Maka Albarn does not have daddy issues. It's bad enough that the girl looks like a Loli but when you throw in the fact that every body thinks shes looking for a daddy soul has to practically beat the old pervs off with a stick.
Thank God most people also think that she is a lesbian with all her 'I hate men' rants. But that isn't true either.
Maka Albarn is brutally honest with everyone but herself. She is too afraid to be weak to ever admit her true fears. So she tells her self a lie she can deal with and moves on.
Maka doesn't hate her dad. That much is clear in the way she is so careful with all the memories she keeps of him in her mind.
Soul was shocked the first time they resonated and he saw the carful little photo album tucked on the shelf in her head. It was easy to notice among the piles of other memories books she had. most were labeled ( even in her soul she's anal about organization) .
It was the same album she had tucked into the top shelf of her bookcase in the living room. He didn't go digging around in her head that time but he had done some snooping later during 'bonding exercises' that Maka had insisted on.
No she didn't hate her father, it was just easter to tell herself that he was the bad guy as long as he stayed. She knew on some level that he loved her too much to leave like her mom did. So it was ok to blame him. He wasn't going anywhere.
But her mom, the woman she had looked up to more than anyone wile she was growing up, didn't love her. Not enough to stay. Kami Albarn was a selfish person, but as long as Maka worshiped her she couldn't lose her. No matter how far her mon traveled (ran away) as long as she was set up on a pedestal in maka's heart, she was close.
She could push away her father and never lose him, just like she could hang onto her mother and never get her back. No Maka never had 'daddy issues ' she is simply afraid someone else is going to leave her.
She pushes people away because if she doesn't get attached then it won't hurt when they're gone. It took her a long time to trust soul, not because he was a man but because he was a weapon. Someone that would only be her partner until he was a death scythe.
It was obvious in the way they coasted through their first 99 souls without so much as an attempt to resonate that they were holding back. But after the black blood when she almost lost him , when she realised she was already way to attached. Her whole personality flipped.
She hung onto him much in the way she does her mother. Afraid if she blinks just once he'll leave her. It took soul way too long to realise this. It took many months of confusion about his partners odd behavior for him to realise what was wrong.
It all started with the partner request notes that were shoved in his locker. It was the look in her eyes when they fluttered to the ground, it was the overly sweetness in wich she started speaking to him and agreeing with whatever he wanted.
When he called her out on it she flipped personality again. It was like in the beginning. She blocked him out of her mind. Pulled away so hopefully, when he did leave her for one of the beautiful, curvey Meister's that left the notes in his locker, it wouldn't hurt as much.
He could feel their link slipping. He knew he was losing her and didn't know why. They fought, him begging and pleading to now why she pulled away. Why she shut herself up, why she never touched him, never looked at him anymore. He screamed for an answer. But she's just blink back the tears and insist he was wrong.
She was fine, they were fine. But they were not. Then out of desperation he had done something he would never have done to her otherwise. He held her against the wall and forced a soul connection. Forced himself into her mind.
And when she fought back , he only delved deeper the little demon offering assistance in holding her back. He dug until he was in front of a door. One that had been locked and bricked over. Her mind screamed at him to stop, but he didn't.
He pushed his way into her fears and gasped. Her deepest thoughts swirled around him. All her fears and the truths behind the lies she fed herself. He found out what she had thought about him and almost cried at how stupid she was. He was halph way back out the door when he noticed a thought tucked into the corner of the little vault she had built.
It was brighter than the others but laced with so much pain and fear it looked like a flame drowning in mud. He crept over and reached out to it, only for the fear to rip it away from him. He couldn't tell what it was but it was much to bright to be locked up with the rest of her turmoil so he chased it. He grabbed onto it and was sucked into the past.
The scene before him was familiar. A cold church floor covered in his blood. But this time he was seeing things through maka's eyes. Feeling what she had felt. The emotions were similar to that of his when he realised she wasn't going to block the next swing of the demon sword. Desperation, fear, regret. But then her thoughts kicked in.
Stein was fighting crona outside and she was staring down at his face. He was nestled into her lap. Her hands running through his hair as she apologized over and over for not being strong enough for him.
Her mind flew through thoughts and blames so fast he could hardly fallow her train of thought. It was so similar to her mind when she read that he would have smiled if her thoughts went so depressed.
It hit her quickly that she couldn't live without him. That if he died she wouldn't be far after. Because... because she loved him.
Soul was so shocked he lost his grip on the forced resonance and was quickly ripped out of maka's soul. He woke back to the real world to find her limp against him. He stumbled to the ground and she slid down in front of him.
"maka" he breathed. She flinched curling in on herself. He probed her soul gently trying to get a sense of how much she hated him now. But there was no hate, no resentment towards him. Just towards herself and an overwhelming amount of fear.
Soul grabbed her and pulled her ruffly against his chest. She gasped in surprise and tried to pull away but he wouldn't let her. She struggled. he was done with her resistance so he spoke to her from where she hid under his chin.
"your such an idiot Maka. I'm not going anywhere." he leaned down so his lips brushed her ear when he spoke. "i love you too." those words brought on a new wave of fear but one that was quickly overwhelmed by joy and relief.
She didnt have to worship him or push him away. He wasn't going anywhere.
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Ok so this was my first fanfic but I want real feedback. No sugar coating. Tell me the truth. If this one goes well then i might make this into a set of drabbles but for now here it is. Thank you for reading and please review - gray