Learn to Love Again
Chapter 1: Never should Have
Julchen's P.O.V.
You were all that I wanted
I fell in love with all of your heart and your soul
From that moment couldn't imagine
You ever hurting me or mistreating my love
I should have known
It was the morning after my boyfriend, Stein, and I had our anniversary celebration and went to 'Tier 15' (1). I woke up with a smile on my face ready to greet him when I saw a note on the night table. I opened it and read it. When I finished reading it, I felt like crying my heart out. He left me, and dumped me! And he didn't even have the courage to tell me to my face!
Julchen: He…He left me after two years of pure happiness? He left me after I gave him my heart and keeping this a secret from my family and having to hear that he would leave me after one night from my Vatti?! He left me after I gave him my virginity last night?! *tears up* T-That Dumpkoft! I Hate him!
But nothing could stop the tears from coming out of my eyes.
Rivers of tear drops You never should have loved me (Ohh ohh ohh ohh...) Balled up, laying in my bed
These sharp pains in my heart
If this was the way that you loved
You never should have loved me
You never should have touched me
You never should have
Never should have told me you loved me and you would never leave me.
'Cause everything that you would do
It made me fall in love with you
Until you left and you made that mistake
Now I can't take you back if I wanted to
Thoughts racing through my head
How did we start up in love and end up here?
You said you loved me and I believed you
Seems like you don't even mean what you say
I was sitting in my bed, waiting for the timer to go off so I could see the results of the pregnancy test I felt like I should take. I honestly was so nervous, I felt like throwing up. I heard it go off and went to the bathroom to check the results, I really didn't want to, but I had to know for sure. Every step I took, I remembered when I planned this out when I thought we would be together, but apparently, all the "I Love You's" were fake.
Rivers of tear drops, You never should have loved me You were all that I wanted
These sharp pains in my heart
If this was the way that you loved
You never should have loved me
You never should have touched me
You never should have,
Never should have told me you loved me and you would never leave me.
'Cause everything that you would do
It made me fall in love with you
Until you left and you made that mistake
Now I can't take you back if I wanted to
I fell in love with you
'cause you loved me and I thought that you were ready
When I got to the counter, I closed my eyes and picked up the pregnancy test.
I thought that we were gonna be a family
And if you weren't then you should have let me
And when I opened my eyes, I saw the plus sigh. I was pregnant. And all I could do was sit on the bathroom floor, and cry. Cry because the baby that's growing inside me's father doesn't even want it. And I don't know if I want it either.
Keep all my love to give You never should have loved me (Ohh ohh ohh ohh...) Until you left and you made that mistake Yeah, yeah, yeah, hmm, hmm hmmm…
To someone who will~!
You never should have touched me
You never should have
Never should have told me you loved me and you would never leave me.
'Cause everything that you would do
It made me fall in love with you
Until you left and you made that mistake
Now I can't take you back if I wanted to
Now I can't take you back if I wanted to