Like we never loved at all
Today was supposed to be I light fun filled day in June to celebrate Michael's 35th birthday with a cookout for family so my mother had said…(Yes…I will admit I like them young….less baggage or so I thought)…..but I was surprised to find my extended family here as well when Michael & I showed up. I think a sigh of relief came over me when I realized it was only Rossi, Garcia & Kevin, & JJ & her family that where their…..But the one I was afraid of seeing considering that I had not spoken to him since he took me to the airport 8 long months ago…only added error to my already guilty conscience!
EIGHT MONTHS EARLIER…
This man has no clue what he is doing to me what-so-ever. After all of these years of putting each other's lives in one another's hands depending on each other in ways unfathomable by anyone its lead to this! Out of all the embraces and touches we have shared nothing could ever compare to how he's been holding me all night long, all of his gentle caresses, all of the long lingering kisses that absolutely take our breaths away, and the way he's making love to me as if we have been doing this for a life time. I never thought it was possible to want a man more than I want this one in my entire life, he keeps saying all the things I want to hear as he clings to my sex ridden body…although hours earlier I had begged him not to say the things he was saying to me, now I do not know how I could ever go back after this!
I know I shouldn't even be in this man's arm's little alone his bed….but it was almost as if all of those months apart had changed something in both of us. The factor that I have a boyfriend who I love and live with is the farthest thing from my mind except for the factor of how can I go back into his arms knowing what I am doing right now is so wrong even though it feels so right! As he tells me for probably the thousandth time tonight how much he loves me any thought of Michael has left my love drunken mind…..Yes I love this man….but in truth I know I am in love with this man and have been for years.
I had planned on being in Washington just for a long weekend so I could finally visit with everyone. When I arrived at Dulles Garcia picked me up with her usually gleefully bright appearance given me the 4th degree wanting to know why I had not brought Michael along but I told her that the beginning of the month was always very busy for him in his line of work so I decided to make a little get away to visit. By the end of the night we all were a little too drunk only showing how much I truly missed these outings with my ex-team members…..No I should say my family! Considering it was well after 2am and my hotel was closest to his house we decided to share a taxi, but one touch….one look…..one kiss…..and three days of the most wonderful time of my life leading to me finding my way back at Dulles catching a plane back to the open arms of a man who I have betrayed in every way possible!
When I landed at Heathrow there Michael was with open arms and the biggest and warmest smile ever as he pulled me into his warm and inviting body all I could think of was how I had betrayed this wonderful man who thinks I am a God sent to him! A few days after I had gotten back Michael had planned this elaborate dinner and surprise he said for my 43rd birthday….but little did I know what he had planned was going to change my life and what had happened the weekend before with a man I love in more ways than I should!
This is a little preview to what is to come! I hope you all will enjoy this little adventure in love or will it be a story of betrayal? As always I do not own criminal minds or its characters! Please R&R…thank you!