once her best friends too.

The bell overhead rang, signalling the end of lesson and start of period 2 which thankfully contains neither Selena or Miley, and I'm greatfull for them times, so that I try and have fun.

Lunch Time

Me, Ashley,Hilary and Jasmine were strolling around the field as per usual looking for a spot to sit down on the grass.

I know what your thinking, why aren't I with Emily and Taylor for lunch, well theres a simple answer and that would be that a while ago me and Emily had an arguement and didn't talk to each other, so Ashley, who was also part of the group said she would go with me for dinner. After a while of just me and Ashley, Hilary and Jasmine asked us if we wanted to go with them, and we accepted which takes us back to the current position.

After a while of sitting on the grass talking, a large group of guys come over to join us, this is also part of the average day.

I remain quiet most of the time unless i'm spoken to. And then theres them unfortunate moments where Selena and Miley will join us, rather like now, and will start to make me feel so small.

Selena sits herself directly oposite me, while Miley takes a seat next to Ashley. I cannot help but let my betraying eyes wander over her face, her perfect beautiful face, not really listening to anything.

Hearing my name brought into a conversation I look up to see Selena, Jasmine and Mitchel talking amongst themselves.

"Why do you call Demi, Selena?" Selena asked Mitchel

"Well, maybe he thinks you two look alike" suggested Jasmine, however caring she is I really wish she hadn't said that because what comes out of Selena's mouth next makes my heart shatter into a million pieces.

"Eugh... I wouldn't dare"

"Where is Demi anyway?" asked Jasmine cautiously throwing a glance towards me. I knew she wanted to interupt whatever else Selena wanted to say.

I try my best not to let the tears fall but soon it seems impossible, I look away and stand up.

"Erm.. I'm ... Just.. gonna go to the...er ... bathroom" I state not meeting anyones eyes. I turn around and walk towards the building, tears cascading down my cheeks.