This is supposed to be like written in a journal...don't ask ..i guess (i like that word) i was reading to many angst fics XD
Enjoy ok?! Please don't flame..well unless you find something really major to flmae about --
I SADLY DONT OWN ANYTHING! but you knew that already
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Journal:
Suicide Entry!
So, I'll start by saying what a load of crap suicide notes are..seriously the ever famous line "If you're reading this, Im already dead" Dur! In a letter such as this aren't you supposed to tie up the lose ends? Aren't you supposed to reveal deep dark secrets? Tell your regrets? By saying that line you're setting people up to feel guilty when they already do, 'cause they feel bad that they couldn't help or see that there was a problem. So here mine goes..again so over used -sigh-
To my loved ones...gods that even sounds horrible
Thanks for putting up with me, thanks for showing me the way when I got lost.
There are presonal notes for each person I was affected by the most; Al, Winry, Bastard Father, Colonel Bastard, Hughes, and the Military Family...
Seven pages for seven different people...why you ask? Simple I love them all and I need them to know..well the Military family thing is because it was them as a whole that was amazing..so I do have my reasons..
Alphonse Elric
Little Brother, Al, how did you put up with me day after day? How could you stay so calm and loving inside a tin can?! I'm sorry, turely I am. I guess in a way I'm doing this because the exchange was not equal and it feels like we cheated..guess it shouldn't matter as long as we were happy..right..WRONG! Live your life Al, you deserve to after all I took your childhood away.
I can't say anymore to you since you can read me like a book even when I'm not there (over the phone or through a letter much like this), you are better with words then I myself am/was or could ever hope to be so, you probably understand what I'm trying to say...
So, Al..good-bye ..I ..love you.. wish I could have been a better brother and I am well aware you thought I was as good as any other..so again sorry.
Thats done..mmm what to say about ..rather to Winry..guess I'll just draw cats on Al's paper... OH and journal..since I think I'm putting too many dots I'll have you know I like the little dots!...SHUT UP MUSTANG[1..On to Winry.
Winry Rockbell
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Wow, I fell asleep..then had to report to Mustang..GRRRR..guess this is part 2 of my Suicide Entry since I didnt Finsih it.
Winry Rockbell
As corny as this will sound I'll say it anyways just so you know. You are the best mechanic in the world..I know that you always tryed you best so thanks.
Since we were kids we played laughed and shared, thst is until what happened to our mother. Anyway what I'm trying to say is sorry for not including you, but you were a sister to me (probably more if I allowed it) [2 and even though you were as tough as any guy I had to protect you from the harsh world that we were born into. By no means am I calling you weak or sensitve, I'm trying to say that you helped me in a lot of situations and that I'm greatful.
Thanks for everything and keep working hard!
Hey, when you meet a lucky guy try not to pound his lights in with your wrench
Bye.
Heh, well looks like I have a commen theme ..drawing on the paper when I'm done..mature and so girly..ah well..Winry likes wrenches..I'm sure she wont mind. Great I have to now write to my 'father' even though I'm sure he wont see it...
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1) sorry i came up with a short joke writting that.
2) refering to when Ed blushed in the movie when winry hugged him..also the anime where winry forgot the screw.