When Debra left .

Deborah POV

"I have to get lily" I say to august," I cant just leave her there. Its not fair on her." ok she says but be careful, and I will be here.

She gives my arm a squeeze, so I set of in my car. Worrying the whole way. "I am falling apart I am such a terrible mother, no I have to be strong" I say to myself. I park the car close to the house so I can have a good escape, If I see .

I open the door, it brings back lots of memories, I walk in cautiously and quietly.

I walk into my room, and pack up some of my clothes I take out one of my favourite dresses and realise that lily is in the cupboard. I wanted to grab her and put her in my car and drive off with or without clothes it really didn't matter, but from behind I felt a great blow on my back.

, had grabbed his arms on mine and yanked on me, where have you been?! He yelled

"Just let me go", I cried "your not leaving me again!" He screamed I reached for the gun in the cupboard but he pushed my hand away and it slipped on the floor.

I tried grabbing it but he was to strong, I tried to yank away from him. I couldn't.

lily picked up the gun slowly "lily just give it to me". I yelled, Tears running down my face, "lily!" I cried. "Lily".

My voice was drowned by a loud bang, pain struck my chest. I heard a scream then everything went black.

Now I look back and I wonder what I could've done better. I wish that I didn't abandoned my great, beautiful lily. . . but all that doesn't matter now, I had one chance and now its gone. . .