Author's Note= Okay, another one that isn't originally MXM. Let's pretend I'm Matt again. I know it say "Her" at one point in time, but I'm not gonna change it, just pretend it says "Him". And be nice, this is entirely based on fact, well as much of a fact as my emotions and experiences can be. If you have any questions on what I mean in places, don't hesitate to ask. Just on a funny note, before adding the author's note, this was exactly 400 words... Odd, eh?
My heart,
It bleeds for you,
It really does.
It bleeds, and bleeds,
And kills me inside,
I know that it's love,
But what form is it in?
And why in the world,
Can't I make it real?
And why, my dear,
Can't I tell you the truth?
Why must I bottle it up,
and watch from afar?
Why do I feel the way I do?
Why do I feel we're much too close,
But much too far to be that close?
My heart,
I can't stop it,
No, not again.
Why must it fool me?
Why can't I breathe?
When you say you're unwell?
Why do I compulsively,
Try and fix you?
When even I know,
There's nothing broken.
Why am I like this?
Why is this different?
Why can't I take this,
To the next level?
And why can't I kill this,
And stop it's progression?
My heart,
It chooses,
I swear I do care,
But I'm not sure I want to.
I'm sorry that I'm a liar,
Why do you put up with me?
I don't want to screw it all up.
But how can I,
When you're nowhere near?
So far away,
I want to close that distance.
I want to comfort you,
But I won't take that chance.
I won't risk losing you,
No, not at all,
So I'll stay,
Hope you'll make it too.
My heart,
It says you're different,
Very different.
But I don't want to fall,
Not back into myself,
Although I already know,
I've fallen into someone else.
No, I'm not "Me" anymore,
Those rumors,
They killed her,
Made her freeze to her core.
So, now I am new,
Am I still the one you knew?
Would you care if I loved you?
Would you love me too?
I'm sorry, you must not care,
For anyone who does is far,
And rare.
I'm sorry, my dear,
That you may believe,
That I'm just someone to fear.
Please let me in,
I've let you inside,
I'd let you brake me,
Until I'd die.
I know I am foolish,
I know I am rash,
I know I am broken,
They knew how to smash.
I know that they stole,
A small part of me,
And that small part,
Has turned me to coal.
So I ask my love,
If you find that part,
Just leave it be,
For it is my heart.