So this is my first story here on fanfiction and i have no idea whether this story is any good or not. Anywho this is my malec story i've just started. This is set after the 5th mortal instruments book.

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Alec's POV:

Fool.

That's only one word I can describe myself as at this moment in time. Of course, I had about 50 over words running through my head. Stupid, idiot, pathetic and well a lot more. I'm such a god damn idiot. What on earth was I thinking? Well done Alec, you've ruined the first, best and most likely last relationship I'll ever have because I was stupid and insecure. Stupid fool.

I walked home in the dark, the rain had started to spit as I walked away from that awful memory. I shuffled past jace and izzy, ignoring their concerned looks. Locking myself in my room, I leaned against the door, sliding down the door. My body started to shake as the sobs took over my body. Tears started to stream down my face like a water fall gone wild. I forced myself to get up so that I could at least collapse onto my bed. I lay curled up on my bed on my side, tucking my knees in so I lay in a ball. Staring blankly at the wall, the tears dripped side ways from my eyes and slid onto the pillow causing it to become damp. I covered my mouth with my hands to try and muffle my sobs.

A knock from the door. Knowing it was Izzy wanting to talk, I ignored it, continuing to stare at the wall. The knocks became louder and I became irritated quickly. When she knocked for the millionth time I decided to get up and get this out of the way.

"Alec" was the first thing she came out with. "Is everything okay?"

I knew I must have looked a right mess. She looked at me as if she wanted to smother me in hugs but I didn't want that right now. I wanted Magnus.

Magnus. I nearly burst out in fresh tears again at the thought of his name and I couldn't stand anymore, my knees buckled. I would have fell to the ground if Izzy hadn't of been there to catch me. She led me to my bed and I went back to my previous position. I buried my head into the pillow, trying to hide my face so she would see the streaks of tears that were obviously running down my face.

"Oh Alec, what's happened?" Concern laced into her voice, speaking as soft as a piece of velvet.

"I screwed up" I muttered simply. I saw her eyebrows draw together in confusion. I couldn't be bothered to explain properly, I didn't even want to talk about. Not to anyone.

"Huh? What are you on about? Your going to have to tell me more that"

"Magnus broke up with me"

Gasping, she sat next to my knees and started to run her fingers through my hair. "Why? What happened between the two of you?"

"I was insecure and acted like a fool"

"Alec, something else must have happened for you two to have broken up"

Sitting up suddenly, I looked her dead on in the eye. "I said I don't want to talk about it"

She fell silent as she looked at me. i could tell she didn't want to bother me and was unsure of what to say incase it upset me further. Standing up, she can her fingers through my hair one last time then hugged me awkwardly. I didn't look at her as she exited my room, instead I just lay back down, exhausted from the whole situation. I tried to sleep but it was as if the world was punishing me by forcing me to stay awake and think of the whole break up between me and Magnus.

"I'm tired of being your pet warlock"

"It's over"

"I don't want to see you again"

"Aku Cinta Kamu"

I'm pathetic. I'm a shadowhunter for Angel's sake, why am I getting upset over a break up? Oh right. That's because you loved the guy and still do. I heard the door to my bedroom being knocked again but I was too far in thought to tell them to go away. The memories flooded back of me and Magnus. How we first met at the party when looking for Clary's mom, kissing him in the accords hall, our romantic vacation. Then finding out about Camille. If I hadn't been so nosey about his past everything would have been fine right now and I'd probably be over at his apartment watching some next project runway and curling up on the sofa.

Well done Alec, now you can't have any of that you idiotic fool.

"Alec, if you don't get out of that room and tell us what's happened I swear I'll knock the door down myself and drag you out of there" It was Jace. For the first time in my life, i didn't want to see him. I didn't want to see anyone, I just wanted to be alone.

"Jace, please just...just go away" I said, just loud enough so he could hear me.

"Dude, you gotta talk about it"

"Not right now...please" My voice cracked on the last word and I knew he must have to the message as seconds later I heard Jace's footsteps become quieter and quieter down the hall of the insitute. I picked up a photo of me and Magnus when we had been in Paris. We were on one of the streets, the Eiffel Tower in the back ground, lights glowing up the streets. It was my favourite picture of us and the memory of that night that once used to make me smile and blush at the thought of it now caused me pain, knowing I had ruined everything.

Memories swirled around my head none stop. My eyes started to water and before I knew it, tears were pouring down my face again. I sniffed before attempting to get any sleep. Though I knew I wasn't going to be sleeping in a long time.

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