Hey, I decided to write this because I thought it might inspire me slightly with my other story Where is my happy ending. I am happy to report it did slightly and I would personally like the thank the people with sent me PM's and reviewed with ideas, you all are amazing! This fic is supposed to only be 1 chapter long like this is but if enough of you guys want another chapter, I will write another. Did that make sense? Probably not. Anyway thanks for reading -lexus
Ali POV.
I'm only human. I make mistakes and trust me when I say I am not perfect but do I really deserve this. The slushies in my face and the shoves into lockers? Do I really deserve to be told that I am worthless and the school would be better without me in it? It's 11th grade and I still am at the bottom of the so called high school food chain. It goes Mona and Hanna at the top, then the jocks/cheerleaders, then the middle class aka the majority, then the chemistry gaming nerds and then me. I'm so low on the food chain I might as well be under ground. Emily Fields is my only friend and I don't even like her like that. Have you ever liked somebody so much that you think your heart will explode every time they even slightly touch you? Thats what it feels like every time we hug or even just hold hands in a friendly manner.
Suddenly, somebody jumps me from behind at my locker and my skin feels like it's on fire. A good fire though like the ones you sit in front of on a cold night.
"Hey you! Where were you in English?"
"Oh I just slept in." I lied because if Emily knew I was in the bathroom trying to get the slushi off my face, she would lose it and then they would target her.
"Alison you may lie really well but I can see a bit of red on your white shirt so let me ask again. Where were you in English?"
"Fine, I was wiping slushi off my face! Happy?"
"Ali thats the 3erd time this week. You have to do something by this point!" She exclaims, throwing her arms up into the air.
"Like what! Tell the teachers or some authority figure. You must be joking because they do not care about that Em. Teachers come to work to get paid. They get paid by giving out packages, not to be somebody's personal therapist. They. Do. Not. Care. In fact nobody does okay!" I state while mentally scream for snapping at her but I just wish sometimes she would see that nobody cares. People just pretend to care and then when a problem comes up, they leave you all alone. At least that's what I've learned.
It's what happens to me with my whole family and what happened with all my old friend's. My train of thought is broken by a whisper I hear.
"I care." Looking up, I see that Em has her head hanging down and I step closer to her.
"Why though Em? Haven't you heard what they say. I'm not worth caring for." I announce sadly because after years of bullying, I finally believe every word they say about me.
"Because you amaze me Alison and because you are worth the world. Ali, you care about everybody else before yourself and though you have a weird way of showing it, I know I am right too so don't even try to change my opinion." She states quickly as I open my mouth to speak. Once I close my mouth, she continues.
"Ali you are so special ok don't let these shitty people bring you down ok. I care so much about you." As Emily finishes her mini speech I feel my eyes water slightly with unshed tears. By this time, everybody has gone to the next class and we are standing in a empty hallway. I get an urge of confidence and pull Em down, into a kiss. As fast as I kiss her, my confidence drops and I pull away. Turning red, I stare at her stunned expression and then bolt. I run away as fast as I can out of the school, leaving Emily alone to try and comprehend what just happened.
"What the hell did I just do." I ask myself while running in a direction unknown. My breathing becomes shallow and my run turns into a slow jog. I find myself in the woods and I know exactly where I am as soon as I see it. The Kissing rock. All the popular people at my school bring somebody here. It is said that couples have been going there for century's to kiss. It's one of the places Em and I just go to talk. Sitting down beside the rock, I think of how I just kissed my best friend and how I most likely ruined the best thing in my life. The only true friend and safe haven I have ever had. I put my headphones in and hit shuffle. Of course a Human by Christina Perri comes on and as soon as the chorus comes on, silent tears cascade down my face. It is as if the song represents all the bullying I have suffered from my peers and the times my family chose to ignore me.
Suddenly, I feel somebody tap my shoulder and I look up to see who it was. To my surprise, it was Emily. I rapidly wipe away my tears that have stained my eye's red slightly. She turns and sits down beside me, both our backs leaning against the rock we are so familiar with. I sigh and prepare myself for a speech about she doesn't think we should be friends anymore because it's just to weird but what Em say's next leaves me astonished.
"Well it took long enough. I've been waiting for you to kiss me since 8th grade." My jaw drops and I am in complete shock. My reply sounds like I'm a fish out of water. Finally, able to get out a single word, I say,
"What?!" She giggles in response to statement/question and then just smiles.
"I said, I have been waiting for you to kiss me since 8th grade. It took forever for you to make a move." The way she say's it makes me doubt her obvious innocence.
"You have?"
"Yes, Ali I have been." Her expression while she talks is warm but has no joking manor to it.
"But why? We are best friend's and now you say this after I kissed you and I'm just a little bit confused." I exclaim because in all honesty, I've got no idea what is happening between Em and I.
"Ali, I like you. I've been wanting us to be more then friends for a really long time. That's why I said I've been waiting for you to kiss me since 8th grade. Honestly, I didn't think you would but I always kinda hoped so." With that she looks at me sideways and I am able to see some of the vulnerability in her eye's. She is just as scared of these feelings as I am.
"What do we do now Em? As in, are we together in a way?"
"I think so." She replies simply before turning her body to face me directly. "Alison DiLaurentis w-would you like to go on a date with me?" Emily asks me, her nerves showing slightly.
"I would love to." Em looks at me before looking down to the ground and smiling her stunning smile. Standing up, I put my hand out to help her up and she graciously accepts. Once she is off the ground, I unsuccessfully try to move my hand from her's, in an effort to make sure she is not uncomfortable with our new relationship status but her hand refuses to let go. I look down to our to attached hands and smile before I feel myself be pulled closer to Em. Looking up due to Emily's hieght, she begins to lean down and just like that our lips fuse together. She smiles as she slowly kisses me and then pulls away. We walk hand in hand back into rosewood and I come to realize, even on the hardest of day's something amazing can happen